rains

well generally rains bring a lot of excitment in me but i dunno this year y i just cant find myself enthusiastic enough . my life just has begun to seem so dull . i had gone thru a terrible last year but had gained quite a bit of confidence and self-esteem during the summer and had expected to buildup on it , but i dunno y i just feel a bit too tired to be doing anything . not physically but feel like resting my brain . i dont even wanna dream for the time being. just dunno wat to do . i wanna sleep , but even sleeping seems to be the most disgusting thing to do. i dunno wats happening . though i am quite moody but even my mood dosent seems to change. actually i am not even able to express this discomfort that i feel within me . well i even dont feel like blogging but i am forcing myself to because this seems to be the only out let. hoping the situation improves . read quite a few good blogs . seems to have helped me....

river of dreams

hi folks here i am with a beautiful song
this is a song by billy joel
just loved the lyrics of the song
always thought how can one describe dreams
well this cam quite close to doing that.......

In the middle of the night
I go walking in my sleep
From the mountains of faith
To the river so deep
I must be lookin' for something
Something sacred I lost
But the river is wide
And it's too hard to cross
even though I know the river is wide
I walk down every evening and stand on the shore
I try to cross to the opposite side
So I can finally find what I've been looking for
In the middle of the night
I go walking in my sleep
Through the valley of fear
To a river so deep
I been searching for something
Taken out of my soul
Something I'd never lose
Something somebody stole
I don't know why I go walking at night
But now I'm tired and I don't want to walk anymore
I hope it doesn't take the rest of my life
Until I find what it is I've been looking for
(Two beat Pause)
In the middle of the night
I go walking in my sleep
Through the jungle of doubt
To the river so deep
I know I'm searching for something
Something so undefined
That it can only be seen
By the eyes of the blind
In the middle of the night (break)

’M’not sure about a life after this
God knows I've never been a spiritual man
Baptized by the fire, I wade into the river
That is runnin' to the promised land (Long Four beat Pause)

In the middle of the night
I go walking in my sleep
Through the desert of the truth
To the river so deep
We all end in the ocean
We all start in the streams
We're all carried along
By the river of dreams
In the middle of the night

rut aaa gayi re rut chaa gayi re

yes finally it seems that the monsoon is here . ever since i read about the whole monsson arrival mechanism it changed my whole outlook towards it . i started linking my self to it . i started taking inspiration from it to help people in need . i fealt that it i cud assosiate myself to it . i always fealt i cud feel it but i realised this time that i just knew it . this time the monsoons were late in coming and the absence of it showed me its importance and so much more that i can just express here in words . but one thing is for sure that now onwards monsoon will be a different and more amazing experience for me . hope you all to enjoy it sooner than later .

by the way one more thing that started todays was the classic grasscourt battle in the wimbledon .
i like watching it but nothing beats french open in terms of excitement .
yet wud be eager to watch fed-express on his favourite surface . i know that its not gud to see someone dominate the game in which he does . it seems no one can compete with him . but still i feel that he deserves to play every match he plays .

wola parineeta

well we had a power cutoff for the whole day yesterday so the 4 of us decided to go for a movie and stay away from this home which was like an oven without the electricity
anyways the movie we went to watch was parineeta. well i had heard it was a classic but after i saw it i realised it is a classic . i didnt like the acting of any particular actor neither did i feel that the direction had anything special . but the only thing done well was that it closely followed the novel on which it was based . i found the story to be just amazing . but i admit that i got really bored n the first half but then i learned the trick . i thought that what i was watching on the screen was just how i would visualise while i read the book . really it dosent seems to be gr8 as a movie but if u think that u r reading a novel then the way th story moves along you are bound to feel that what an amazing book it would have been . my mom had seen the earlier version of this movie and she said that the earlier movie was a lot better . i too cud understand what she meant . the movie could not potray the emotions of the story . what i also liked about the movie was the music . it was slow and soothing yet rhythmic. it forgot everything while watching the movie and now after watching the movie i dont remember what i saw there . but i must say the look of the movie was just too good . really made it look like a classic . really a very pleasing experience . i wud say go and have a look at it either at a theater ar only after the dvd releases becoz you wont be able to enjoy the amazing cinematography of the movie else. the movie stars vidya balan on whome i was fidaa when she first appeared in the euphoria music video . she just looks so beautiful in the movie too . actually she wud look beautiful anywhere anytime , especially in indian ethnic dresses .

Just a thought for the National Anthem!

How well do u know about it?
I have always wondered who is the "adhinayak"
and "bharat bhagya vidhata", whose praise we are
singing.I thought may be God! Our current National Anthem "Jana Gana Mana"
is sung throughout the country.Did you know the following about our national

anthem,i didn't.
To begin with, India's national anthem, Jana Gana Mana Adhinayaka, was
written by Rabindranath Tagore
in honor of King George V and the Queen of England
when they visited India in 1919. To honor their visit Pundit Motilal Nehru
had the five stanzas included,which are in praise of the King and Queen.
And most of us think it is in the praise of our great motherland!!!
In the original Bengali verses only those provinces that were under British
rule, i.e. Punjab, Sindh, Gujarat,Maratha .. etc. were mentioned.
None of the princely states were recognized which are integral parts of
India now - Kashmir,Rajasthan, Andhra, Mysore or Kerala. Neither the Indian
ocean nor the Arabian Sea were included, since they were directly under
Portuguese rule at that time. The Jana Gana Mana adhinayaka implies that
King George V is the lord of the masses and Bharata Bhagya Vidhata is "the
bestower of good fortune".
Following is a translation of the five stanzas which glorify the King:

1st stanza (Indian)People wake up remembering your good name and ask for
your blessings and they sing your glories.

2nd stanza Around your throne people of all religions come and give their
love and anxiously wait to hear your kind words.

3rd stanza Praise to the King for being the charioteer, for leading the
ancient travelers beyond misery.

4th stanza Drowned in the deep ignorance and suffering,poverty
stricken,unconscious country? waiting for the wink of your eye and your
mother's (the Queen's) true protection.

5th stanza In your compassionate plans, the sleeping Bharat (India) will
wake up. We bow down to your feet O' Queen, and glory to rajeshwara (the
King).

This whole poem does not indicate any love for the Motherland but depicts a
bleak picture.
When you sing Jana Gana Mana Adhinayaka, whom are you glorifying? Certainly
not the Motherland. Is it God?

The poem does not indicate that. It is time now to understand the original
purpose and the implication of this, rather than blindly sing as has been
done the past fifty years. Nehru chose the present national anthem as
opposed to Vande Mataram because he thought that it would be easier for the
band to play. It was an absurd reason but Today for that matter bands have
advanced and they can very well play any music. So they can as well play
Vande Mataram, which is a far better composition in praise of our dear
Motherland -India. Wake up, it's high time! Vande Mataram should be our
National Anthem.


The following is Tagore's English rendering of the anthem: Thou art the ruler of the minds of all people, dispenser of India's destiny. Thy name rouses the hearts of Punjab, Sind, Gujarat and Maratha, of the Dravida and Orissa and Bengal; It echoes in the hills of the Vindyas and Himalayas, mingles in the music of Jamuna and Ganges and is chanted by the waves of the Indian Sea. They pray for thy blessings and sing thy praise. The saving of all people waits in thy hand, thou dispenser of India's destiny. Victory, victory, victory to thee.

this is wat meaning i get from the site of central government .
to have ur say on it plz click on the comment link below..

restaurants

well today i went with my family to a restaurant like any weekend .
but for the first time i actually thot about it and found it to be quite interesting a place .
well i earlier considered it to be a place where you just have food and come out thats it.
but actually its more than that .
actually its more than a meeting place than an eating place .

it is place for friendz to freak out.

it is a place for couples to have their private talks.

it is a day out for a family whose members are busy with their work for most of the time .

sometimes people related due to business meet and lunch .

sometimes it is a place to celebrate any kind of success .

sometimes it is the place where the mister tries to calm down his angry mistress .

it may be a place to just take your mind out of something bothering u for long , satisfy your appetite and just have a food for thought .

and it is also a place to do what i did today .......
just look at a variety of people who visit the place for so many different reasons .


by the way something very interesting that we talked about at the restaurant .

my sister said that mumbai has the largest number of restaurants in the country.

to this my mother said that about 70% of the people there have never gone to a restaurant and yet they don't have an urge to go to such a place . they are quite happy with eating the vada paw , paw bhaji , bhel , chat etc. that they get to eat on streets .

well frankly enough even i enjoyed eating all those stuff while taking a long walk on the marine drive , or tasting all these delicacies while trolling on the muddy chowpatti . i too admit that i would love to do that again instad of going to a wonderfully beautiful lounge with well reknowned food . wat say ???

romance

well being romantic is often taken as being very loving and passionate to a person.
well it is true but a romantic person is one who is actually loves and is very passionate about life. someone who looks at life in a new way everyday , every moment.
someone who is very careless yet very caring .someone who overlooks the bad part of life and strives to live only with the good part . someone who wanders through hills, green fields and roads unknown in quest of something that he can not explain . the mind-set is such that everyone seems to be trust-worthy . no regrets for whatever happens . the person seems to be very sentimental about the least important things . the people that he meets is just out of sheer pleasure and not because of any interest .
well u might be considering that i am talking of any character from a fairy tale or some story . but no really people like these do exist in between us . Infact between the age of 15 and 17 i too consider myself to have been that kinda person . ofcourse due to some reasons (not looking insane to others) i restrained myself from doing some of the things that were said above . infact i feel that it is the age that when evryone can be like that . and some people even stay like that after they move ahead in life < and i wud admit that i wud seriously envy such a person if we ever met >
well now i know that i have changed quite a bit and going back to that kinda life is going to be like suicidal. but anyways i know that such a person is always going to be inside me and i will never let die in the hope that some day i wud once again travel though the world of my own . what say???

about me

well some one advised me to tell people about me so here i am describing my self using a song written most probably by mr. sayed aslam .

नहीं रखता दिल में कुछ,
रखता हूँ ज़ुबान पर,
समझे न अपने भी कभी|
कह नहीं सकता मैं क्या सकता हूँ छुपाकर,
इक ऐसी आदत है मेरी|
सभी तो हैं जिनसे मिलता हूँ,
सही जो है इनसे कहता हूँ,
जो समझता हूँ|
मैंने देखा नहीं रंग दिल आया है सिर्फ़ अदा पर,
इक ऐसी चाहत है मेरी|
बहारों के घेरे से लाया मैं दिल सजाकर,
इक ऐसी सोहबत है मेरी|
साए में छए रहता हूँ,
आँखें बिछा रहता हूँ,
जिनसे मिलता हूँ|


कितनों को देखा है हमने यहाँ,
कुछ सीखा है हमने इनसे नया|
पहले फुर्सत थी आब हसरत,
इक ऐसी उलझन है मेरी|
खुद चल के रुकता हूँ जहाँ जिस जगह पर,
इक ऐसी सरहद है मेरी|
कहने से भि मैं दरता हूँ,
अपनों की धुन में रहता हूँ,
कर क्या सकता हूँ|
दे सकता हूँ मैं थोदा प्यार यहाँ पर,
जितनी हैसियत है मेरी|
रह जाऊँ सबके दिल में दिल को बसाकर,
इक ऐसी नीयत है मेरी|



well this is the song that i thought would describe me well

i just speak what is on my mind,
but ppl dont understand and consider me to be rude.
i am open to meeting any kiind of person(as long as they can tolerate me) , and i speak to everyone alike as per what i know.
actions & thinking and not looks is what makes me like a person.
i am always eager to meet or talk to anyone
i always work by my instincts and thus i always go by my own rules
what rules applies to others doesn't necessary apply to me.
i don't consider that i have anything that others people don't have
i dont ever like to talk to people about me
no one subject interests me, if a person talks to me i am quite ready to talk upon anything
how i am just depends only on whome i am with
actually i dont have anything thing in me that may be of others interest
all that i feel i can do is may be try make others feel better by what ever i do
i dont need anything from anyone.

well thats is quite a bit about me.

an interesting conversation

An atheist professor of philosophy speaks to his class on the problem science has with God, The Almighty. He asks one of his new Muslim students to stand and.....
Professor: You are a Muslim, aren't you, son?
Student : Yes, sir.
Professor: So you believe in God?
Student : Absolutely, sir.
Professor: Is God good?
Student : Sure.
Prof: Is God all-powerful?
Student : Yes.
Prof: My brother died of cancer even though he prayed to God to heal him.
Most of us would attempt to help others who are ill. But God didn't. How is this God good then? Hmm?
(Student is silent.)
Prof: You can't answer, can you? Let's start again, young fella. Is God good?
Student :Yes.
Prof: Is Satan good?
Student : No.
Prof: Where does Satan come from?
Student : From...God...
Prof: That's right. Tell me son, is there evil in this world?
Student : Yes.
Prof: Evil is everywhere, isn't it? And God did make everything. Correct?
Student : Yes.
Prof: So who created evil?
(Student does not answer.)
Prof: Is there sickness? Immorality? Hatred? Ugliness? All these terrible things exist in the world, don't they?
Student :Yes, sir.
Prof: So, who created them?
(Student has no answer.)
Prof: Science says you have 5 senses you use to identify and observe the world around you. Tell me, son...Have you ever seen God?
Student : No, sir.
Prof: Tell us if you have ever heard your God?
Student : No , sir.
Prof: Have you ever felt your God, tasted your God, smelt your God? Have you ever had any sensory perception of God for that matter?
Student : No, sir. I'm afraid I haven't.
Prof: Yet you still believe in Him?
Student : Yes.
Prof: According to empirical, testable, demonstrable protocol, science says your GOD doesn't exist. What do you say to that, son?
Student : Nothing. I only have my faith.
Prof: Yes. Faith. And that is the problem science has.
Student : Professor, is there such a thing as heat?
Prof: Yes.
Student : And is there such a thing as cold?
Prof: Yes.
Student : No sir. There isn't.
(The lecture theatre becomes very quiet with this turn of events.)
Student : Sir, you can have lots of heat, even more heat, superheat, mega heat, white heat, a little heat or no heat. But we don't have anything called cold. We can hit 458 degrees below zero which is no heat, but we can't go any further after that. There is no such thing as cold. Cold is only a word we use to describe the absence of heat. We cannot measure cold. Heat is energy. Cold is not the opposite of heat, sir, just the absence of it.
(There is pin-drop silence in the lecture theatre.)
Student : What about darkness, Professor? Is there such a thing as darkness?
Prof: Yes. What is night if there isn't darkness?
Student : You're wrong again, sir. Darkness is the absence of something. You can have low light, normal light, bright light, flashing light....But if you have no light constantly, you have nothing and it's called darkness, isn't it? In reality, darkness isn't. If it were you would be able to make darkness darker, wouldn't you?
Prof: So what is the point you are making, young man?
Student : Sir, my point is your philosophical premise is flawed.
Prof: Flawed? Can you explain how?
Student : Sir, you are working on the premise of duality. You argue there is life and then there is death, a good God and a bad God. You are viewing the concept of God as something finite, something we can measure. Sir, science can't even explain a thought. It uses electricity and magnetism, but has never seen, much less fully understood either one. To view death as the opposite of life is to be ignorant of the fact that death cannot exist as a substantive thing. Death is not the opposite of life: just the absence of it. Now tell me, Professor. Do you teach your students that they evolved from a monkey?
Prof: If you are referring to the natural evolutionary process, yes, of course, I do.
Student : Have you ever observed evolution with your own eyes, sir?
(The Professor shakes his head with a smile, beginning to realize where the argument is going.)
Student : Since no one has ever observed the process of evolution at work and cannot even prove that this process is an on-going endeavour, are you not teaching your opinion, sir? Are you not a scientist but a preacher?
(The class is in uproar.)
Student : Is there anyone in the class who has ever seen the Professor's brain?
(The class breaks out into laughter.)
Student : Is there anyone here who has ever heard the Professor's brain, felt it, touched or smelt it?.....No one appears to have done so. So, according to the established rules of empirical, stable, demonstrable protocol, science says that you have no brain, sir. With all due respect, sir, how do we then trust your lectures, sir?
(The room is silent. The professor stares at the student, his face unfathomable.)
Prof: I guess you'll have to take them on faith, son.
Student : That is it sir.. The link between man & god is FAITH. That is all that keeps things moving & alive.


well i post this as i had always thot that there is no such thing as god .
and not that i had read this and i believed in him.
well i saw wat was going on in this world and how it has just changed and man has changed.
well if u believe that god has built this world then i see that he has a great sense of beauty.
in that case how can someone with such amazing power just watch and see wat is happening in this world...
but i have always kept thinking about this thing . i know that it is a topic which can draw a lot of comments and a lot of views all distinctly different from the other.
but in the end wat i thot is how does his being or non being matter to me.
everytime i come up with something that tells me to believe in him there is another thot that comes instantly telling me that i need not believe in him.
just tell me that y god makes people believe in him in different ways.
y r there so many religions that show him in different ways.
and what is the reason that these religions want him to worship him .
there are people who dont worship him and yet lead a happy life.
well if he is almighty powerful then y dosent he make people follow the religion.
y does he allow people to do bad deeds and hurt the people who worship him.
i just dont get it.
i just want to know that can't he just demolish the basis of all the bad deeds happening allaround
of course he must be able to because as per popular belie if he cant no one can.

just some thing that prompted me to write this post

A convenient hook for a pessimist upon which he can hang his miseries and misfortune and thus avail himself a temporary respite from the pain.For an optimist he represents the power that can be called upon to bail him out of occassional troubles with a little bribing( read coconuts and pav kilo pedas).


well from now on i c that i cant bring drastic changes in this world so i just believe in him.
but not that i believe in his powers and will blindly follow him.
i will just believe that yes he is there and when ever i see something that i dont think is right to be a part of his beautiful world(i.e. i persieve that the world without man is a beautiful place)
i will yell at him and tell this is wat is happening in this world that you created and as a part of this world i would like u to consider it.
(well you just can't go to sleep after making this place , you also have to maintain it).