words

The thing that really seperates humans from any other animal is the words to express . for this very reason i love the slogan of Airtel " express yourself" . i believe we live only to express what we feel , observe and understand . We communicate in various forms , but words are the most accurate forms of expression ... well here is the catch what if you come in contact with a person who dosent know your language and whose language you dont know . then i believe you have to trust your instincts for communicating . but do i need to meet such a person to realise this , nope . Words dont always express what we feel , they just dont have the power , maybe one can impress someone through proficient usage of a language , but i wonder if the words can express everything . They create misunderstanding because people think that they are the most accurate form of expression , thus understand the superficial meaning and not the feeling they are meant to express . I wish everyone could go back to their instincts to understand the feelings rather than the words ...

2 decades

Hey today I have completed two decades in the third rock from the sun and in this world where people love those who mature beyond their years , I have had a rocking time being idiotic , erratic and kiddish to say the least , and have not been seriously been hated for it ....
Just looking back at those years I think I have not been of any worth to this world but there are a lot of things that I have learned . I have learned about life , yes no matter what I have studied I have always been a desciple of life . Life has taught me lots of things and I have been able to develop myself as an individual . The first thing I learnt was that individuality can be maintained without being stubborn and a pain in the neck for others . we may have our views of life but there is no reason for us to believe that it is perfect . we need to keep changing that is what makes life worth living ... next comes the fact that we all have our own philosophy of life and everyone act in a manner that suits best to his way of thinking ... also no one is born with all the knowledge , everyone shapes their mind in this world depending on the situations and influences they face in life ... so no one is supposed to be hated for the way they think coz it is the people who are around them who have made him like this ... moreover there is nothing such as prestige ... ego exists in this world in the name of prestige ... one feels insulted when his prestige is hurt and thus gives an opening for ego to creep in ... there is no harm in saying sorry or getting slapped in front of a huge audience if you are wrong .... and so if you are right and are standing by the truth ... i have spent a lot of time pondering over many a teachings in life and to my utter surprise everytime the basis of every lesson was one five letter word TRUTH . it is the biggest fact of life ... infact life is nothing but like a eucledian space representing coordinate points which are the different versions of truth that we come across in our lives ... sticking to it makes sense ... trust me on that point...
furthermore i have sensed that relationships are something that make life complex , so stay away from them as far as possible . there are some we arte born with so we should cautiously handle them but be very selective in the others that we form as we move ahead in life ... i dont say that i dont interact with people , yes i do but still i try to be smart enough to not to be attached to them ....
i will always try and make an effort to be creative and be an individual ... i realise the importance of being true to myself and thus i dont need to show the world that i am individual but i need to be sure myself about the same...
i look to spend the coming decades in a more responsible manner and hope to apply what i have learned till now and be open to newer ideas ...
chao

let them go by

Dosent it sometimes happen that we actually make a meaningless effort to feel happy and make others feel the same...

i had changed my school after my senior secondary exams to complete my higher secondary ... back then i dont know what was going on in my mind that i didnt quite make an effort to keep in touch with my batchmates , or i felt that they didnt had any intrest either ... I was lucky to have come across a great bunch of people in my new school . so there was no reason more so ever to think about them ... we had great fun in the school , just rocked the whole school with our mischevious brains ... i personally felt it was the best time of my life ... man, thinking of the last day of school still brings tears to my eyes ... we had bonded so much that it was hard to believe that it all had to end ... after that we parted in our ways and most of the folks got into some engg. college across the country ... well i didnt quite get a happening batch in college ... everything seemed quite boring ... so i thought that how great it would get back togeather and just revive ourselves of the spirit to have fun that we had ... with the help of a couple of people of the batch we got a get2 geather happening . it was grest to see everyone togeather again. everyone described how their year had gone and what kinda life they are living ... ihad opened a yahoo group and asked everyone to join it and we had some of our group photos uploaded . sometimes someone informed about the fest and stuuf going on in their colleges ... then we all joined orkut and thought we could better interact there ... but basically all we do is keep scrapping some crap and the same old questions "how are you???" and "hey wazzup?" ... and as usual the answer is the same ....'
open the mail box and find yourself a hundred mails from your friends but those too are some crap forwards... for gods sake how much can you sit in the front of the pc and get amused from them , and do i need friends for these mails , no i can get them by joining some sick group that can fill up your 2GB email space within a week ....
but still people keep sending them because they feel like it is a way to keep in touch..
i made a few email pals and teh same thing happened with them too....
i was quite puzzled about what to do and then suddenly today i got from a friend of my earlier school ... never calle for three good years and i was surprised to hear from him .. he said he was flying out of the country and getting settled in uk .... so he thought of just contacting me once and tell me just in case i was ever willing to contact him . and i realise today tha what is the importance of human contact... the best way to preserve a relation is not to try and make effort to maintain it but let it take its due course and preserve the care on which it is based ...
just let them go by instead of making an abortive effort to keep in touch always ... there is a wireless connection that bounds us always so need never worry about losing touch ... just make a call when you remember of someone....

Bamboozled

current status : "tujhse naaraaz nahin zindagi hairaan hoon main"

ya i know many of you are permanantly in that status ... well after my exams ended on 11 aug I decided to spend the rest of the month to realise where i stand in my life.. to understand my self , what i want , and where i am heading ... i realised that i am not really heading anywhere ... i am studying but i am not quite sure how and where i will be applyng it . well i realised i had to be creative , i realised i was not using my mind as much as i should... maybe i was following others words too much . i should literally start living my life the way i think i should .... finally i decided that i would think out what to do and when to do ... i also came across this ebook called "wisdom of osho" . spent long time on the pc , strained my eyes a lot and finished it ... while i was reading i felt i had learnt quite a lot but in the end when i analysed it then i found that the philosophy itself told me to not follow what the book preached me ... such was the paradox of the philosophy descfibed.. hehe ..
well i had decided to be creative so started spending more time towards my site , started a new blog and started playing my guitar and trying to be progressive by making effort in improving in whatever i did...
then i started to write a bit of poetry and composed a new song (atleast started to )
well i decided to clean up my computer up a bit of all the junk that i had been storing all the songs i had never heard and all the ebooks ehich i never read , and then i cleared my blogs blogroll list of the dead links , sad to see some of my old friends having stopped blogging ...

well somthing important i realised that now i was not thinking but instead doing ... i was living like others who thought that ok maybe some day i will rad the book and someday i will listen to the songs and someday i will .. & i will ....
what the hell , i relaised what am i doing . i have to start living in today ... from now on I am doing what i feel like doing and am going to make an effort to be more practical in life...
i wasted quite some time on orkut now , thinking i ll make some new friends but now no more , i'll carry on with the ones i already have , no more future speculations . similarly i'll post more often because it has often happened that i have thought i will post about something but kept postponing it ... also from now on i have a new blog , running parallel to this blog..

there was no yesterday , no tommrow and only today...