words

The thing that really seperates humans from any other animal is the words to express . for this very reason i love the slogan of Airtel " express yourself" . i believe we live only to express what we feel , observe and understand . We communicate in various forms , but words are the most accurate forms of expression ... well here is the catch what if you come in contact with a person who dosent know your language and whose language you dont know . then i believe you have to trust your instincts for communicating . but do i need to meet such a person to realise this , nope . Words dont always express what we feel , they just dont have the power , maybe one can impress someone through proficient usage of a language , but i wonder if the words can express everything . They create misunderstanding because people think that they are the most accurate form of expression , thus understand the superficial meaning and not the feeling they are meant to express . I wish everyone could go back to their instincts to understand the feelings rather than the words ...

2 decades

Hey today I have completed two decades in the third rock from the sun and in this world where people love those who mature beyond their years , I have had a rocking time being idiotic , erratic and kiddish to say the least , and have not been seriously been hated for it ....
Just looking back at those years I think I have not been of any worth to this world but there are a lot of things that I have learned . I have learned about life , yes no matter what I have studied I have always been a desciple of life . Life has taught me lots of things and I have been able to develop myself as an individual . The first thing I learnt was that individuality can be maintained without being stubborn and a pain in the neck for others . we may have our views of life but there is no reason for us to believe that it is perfect . we need to keep changing that is what makes life worth living ... next comes the fact that we all have our own philosophy of life and everyone act in a manner that suits best to his way of thinking ... also no one is born with all the knowledge , everyone shapes their mind in this world depending on the situations and influences they face in life ... so no one is supposed to be hated for the way they think coz it is the people who are around them who have made him like this ... moreover there is nothing such as prestige ... ego exists in this world in the name of prestige ... one feels insulted when his prestige is hurt and thus gives an opening for ego to creep in ... there is no harm in saying sorry or getting slapped in front of a huge audience if you are wrong .... and so if you are right and are standing by the truth ... i have spent a lot of time pondering over many a teachings in life and to my utter surprise everytime the basis of every lesson was one five letter word TRUTH . it is the biggest fact of life ... infact life is nothing but like a eucledian space representing coordinate points which are the different versions of truth that we come across in our lives ... sticking to it makes sense ... trust me on that point...
furthermore i have sensed that relationships are something that make life complex , so stay away from them as far as possible . there are some we arte born with so we should cautiously handle them but be very selective in the others that we form as we move ahead in life ... i dont say that i dont interact with people , yes i do but still i try to be smart enough to not to be attached to them ....
i will always try and make an effort to be creative and be an individual ... i realise the importance of being true to myself and thus i dont need to show the world that i am individual but i need to be sure myself about the same...
i look to spend the coming decades in a more responsible manner and hope to apply what i have learned till now and be open to newer ideas ...
chao

let them go by

Dosent it sometimes happen that we actually make a meaningless effort to feel happy and make others feel the same...

i had changed my school after my senior secondary exams to complete my higher secondary ... back then i dont know what was going on in my mind that i didnt quite make an effort to keep in touch with my batchmates , or i felt that they didnt had any intrest either ... I was lucky to have come across a great bunch of people in my new school . so there was no reason more so ever to think about them ... we had great fun in the school , just rocked the whole school with our mischevious brains ... i personally felt it was the best time of my life ... man, thinking of the last day of school still brings tears to my eyes ... we had bonded so much that it was hard to believe that it all had to end ... after that we parted in our ways and most of the folks got into some engg. college across the country ... well i didnt quite get a happening batch in college ... everything seemed quite boring ... so i thought that how great it would get back togeather and just revive ourselves of the spirit to have fun that we had ... with the help of a couple of people of the batch we got a get2 geather happening . it was grest to see everyone togeather again. everyone described how their year had gone and what kinda life they are living ... ihad opened a yahoo group and asked everyone to join it and we had some of our group photos uploaded . sometimes someone informed about the fest and stuuf going on in their colleges ... then we all joined orkut and thought we could better interact there ... but basically all we do is keep scrapping some crap and the same old questions "how are you???" and "hey wazzup?" ... and as usual the answer is the same ....'
open the mail box and find yourself a hundred mails from your friends but those too are some crap forwards... for gods sake how much can you sit in the front of the pc and get amused from them , and do i need friends for these mails , no i can get them by joining some sick group that can fill up your 2GB email space within a week ....
but still people keep sending them because they feel like it is a way to keep in touch..
i made a few email pals and teh same thing happened with them too....
i was quite puzzled about what to do and then suddenly today i got from a friend of my earlier school ... never calle for three good years and i was surprised to hear from him .. he said he was flying out of the country and getting settled in uk .... so he thought of just contacting me once and tell me just in case i was ever willing to contact him . and i realise today tha what is the importance of human contact... the best way to preserve a relation is not to try and make effort to maintain it but let it take its due course and preserve the care on which it is based ...
just let them go by instead of making an abortive effort to keep in touch always ... there is a wireless connection that bounds us always so need never worry about losing touch ... just make a call when you remember of someone....

Bamboozled

current status : "tujhse naaraaz nahin zindagi hairaan hoon main"

ya i know many of you are permanantly in that status ... well after my exams ended on 11 aug I decided to spend the rest of the month to realise where i stand in my life.. to understand my self , what i want , and where i am heading ... i realised that i am not really heading anywhere ... i am studying but i am not quite sure how and where i will be applyng it . well i realised i had to be creative , i realised i was not using my mind as much as i should... maybe i was following others words too much . i should literally start living my life the way i think i should .... finally i decided that i would think out what to do and when to do ... i also came across this ebook called "wisdom of osho" . spent long time on the pc , strained my eyes a lot and finished it ... while i was reading i felt i had learnt quite a lot but in the end when i analysed it then i found that the philosophy itself told me to not follow what the book preached me ... such was the paradox of the philosophy descfibed.. hehe ..
well i had decided to be creative so started spending more time towards my site , started a new blog and started playing my guitar and trying to be progressive by making effort in improving in whatever i did...
then i started to write a bit of poetry and composed a new song (atleast started to )
well i decided to clean up my computer up a bit of all the junk that i had been storing all the songs i had never heard and all the ebooks ehich i never read , and then i cleared my blogs blogroll list of the dead links , sad to see some of my old friends having stopped blogging ...

well somthing important i realised that now i was not thinking but instead doing ... i was living like others who thought that ok maybe some day i will rad the book and someday i will listen to the songs and someday i will .. & i will ....
what the hell , i relaised what am i doing . i have to start living in today ... from now on I am doing what i feel like doing and am going to make an effort to be more practical in life...
i wasted quite some time on orkut now , thinking i ll make some new friends but now no more , i'll carry on with the ones i already have , no more future speculations . similarly i'll post more often because it has often happened that i have thought i will post about something but kept postponing it ... also from now on i have a new blog , running parallel to this blog..

there was no yesterday , no tommrow and only today...

maths and stats

well first paper was preety good and the second paper i some how managed and third paper was very good , nothin much adventurous to tell

stats was very simple and i think i did preety well in explaing all the basic model that were part of the questions asked ....

so part 1 is finally over...

Friendship Proverbs

"Books and friends should be few but good."

"A friend in need is a friend indeed."

"A good friend is my nearest relation."

"A hedge between keeps friendship green."

"God defend me from my friends; from my enemies I can defend myself."

"Love is blind; friendship closes its eyes."

"Love is blind. Friendship tries not to notice."

"The best of friends must part."

"Do not use a hatchet to remove a fly from your friend's forehead."

"To have a friend, be a friend."

"The death of a friend is equivalent to the loss of a limb."

"Life without a friend is like death without a witness."

"The best mirror is an old friend."

"May there always be work for your hands to do, may your purse always hold a coin or two. May the sun always shine on your windowpane, may a rainbow be certain to follow each rain. May the hand of a friend always be near you, may God fill your heart with gladness to cheer you."

"A cheerful friend is like a sunny day spreading brightness all around."

"There are many types of ships. there are wooden ships ,plastic ships, and metal ships. but the best and most important types of ships are friendships."

"The only unsinkable ship is FRIENDSHIP."

" A friend is one to whom one may pour out all the contents of one's heart, chaff and grain together, knowing that the gentlest of hands will take and sift it, keep what is worth keeping and with a breath of kindness blow the rest away."

"It is better to be in chains with friends , than to be in a garden with strangers."


happy friendship day to all....

hindi paper

well i admitted it lot of times i just hate reading hindi , but it is a compulsary subject so had to give it . it had many more chapters than english somehow managed to mugg up the whole guide that i had borrowed from a friend.... the only motivation for the exam was that this is gonna be the alst time i will be giving an exam on hindi ... well i had not touched hindi for the past two years and in the examination hall i realised that was a problem whicvh io had never though of , because of my kinda abandoning the subject i almost forgot how to write it and also i could really remember the words that is used when we speak hindi in stead of hinglish...
well it is all over my ordeal with hindi has finally ended

paper 3

man i cant believe what an idiot i am , i will never l;earn . for teh three days that i got for this exam i just didnt study , i dunno what i was doing but one thing i was not doing was studying .... and that too for a subject like econometrics... well this was the paper that everybody tries top score the most in and my friend could be quoted saying "if you dont aim of scoring above 80% in this exam , then you are not worth being graduating " . well some how i just quickly glanced over everything ... but i had left sum portion of the syllabus since i didnt have the time to go into the details that it puts a person into . but still i had done the rest , so i finally decided that common i cant be so dumb i have read these thing over and over again but i just dont remember them when it mattered trhe most .... arghhhh.... well i will have to give the exam and so i went into the hall and when i got the paper then i though that i must lessen my aim to somewhere around 50 ... still those words of my friend kept ringing in my ears .... so i just wen t about doing the questions one after the other with the feeling that i can do it .... i dunno where all those things were hiding but as i started solviong the problems i just kept getting the answer , suddenly the technical and logical part of my brain started working at its optimal level and just as it had happened earlier i had unanticipatedly completed my exam way before the alloted time and i just dunno how i just completed it ... i feel that even if i try to solve those quetions now i would just wont be able to do it , but hey i did it just when it mattered the most .... well what i would take out of this is that dont be afraid to take the plunge , everything goes in your favour once you think that you can change the coruse with your effort...
well a big paper coming up next development economics and just got one day in between do i better start working right now .... i dont want myself to be in the same situation that i found myself in the morning.....
chao...

english paper

well this is one of the easiest papers in this examination , we have a 50 marks paper and we get 2 hrs of time . more over we dont have many stories or poems so not much to read ... welll the timing had changed from the usual for this exam i had no clue i was all p[repared to get out of the house at 8 in the moprning but thank god i called my friend last night who reminded me that it was later in the day . neways it was never going to be a problem and it was one exams after which everyone had a smile on their face . after the completion of exams i went to a friend to take a guide book of hindi it is my next paper...

some Quotes

There are only three events in a man’s life; birth, life, and death; he is not conscious of being born, he dies in pain, and he forgets to live. — JEAN DE LA BRUYÈRE

I can’t listen to music too often. It affects your nerves; you want to say nice, stupid things and stroke the heads of people who could create such beauty while living in this vile hell. And now you must not stroke anyone’s head — you might get your hand bitten off. You have to hit them on the head, without any mercy. — VLADIMIR ILYICH LENIN

Business underlies everything in our national life, including our spiritual life. Witness the fact that in the Lord’s Prayer the first petition is for daily bread. No one can worship God or love his neighbour on an empty stomach. — WOODROW WILSON

Say what you will, there is something fine about our old aristocracy. I’ll bet Trotsky couldn’t hit a moving secretary with an egg on a dark night. — P. G. WODEHOUSE

The difference between being a director and being an actor is the difference between being the carpenter banging the nails into the wood, and being the piece of wood the nails are being banged into. — SEAN PENN

Crimes are created by Parliament; it needs a policeman to make a criminal. You don’t become a criminal by breaking the law, but by getting found out. — EDMUND LEACH

I could see that childhood was an invention of grown-ups, a fiction we were required to take on trust in case we demanded something better. — PHILIP OAKES

There is no reason whatever to believe that the order of nature has any greater bias in favour of man than it had in favour of the ichthyosaur or the pterodactyl. ? H.G. WELLS

One out of four people in this country is mentally unbalanced. Think of your three closest friends — and if they seem okay then you’re the one! — ANN LANDERS

I’ll give you my opinion of the human race in a nutshell…Their heart’s in the right place, but their head is a thoroughly inefficient organ. — W. SOMERSET MAUGHAM

What’s the good of a lie if it’s seen through? When I tell a lie no one can tell it from the gospel truth. Sometimes I can’t even tell it myself. — GRAHAM GREENE

Those who talk most about the blessings of marriage and the constancy of its vows are the very people who declare that if the chain were broken and the prisoners left free to choose, the whole social fabric would fly asunder. You cannot have the argument both ways. If the prisoner is happy, why lock him in? If he is not, why pretend that he is? — GEORGE BERNARD SHAW

I was ready to admit — if only I had been old enough to understand them — all the right-wing truths which an old left-wing man taught me through his actions: that Truth and Myth are one and the same thing, that you have to simulate passion to feel it and that man is a creature of ceremony. — JEAN-PAUL SARTRE

I sometimes wonder if the manufacturers of foolproof items keep a fool or two on their payroll to test things. — ALAN COREN

It is unfortunate, considering that enthusiasm moves the world, that so few enthusiasts can be trusted to speak the truth. — A.J. BALFOUR