My Experiments With Life

I will survive

2011-06-05T17:11:00.001+05:30

So its finally one year since I have came to this city of dreams, with no dreams whatsoever to be honest. After a rollercoaster of a ride when i look back now, the one song that rings in my head right now is "I will survive". From what I have observed at various points in time, the one word that describes this city is survival. Be it the games played in huge corporate offices or the daily hustle bustle on the streets, everyone ultimately has just one thing on their mind, and that is to survive. But what gives strength to this city's spirit is the realization that to survive on has to live, no one can just exist. Existence has no meaning until you are actually living your life. And I think that is what gives me the courage to stand up today and tell this city that I will survive. there have been many instances in the past few months when I felt that I can't take it anymore and would quit this life and move out of this city. But then here I am, struggling but keeping up with the pace and ready to face another day with another new challenge just around the corner. I always used to think that life at 24 is the most amazing. You have the best of everything at this time of life and I must say that I believe that I have the best of my life experience at this age. Transition from academic institutions to work life is amazingly difficult to adjust to. Last year, I had the confidence of taking on anyone in the world and suddenly I am surrounded with people with many faces and who have made a living out of traits that I would not associate with a day's work.
Some say I was acting stubborn and was not going with the flow but I must say that it showed me where I was weak and what it means to act smart and stand on your own. I have not completely withered the storm as yet and there is lot to be done in the days to come but I am ready to take on what is to come. The words and phrases that I used to hear people say when giving guidance speeches have a completely different meaning to them today. And thus I mean a lot today when I say "I WILL SURVIVE"!!!!

Des Mera rangrez ye babu

2010-08-14T15:53:00.005+05:30

"If fate doesn’t make you laugh, Karla said, then you just don’t get the joke." This is one of the lines that remained with me since I read Shantaram.
Over a period I realized that I can very well laugh at various things in life and overlook that as the games that fate plays, but for others these games define their whole life. They can't find the joke, leave aside laugh at it.
Peepli live is an attempt to make everyone see the funny side of the tragic turn of events with which many of the farmers have to live in India. It is a tragedy that they live in but we can derive some pleasure in watching others in trouble. The movie is what can be termed as a satire on how the media works today to sensationalize any issue without actually trying to understand the kind of impact they create. Instead of realizing their responsibilities, how they let themselves to be manipulated by others for their own benefits.

Ha ha ha...

2010-08-04T14:42:00.000+05:30

Got this mail from "Jen" :P

Hello Dear,
How are you? I hope you are fine, My name is Ms Jen,i came across your profile. I am seeking for true love that will bring happiness back in my life, I will be expecting your quick response direct to my email address remember age color or distance matters not,what matters is true love and friendship, until then take care of yourself and have a nice day
Yours Jen

Bad trick played on lady Jen by any friend of hers or is it any new kind of phishing trick...

Youth For Vigilance

2010-02-24T00:41:00.000+05:30

Dear Friends,

I write this letter to share with you what has been running through my mind for past few days. This thought has been taking shape in my mind for the last one week. It has taken the form of a letter today because of todays’ significance. I had a friend who used to study law in Pune . He lost his life this Sunday after fighting it out for a week. He had sustained serious injuries last weekend when he was unfortunately outing at German Bakery when the blast took place. If it was not for that incident, I would have wished him on his birthday today, but now I know that it is no use calling on that number, when the reminder on my phone rung this morning.

I had always felt sorry for the victims of these blasts that have become so frequent in recent years, but this time the feeling is different. There is a sense of restlessness about the whole issue at hand. There was a march by the name ‘Youth for Peace’ that was organized in various cities this Sunday. But now I feel this whole issue is not about peace and harmony. The tormentors of our lives are not against peace, harmony etc. They are inhuman in their approach. They don’t quite realize the meaning of these words. Now it is about fighting it out against these people. I really salute the brave soldiers of the nation, who as the Anti-Terrorist Squad, have been fighting against these cruel people. I think that for them to be successful it is necessary that they get full support of the citizens. The support that they have asked from us is ‘Vigilance’. A community is successful in achieving its objective only if everyone realizes and works towards their goal. There is a community of Godless people out there who take pleasure in tormenting the lives of others. Our nation has been worst affected by these activities, so it is necessary that we all should understand the significance of being vigilant and realize the role that we can play. If our community of over a billion people stands together and get ready to do everything possible to restrict these people from disturbing our harmony, then I think we will be a force that will be invincible.

Today, we know that these ruthless people have trained professionals like engineers, doctors, scientists etc. who work for them to help them plan out their attacks. Thus, can’t we, as young professionals keep providing assistance to our government to tackle these threats. I think that the time has come that we need to be more vigilant than just refrain from mishandling suspicious unclaimed objects that are lying in public places. Just this Monday I was travelling from Kolkata to Ranchi via overnight train. To my surprise, in a huge station like Howrah, where lakhs of people travel every day, I was able to get in to the station without passing through a metal detector door-frame. My bag never went through any scanner and if I would have wanted, I could have easily taken a bag laden with explosives without anyone even noticing it. Is this the lessons we have drawn from what happened at the other end of the country just a week back? With the threat of terror already looming over the metropolitan cities, I have read quite a few articles on the possibility of these attacks reaching out to the smaller cities and towns of the country as these are soft targets with less or no security. Thus, things need to be tightened up and I think all this can be done only through the support of all the citizens.

As we know the complexities that bind the socio-economic fabric of the country, I think there are a lot of services that can be provided by the citizens of the nation. There needs to be a system or network though which we all can provide solutions to situations that in turn become the problems that go on to become the weak threads in the fabrics that these attackers are able to exploit. Services of research, counseling etc. can be used to realize potential threats arising within the society and to sort out the issues before they become a threat. For example, there are a few professionals who work amongst us in reputed companies and also work for terrorist outfits. They have certain reasons due to which they feel justified in doing what they are doing. We don’t need Anti terrorist squads to always get hold of these people. Through our own vigilance we can try and track these people down. Being part of the society we can better understand the reason why others might be feeling alienated. If we see something happening that might have improper consequences then we should be able to do something about it. Thus there are lots of factors that make this whole job of stopping these attacks, very complex. Thus we need to identify areas where we contribute.

One important factor about entrepreneurship that I have understood is that it tries to satisfy an existing need and I certainly feel that there a need to find ways to attach ourselves to this fight against terrorism. There has to be a system through which we can contribute. I don’t know whether we need social, religious, communal, spiritual or whatever other kind of entrepreneurship, but we need to address this need. I think we all can share some ideas on this.

After every attack we hear the names of some the victims and they stay in our minds for some time. But sooner or later we forget them. I am just stating what happens with me and I believe that it is the same with almost everyone. But this time around I know that there will be one name that will be at the back of mind always. Memories of my friend will refresh every time I would hear of any new attack. He was a jolly good fellow who would have done something good in his life. But his life ended abruptly. So is the case with many a talented people of this country who have already lost their lives. I believe that these are not just any other people, these are martyrs. They lost their lives in a battle that they never thought they were part of. We now know that they were and we need to carry on this battle and win it for them. That is the only fitting salutation that they deserve.

So let’s join our hands together to try and contribute our share in this war against terrorism. Let us try and avoid this agony of losing a friend in such senseless attacks. As my friends Ashish keeps reminding me ‘WE HAVE JUST ONE LIFE TO LIVE’, so we cannot let others take control of it.

JAI HIND!!!
Tanuj Poddar

A decade or so...

2009-12-31T22:50:00.004+05:30

Hey, this last week of the year I read quite a few articles that talked about a decade that was. Yeah, hard to think that it is already a decade since we were all talking about a millennium change. Well so it is.. its been 10 years. There were many articles throwing light on various events that took place during this decade starting from the attack at ground zero, war in Afghanistan, return of the UPA govt., Financial scandal in corporate world, Bush to Obama, Tsunami, formation of European Union, fall of saddam, Terror attacks in metropolitan cities, Mars explorered through the rover, spread of web 2.0 services, intergration of phones and other communication devices to make the world a small place and innumerable changes in the technologies of the ways things were made and various natural calamities etc.
The list just seems endless.....
But in essence what is the change that matters. I will share my perspective in a filmi manner, in the bollywood eeshtile. It is said that cinema is the mirror of the way teh society thinks. I would say that society has moved from the 'Dil Chahta Hai' days to the '3 idiots' day. It was the time when we were riding high on what we did in the last century (or even the millenium). There was development at speeds that were unimaginable and we were in awe of what we could do. What I talk of is the general consensus of people (all across the globe). There was focus on filling the life with more joy. We were riding high on the opportunities that the open economy was providing and we were ready to ride on a highway at breakneck speeds. Life was more about the mushy romance and singing 'woh ladki hai kahaan' and rocking and partying in Goa and being bound in friendships that last for a lifetime.
I would say that it has taken a many a broken necks to realize that there needs to be some speed breakers on path and proper governance of the people maintaining the highway is needed. People choice of movies shifted over a period of time from KNPH, Mohabbatien, Josh, Dhadkan, K3G etc. to action with some percieved reality of how things are like Vaastav, Kaante, company, D etc. & some movies increasing the sex quotient of the industry, to movies that actually hit the consensus of the society and people were able to relate with. People were affeted by movies such as Swades, Yuva, Phir Milenge, Black Friday, Hazaron Khwaishien Aisi, Maine gandhi ko nahi maaraa, page 3, Rang de basanti, The Munnabahi series, TZP, Guru, Dharm, wednesday, Halla Bol etc. When I talk of change in perspective I dont say that today these movies are the top grossers, or have the hit mantra. The top grossers are still the Hum tum, love aaj kals of these times, comedy pots from bemzi or priyadarshan, but what I talk about is the fact that people today are able to relate to these movies better than they did a decade ago. I think that people today are more acceptive of the fallacies that exist in the society and there are a bunch of extraordinary people from the Gen Z that are taking up the mantle to clear up the mess. Apart from wasting time reporting about the fevers and gossips of celebs, childrens going down the drain etc. (courtesey AAJ TAK genre of news channels), the media has been doing great work in using the medium to keep the janta aware, we are very well nearing a future where we can say that 'yeh public hai, yeh sab jaanti hai'. What has been teh most pleasant surprise has been the way the people in large have responded to the situation presented to them. The unity that I see in the diversity is amazing to see and I am sure that even though it will take time but we will some day soon see my dream of moving from 'mere tolerance to appreciation' amongst the different communities that exist across the globe. Though terrorism is stalling the process, but it has to be credited for bringing the adversities which has forced people to break their shells and come out to help each other for the sake of humanity.

Toh all in all bhaiya, keep minding the speed breakers and instead of worrying about the destination, take the opportunity to travel with others and enjoy the journey aur ceeti bajaa ke bol, ke bahiya 'AAL IZZ WELL'. (Whistles)

Continuation requires impetus

2009-12-31T02:02:00.000+05:30

Life is continuous, but to maintain the continuity an impetus is required sometimes. It is like a drainage pipe of your basin. it is supposed to flow, but sometimes some things just get stuck and stop the flow, so you need to use drainex to get the flow back to normal.
Similarly, I keep some work lagging and wait for some time to get it done. Well now is the time, that I had given myself to contact everyone and send across my wishes to everyone and clean up the mess created in the last few months, post drafted posts on this blog. etc. etc.

Hypocrites? no hypocrite

2009-12-18T00:43:00.000+05:30

Well, hypocrisy has actually depreciated in value, just like money does due to inflation. Interesting comparison eh... Well if it so be then lets delve a little further. The increase in Price of goods over a period of time leads to fall in real value of money. Similarly, it is the inflation of the general level of the ego that every person carries. There used to be a time when there were few people for whom everyone used to say that they have an attitude problem and overtly inflated ego. Well, now a days I think the level of tolerance has certainly increased. Or so to say people are ready to tolerate more just to ensure that they are able to overshadow the liberties, that they take to satisfy their ego, in the name of self-esteem.

I had once read that eagles fly only with eagles. Well, I never considered myself an eagle, so I thought of flying way below my capabilities to carry along people who were not so capable. I knew I had to be with them for a considerable time, so apply the funda of utilize your time in the best possible way: try and what ever you can in what ever situation you find yourself. So be constructive to the people and help them improve. In doing this what is at risk is the possibility of people getting you wrong and scolding... STOP!!!!!!!

What is this people, they, them etc. I never used to categorize people, I always used to treat everyone as an individual and used to look at the positives of every one. Wasn't that the reason why I thought of getting into this profession? Isn't it why I am here studying to become a HR professional. Well, ALL IZZZ NOT WELL here. I think the biggest hypocrite is right here within me. I think over a period of time i have lost myself. It is time for some soul searching and regaining what has been lost. Myself.

Kashmakash

2009-12-01T00:39:00.000+05:30

kashmakash hai talash hai
sadiyo puranee yeh pyas hai
chale uss raste ham haste
jab tak hai josh aur dum
chhal hai chal bola yeh mann
dub jane kaa yeh jatan
jana hai pana hai
gehraiyo me khone kee lagan

iss parvaj me hai kai raj
rang, ras, riti rivaj kuchh ujhle
kuchh dhundale kuchh simte kuchh bikhare se
chalne ko hai rah hai chah
yeh nadiya, yeh dariya
tej panee kaa bahav
moksh hai hath ke dav

kho gaya hai meraa sapna, bharam tuta meraa
lut gaya jo thha apna, kadam behke jara

guru dakshina shant atma
paisa diya mila parmatma
shraddha saiyyam dur huwa bhram
lambe kash se bas nikla dum
abb woh dhuan kahan mit gaye sab nisha
kaisa yeh samah
khalee khalee hai yeh jahan

kho gaya hai meraa sapna, bharam tuta meraa
lut gaya jo thha apna, kadam behke jara

dekho khatam huwa yeh khel
patharee par se utaree yeh rail
maro kato aahe baato iljam do dharam ko
dharam tho hai sachchi niyat
sachchee niyat hai insaniyat
mutthhee me hai apni kismat

kho gaya hai meraa sapna, bharam tuta meraa
lut gaya jo thha apna, kadam behke jara

Changes

2009-09-09T22:20:00.002+05:30

It is always so easy to talk about the need for change. And no I don't talk about the change that is talked about in the classes of Organization Development or any other form of crappy management. I wanna talk about me, my daily life. Things that are there, they exist and sometimes they bother me and I feel that i should be changing them but I don't. I keep thinking that there will come a time when I will change it all. But always after bringing about the change I feel that there was no need to wait for so long before doing something.
During childhood, (which I believe is gone but still a lot of people think I act kiddish), time seemed to have a different dimension. I always used to think that there would be a proper time to do things and now all of a sudden I realize that 23 years have past I don't quite remember much of it and worse is the fact that I cant recall what all I did during these years. Except planning things maybe.
I now realize that change should never wait. It is the delay that brings in more complexity. I tend to delay other things because I will change something some day. I have over the past year or so taken big risks in landing up in really messy situations. But somehow I never suffered from any serious repercussions. Or maybe whatever happened was not too big for me. So why be afraid of mess. If change brings in a mess, at least it is worth sorting it out.
So no more waits. If I want to do something, I will do it now.

happy birthday to me

2009-09-07T22:37:00.000+05:30

My first birthday away from home. I hope to do something to give this 23 years of existance some meaning.

orkut crush list

2009-03-30T01:57:00.003+05:30

Had a lot to study through out the day. as if that was not enough, had a lot of pondering to do with regard to the relationships between the people around me. that story comes later. Just to refresh myself I thought of surfing internet. out of bad habit, I ended up going to orkut. Now I dont know what happened and why it happened, I just went ahead and added a few friends on whom I had had a crush to my crush list. Just no reason, I don't know why. So I went ahead and added thenm to that list. when i went back to my gmail inbox, i was #6(&*! to find a mail from orkut, showing that one of them had also added me to their crush list. the sad part is that she is one with whom i had the least contact. I talk and keep in touch with many of the others in the group, but not much with her. not quite sure but maybe she is the GF of one of my really good friends (although not quite sure about that).
Whatever being the case, what crazy things keep happening in this life.

Jobless

2009-03-05T10:02:00.003+05:30

Just one of those days when the whole world conspires to tell you that how jobless you are. I have been sending in mails after mails since yesterday, hoping that some one would pick me up for summer internship, but alas such is the fortune that I haven't received any reply till now.
And just as I go through this, for the first time in a long time I find that none of my contacts (200+) in my gtalk are online. Everyone is busy with their work (or whatever) and I am the only dumbo with nothing to do and so I am online sending in applications which I dunno is having any effect or not. (except for the one that it is having on my psychology. :P )

The awakening

2008-12-09T18:59:00.000+05:30

thanks to information from Rahul now i signed up for Jagriti Yatra. He is on the trip and I seriously hope that I am able to make it too. Hope I get a sponsor soon.

new house

2008-12-01T18:52:00.000+05:30

hey i just moved into a new house. it is really exciting. left the lodging where i was putting up till now. this is a huge flat which i will be sharing with 5 others who are in the same college as me. Hope to have the pics up soon. It is exciting to have a home of your home isnt it.. !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

we be blogging again....

2008-11-04T19:13:00.001+05:30

havent been blogging frequently as i used to. Just found out that gul started blogging again. well it was just once that i chanced to visit her blog and it was then that i decided to blog again and so i started this blog. she had stopped blogging once and for all and even hid her blog. Now just read a couple of her new posts and again it has revived in me the spirit to blog. so i will make more of an effort to blog from now on.

22 years of being worthless

2008-09-07T23:58:00.000+05:30

My blog now knows that our relationship is also of formalities. Only when there is an occasion is it going to happen that junat will turn up and log in and write a post. Ok so what is the occasion today? Well, it is Tanuj's birthday today. Its been 22 years since a disaster happened on this third rock from the sun. As usual, today, I do something that I should have made a practice of doing on a regular basis. I introspect on the time gone by. what is it? 22 years of being worthless. I just don't know what I am doing? I know I have not achieved a thing. All I have is all I was given. All that I do is condole myself that there is a reason why i am here. I say to myself that I am here for some purpose. that I have a guiding star that will take me to some where I will have something significant to contribute. I has been so and every year on this day all I say to my self is that it will happen. I would never say that my life has been a waste. I have learnt a lot but never put all that I learned into use. I always learned but what i never learned was how to perform. my life never allowed me to be just another face in the crowd. I always had the option of being at the top but I always chose the bottom, giving reasons that required a lot of character which i always lacked. I was not only a day dreamer but a person who always refused to wake up. My di always made me realize that there was an important stage of my life at every point of time but I just never cared and I know I never will. So just forget me now as I never existed just as you would when I wouldn't.

land of my dreams

2008-08-15T20:19:00.000+05:30

The moment ended three centuries of British colonial rule. The land was no longer the summer retreat of British sahibs who fancied spices, shikar, elephants and snake-charmers. World came to know of a nation which it couldn't image can exist.

Independence was also the end of nearly a century of struggle for freedom, battles, betrayals and sacrifices. It also created a situation where we were responsible for ourselves. The struggle for freedom lives on in history books and memoirs, and on the tombstones of valiant martyrs. Politics has undergone a personality change from fiery idealism to a pragmatic cynicism.

Though every day is a day of festivity in this crazy country of ours, but this is a day when all come together and instead of saying hi, hello and good morning, we say JAI HIND. We all forget our daily troubles and take pride in singing the national anthem in front of the waving flag. All people I met today were dressed colourfullly and met with a unique sense of joy. Every vehicle I saw had the tricoloured flag leading its path. It is a great feeling to know that there is a bunch of more than a billion people that shares a same feeling as you do.

Every party has a hangover, let us have a big party today and make sure that the hangover lasts for a lifetime. Let this sense of belonging remain with you every moment. Just believe that your belief is supported by a billion people. There is no power in this world that can stop us.

We live in an Independent India and but this nation needs to be free of many a things that the colonial period brought with it. Though you might find some people who keep shouting about what we have not achieved in the past 6 decades but there are many who have worked together for that period and there are many working today and many will work for the years to come. And believe me we have actually achieved astonishing heights. There is a very small lot that is a little ill ( remember Munnabhai ki gandhigiri), so let us pray to god for their proper health and join the lot of healthy people. It might be just once in eternity that we might get the previledge to call ourselves INDIANS, so why not make the most out of it.

JAI HIND..

Welcome to xiss

2008-07-02T03:12:00.000+05:30

hello Folks,
well I am in this small city which i believe upgraded from its town status when it became the capital of Jharkhand. For the course that i pursue at XISS, I have to spend two years here. the classes at college started middle of the last month. It has been a good time till now. the college doesnt have a residential hostel for guys, so we all have to manage somehow for the next two years. the good thing is that the course ends in march 2010, so that is less than two years.
The college looks decent for a college, but it is supposedly called a b-school. thus i prefer calling it college rather than an institute. To start of with we had an induction program of three days. The profs. are good though what is in store only time will tell. Our seniors are not back yet from their summer internships and so there is nothing on which to base our opinions. we are more or less stuffed in a small classroom. we are told that by next week we will have a larger classroom to sit in. our class strength too is pretty huge. there are 81 students in our class. The infrastructure ain't all that great, I would say. We are said that there is a football ground for guys and gals can play basketball. the common room is like i have never seen before. it has a couple of couches and a table. yeah we all are surely gonna turn into corporates here :grin: . Something very special for us would be the fact that we would be coming to college wearing a uniform. Good idea considering the dressing sense of the class. I mean I am not the most decent dressed person, but then I do keep my hairs short, dont wear denims hanging on my hips, that too with a pair of floaters. I mean I think I do have some sense of being presentable. BTW we are having personality grooming classes here. Our H.O.D. is a pretty dynamic person. Not to say of other persons. He is a painter and singer and has keen interest in poetry (the last thing is my observation).
We are told we will be required to do some social work as part of the culture of this institute. we will be engaged in teaching children in schools for two hours a day in the afternoon. Surprisingly we are gonna have less than 4 hours of classes daily. Sounds interesting!! I think not.
I know it is too early to form an opinion, but this place is like school where I don't think there will be pressure on students as is generally found in schools.
lets wait and see what the future holds...

My partner in crime

2008-06-20T22:50:00.000+05:30

The last post was about my parents, and this one is about the lifeline of our family. My sibling, friend, guide or my second mother, my didi, my elder sister. It is great to have an elder sister. My friends say that it is great to have elder brothers. But from my experience I can say that it has been a pleasure having an elder sister. She is the most understanding person that I have ever met. I always idolized her and tried to be like her, just like all younger siblings do. But then she never really got frustrated but very smartly negotiated me. She had a very good way of handling me, she would get out the things out of me but then she had good control over the way I think and act. Just like all small siblings I wanted to be with her and observe her. But she smartly allowed me to be in midst her friends and made me realize that I didn’t have the same intellect as a her group of friends had and in a subtle manner made me realize that I couldn’t enjoy being there. Though there is something special that I always realized (which I don’t know how she does) that all her friends always pampered me. Many a times I felt that I am too young to her. There was occasions when I thought that she was alone needing someone who could understand her point of view. I always felt inadequate to instill her confidence in my ability to understand things. It was a lesson I learnt that kids can’t understand certain things. Every kid thinks that elders are for no reason underestimating their ability to understand. But I was always left feeling that I can’t understand things and so I am unable to do anything for her. But then she is such a fighter that she always comes out of anything on her own. So the smile on her face never perishes for long. The worst days of my life have always been when I in some way had hurt her feelings. I can hardly bear her being mad at me for any reason. Of course, there have been many a moments in life where she has put utmost trust in me and many a times I have shamelessly let her down in a big way. But then she has always been there as the rock to lean on, the pillar to support my dreams, the window that always opens to the beautiful world outside, the couch that always gives me comfort. All in all she is the house that shelters me from all the rains, storms, tornados, tsunamis and what not…

Many a times I feel bad for being such a bugger. I always feel so fortunate to know such a person, let alone the fact that she cares so much for me.

Just like old wine our relationship kept on becoming better with time. The last year has been the most special one. In the last one year this relationship developed into a two way affair. I realized that I too could stand up for her. I saw her putting more trust in my understanding of things; I could observe her from closer quarters. I better understand what she desires and how I can be part of the fulfillment of her dreams.

I can’t ever imagine not being there when she wants me to be there. I don’t have a great deal of really close friends because I have a part of me always dedicated to her. I might also blame her for me not having a girlfriend, because looking at her I know what a woman with substance is and so I got caught in a vicious circle wherein I set the bar at a very high level and then always found myself inadequate to match someone of that level.

It was a great period for me when I was living with her in her home. I always wanted to spend loads of time with her and I did it during that period. Though she was very busy but still it was great fun never the less. Frankly for her younger sibling it was a dream come true that there was a great deal of understanding that was developing. Apart from she taking care of me, there was something that I felt I could do for her.

I don’t know when I will be meeting her next, but I just hope that I can be with her whenever she feels the need for someone. Another irony, I was always there with her when I knew I couldn’t do anything, and I now wouldn’t be there when I know I can do something for her.

My folks

2008-06-18T22:09:00.000+05:30

All my life (past couple of years to be precise) I have been looking to get out of my home. Student life had become very boring. More so staying with my parents was becoming monotonous. I had always had the problem of not being able to gain trust of my parents for the plain and simple reason that I didn’t have to much to do to prove myself. And there were not many avenues for me show them that I had become mature and could care for myself. So there had always been a want of liberation. I didn’t like that other’s life (my parents) is revolving around me. I am just too small a being to call for such resources. So I finally am moving out to study and it is a great feeling. The final few days were a little awkward though. No matter how logically correct it might be it feels a bit difficult to leave my parents alone and move out. I now understand how hard it would have been for my sister when she did the same quite some time ago. There were other things like self confidence and other personal emotions that generally get importance. But this is an aspect that is hitting me the most. The lives of our parents have always revolved around us. Even if it was something like watching movies or going shopping or eat out, it was more for our pleasure than theirs. Now with my sister already out and me leaving the city and going out on my way, what will really give them a reason to go to places and take the pleasures of life. This thing kept bothering me for a long time and finally had a talk about this with my mother. She said that the fact that we were happy is what gave them happiness. And I asked what about the time when we would go out to leave our lives. Well that is the way life is what she says. That is the cycle of life. Well I beg to differ. There are so many elderly people out there who like taking pleasures of what the new world has to offer. So why is there is just a sense of responsibility in every action of theirs. They are responsible to keep us happy and so they just think about us. She says that they too enjoy the outings that they have with us. Then why it is only my places of my choice that we go. Why we eat what I like. Doesn’t it seem to be like they are doing these things because they want me to feel happy and they just go about it as a responsibility? This thing stuck to me when even I saw that when I visited my sister and she too had developed such a psyche. I have been pampered all my life by my parents, my sister, friends of my sister, my cousins, my teachers, my uncle & aunts etc. the list just goes on and on and may include almost 95% of people I have met on this planet. What I find so interesting is that I have been a person who doesn’t want to bother others in any manner. So I constantly observe other people doing things for me and keep wishing that they didn’t take all that trouble. But unfortunately I keep finding people doing that. And so naturally I want my parents to look after their own life and start enjoying because they want to, instead of taking joy in my well being. It is such an irony again that I generally don’t find myself being happy in material things. Not many are able to please with a gift that they bring for me. It is generally taken as a formality by me. I haven’t ever learned how to enjoy eating in a restaurant or roaming about a new mall that opens up in a city. So I am a perfect mismatch for the caring nature of my parents. I always feel that they could have contributed a lot to the society by their services than they devoted in bringing up a useless fellow like me. Now I am annoyed by the fact that they will keep thinking about me wherever I go. And I know that this is going to happen because I have seen that how they always keep thinking about my sister since she moved out. I don’t know how she thinks and for some strange reason I can’t ever say a thing to her about this feeling I have. Ours being a very close family it feels really strange as this day comes. Just a family of four that needs three different places to stay. Laugh on Tanuj… If you don’t laugh on the ways of life then you didn’t get the joke.

banglore trip 2

2008-03-16T21:43:00.000+05:30

In the darkness of the night I wasn’t feeling sleepy so I was just looking out side the window of the seat of the side berth. (The seat was empty for the time being.) It was an eerie feeling watching the stations of the suburbs where the train passed as if they didn’t exist. Those stations mostly had just a couple of benches and not more than 5 lamp-posts. It seemed deserted as if no one ever visited these platforms (though you can not imagine the rush that one can see here at dawn). The train drove past the villages but I would have easily taken them to be forests but for a couple of electric bulbs that peeped out of the thatched roofs of a couple of houses. There are long thin lanes which have a lamp-post at either ends. I see a motor bike riding through a road between long trees and there is no light except for that of the motorbike. In that darkness driving through such a path is like being off to the Himalayas and meditating (I don’t think I would ever be sitting on that bike and riding through that darkness). It is bewildering to witness such a scene as I am used to seeing the intoxicated night life of cities and this does strike me at once. But not all the world is asleep. Suddenly after a few stations I find a fair going on and that brightens up the whole place with the marry-go-around, giant wheels, load music and extensive lightings. In India everyday and night is celebrated by some community or the other for some reason often superstitious or religious in nature.

When traveling by train I seldom carry a book as generally I get to talk to someone or the other. Also there is so much to see and observe. The day starts with the caterers shouting chai and coffee. It makes sense to get up early and get down from the upper berth. Coz as I witnessed there would so many of these short trip travelers who find it convenient to get into the long distance trains instead of getting into a passenger train and of course they expect us the reserved travelers to make their journeys pleasant and make space for them. wont mind if there is a couple of them but there are so many of them that this train also becomes as crowded as a passenger train. And the agony never ends actually. I mean if someone gets down at some station then there are others who broad the train to go to some other station.

During the day I see a different type of marketing going on out there. A sentimental blackmail by the handicapped beggars. How many deformities they have and they show it in the most pathetic ways. Most of the people opt not to look at them and just at the other side to pretend that they didn’t see anything. Even I used to do that sometimes but now I don’t. I don’t know the reason, but even if I don’t give them alms I don’t ignore their presence. I don’t have an explanation for that, but I don’t do it. One girl I particularly noticed was what disturbed me. You know there are some deformities that you can attribute to diseases and malnutrition and things like that. But some are examples of human cruelties and that is something I never understand. How a person can be that cruel to another. This girl draped in green cloth from top to bottom just extended a hand with just a couple of fingers on it. Also from what could be seen, her skin below her chin was completely burnt. Something just told me that it was a brunt taken out on a girl by some insensitive group of people. I wonder if anyone can commit a crime grievous enough to deserve such things. It is just how some lives are wasted. Ok moving ahead removing that picture out of my mind. Also later in the day can be seen a group of girls (possibly muslim, don’t know what gives me that feeling) that come out selling pens and light emitting toys. People just stop and look at those things but never buy them. Also sometimes I see few energetic pre-teens boys that come on selling those things.

Banglore part 1

2008-03-15T21:22:00.000+05:30

It was a great trip to Bangalore. Short and exciting never the less. I have been to that place before. It is pretty metropolitan not in the sense that it is very populated but also in terms of the way people live there. About half of the white collared job-holders population is migrants from other state. Though there are people from everywhere, a majority of them from the eastern and north-eastern part of India. Most of them have made it their home owing to lack of job opportunities in their hometowns. The city is well maintained and growing. There is a decent civil sense that prevails. Best thing is that due so many migrants this city is multi-linguistic. I can go around speaking Hindi or English. Mostly everyone understands English.

I left from Howdah station on 6th March. My train was scheduled to depart at 8.30 in the evening and thankfully it did. It is always a new experience to visit howdah as at every hour of the day and (most part of the night) there are people moving around. Just be there for one day and you will be amazed at the number of people that come into the city and go out of the city everyday. It is the gateway through which nearly a hundred trains carrying thousands of people and tones of goods come and leave. My coach was at the very end of the platform. Thankfully I wasn’t carrying too much of luggage. I was just standing in front of the coach and suddenly I heard a loud shriek of a lady. I turned back only to find that a thief had snatched the necklace of the lady and was running. The thief was well dressed (at least not rags as I just got a glimpse from a fair distance). There are pros and cons of escaping in a crowded place. Either you are not able to penetrate through the crowd or can get lost in the crowd. What happened to that guy is not known to me. Anyways, I got into the train and it was pretty much empty though I know it was fully reserved (It was full when I went to get the ticket). I got into the train and was waiting for someone from the pantry car to come and tell me that there was dinner available, because I hadn’t brought anything and I wouldn’t find a thing at the stations where the train would halt (at least not at this hour.) So after half an hour finally a couple of them did come up. Though, they didn’t bring anything for selling. But they said that they could get me vegetarian meals. Pantry car was far off (about 12 coaches) so it did take a lot of time. In the mean time I was chatting with one of the caterer guy. It was interesting to know about the life of these people. They are allotted a train for a season i.e. they will keep traveling on the same train for a period of about 3 or months. Their day begins at 3.30 am and ends at around 11 pm. The train leaves at 8.30 pm and they get in at around 6 pm and start preparing the food for dinner. Due to lack of berths to sleep they have to sleep on the floors on the pantry car and the passengers who get on the stations may have to cross the pantry car to reach their respective coaches so they can get to sleep at 12 midnight (after a particular station passes). Then they have to get up at 3.30 am and start the preparations for breakfast. They have to keep up with the schedule that they have to prepare about 6 or 7 items. They are done with the preparations for breakfast by 7 am. They start serving out things by 5 am as things get completed. Out of experience they have a decent assumption about the amount of the vegetarian food that they can expect to get ordered for. So they start preparing that by 7.30. They then send out caterers to get order for lunch. They have a decent enough idea about the order for non-vegetarian also but since it is more expensive so they better get orders beforehand so that there is no shortage of wastage. As the people are given breakfasts the orders are collected by 9 am by which time they are done with making the rice and vegetarian curry. Then as per the orders they make the rest of the food. This activity is over by 12 noon and they start packaging and dishing out the orders by 1 pm. Thereafter they eat whatever is left over or else they just boil some rice and eat that with curry. Within an hour of them having their lunch they start taking orders for dinner. They start making snacks for the evening till the order arrives and then while the snacks are being sold, they start making the dinner. They are done with the dinner by 7 pm and they dinner is distributed by 8 pm. Then they have their dinner eating the leftover and rice. They set up everything for the next day and then go to sleep by 11 pm and again get up by 4 am for the tea coffee that they serve the next day. The most interesting thing came at the end when he told me that they don’t work by clock but by the train station that comes along the way. For example they are supposed to finish the job A by the time the train reaches the station X. So they are always aware of which station has just passed and they can slow down a little when they know that the train is running late. What makes their job more tedious (though I would call it interesting and exciting) is the different kind of people that they need to serve. All kinds of people travel in the train and they get used to reading the nature of people and then accordingly talk to them. All in all I rate it as a very difficult job and frankly passenger who talk about them don’t quite consider them to be hard working and associate the same kind of lethargy they associate with the government employees. But these people are unfazed with that. They only know one thing and that is to sell as much food as they can and they work hard towards that. Of course they accomplish something that is not easy to think, preparing and serving food on train day in and day out on the largest railway network in the world. More so they meet the people of India in all their diversity.

banglored

2008-03-05T08:31:00.000+05:30

I am going to be Bangalored. I will be visiting Bangalore over the next weekend.

visiting baba dham (contd...)

2008-03-03T08:27:00.000+05:30

We woke up in the morning at around 4 and started to get ready. The water was really cold so we waited for the geyser to heat it up. Though the geyser didn’t seem to be working there, or may be not as effectively as we would have wanted. Anyways hot or cold we had to take the bath and be ready in an hour. So we all got ready and got into the car that we booked yesterday night. As we came out just out side the main gate was a chai- shop. So garam garam chai was really enjoyable in that chilling weather. Wonder what the condition here would be in the months of December and January when the winter is at its peak. Anyways it was Jharkhand and as we moved forward I saw the dhoni effect taking place with a gang of 6 or 7 girls, with tikka smeared on their foreheads and cricket bat and ball in hands gearing up for a battle on the pitch nearby, maybe. One thing that I really liked was the fact that the roads there were very well built. The driver said that they were built during the time when the state was born a decade back and this area of Jharkhand was well maintained, but also there is not much of heavy duty truck to do damage to the roads. It was early in the morning so the place was quiet but some people were to be seen near the small market place. We traveled for around an hour and half. Then we reached a small market-place where no shops except the tea shops were open. We left our slippers in the car and proceeded towards the temple. As we reached the gate we were flanked by four or five pundits who would want to take us through the temple. Basically the temple compound has 22 temples but we didn’t have to go through all of them. I often pity the lack of time when on a trip to some place. Anyways we went to the main temple (the temple of lord Shiva called the baba-dham). It was pretty crowded. We took the mugs containing a mixture of Ganga-jal, milk, sandalwood paste, bhaang etc. and entered the temple. It was a small door about seven foot high and the floor was very slippery because of the water that kept spilling on the floor with people finding it hard to balance themselves in the rush. That was the rush early in the morning; I wonder what would happen when the day grows. What people do inside the temple? Well there is the top of a huge Shiva-ling that is visible and the structure is not more than a foot tall. Thought they claim there is a huge Shiva-ling beneath. People pour the water, milk etc. on the ling. With such a jam-packed area the people are literally swarming over each other and most of the mortals are bathed in the holy mixture. The pundits who sit the closest to ling keep pleading and coaxing the devotees to put some money there and the pundits that bring people into the temple keep yelling at others to give space. Thankfully the enclosure is not really large and can accommodate not more than 30 people at a time. So we get out of that place and then we are guided to the Parvati temple just opposite the one we just visited. Here the idols are placed on a platform and there are stairs that lead to them. Though they are just three steps but they are each one foot high; again it is the same wet slippery floor. Thankfully it is coarse stones else people would certainly slip and hurt themselves. (Though that does seem to be a possibility is not a certainty). There is no sense to the climbing and descending of the stairs and that is what creates a chaos of sorts. On the high platform are a couple of idols carved out of the stones. The idols carved on the walls of the enclosure are bright orange (result of being smeared with the tikka for a long time now.) We come back and buy some pedas that this place is famous for. Then we make a move towards basukhi-nath (another temple of lord Shiva about 60 kms from baba-dham). It was pretty similar to this place except for the fact that it was smaller and had a lesser number of temples in the compound and the floor was covered with marble tiles and at the entry there was a person who was beating a big drum with some vigor. Wonder whether he can carry that enthusiasm though the day. We didn’t spend much time there either. We decided to make a move and reach the Jasidhi station where we had to catch a train at 11.30 am. We reached the station an hour before the scheduled departure. We had to get some food packed that we could have on the train. It was hard to believe that it was the same station that I came to last evening, with so much movement around. It was hard to recognize the place as it was pitch dark yesterday night. I moved around to different shops enquiring what they had to offer. Got the puri and sabzi packed and returned to the station to find that the train is running an hour late. We got a couple of seats in the waiting room. I went around the station just for some time pass. It was a pretty long station for a small town. Actually at the last track of the junction the goods carriage is lightened and loaded and thus to accommodate those long trains such a long platform had been built. Just as I was roaming about I found an assemblage near a shop. I wondered what it was all about. Then on closing in I found that there was a cricket match between India and Australia, final of a series and there was a television in the shop that was beaming it. Now that explained the occasional cheer that was to be heard. Finally the train arrived half an hour late than the delayed time. No need to complain at least it came.

Trip to Deoghar

2008-03-02T02:26:00.000+05:30

My uncle and aunt arrived from Mumbai in the morning and i went to pick them up at the airport. Well just as is possible only here the flight scheduled at 9.15 a.m landed at 8.50 and the one scheduled at 9 am arrived half an hour late.Anyways waiting inside a centrally air conditioned area doesn't hurt and also some paisa vasool on the Rs. 30 entry fee that they charge at there.
We got a pre paid taxi that took the longer route to my house as the driver wanted to drop the so called helper (or some relative of his as it could be). No qualms from us as the fare was already paid and the road was clear so not much waste for time. And the driver too would be least bothered of the fuel burnt as they charge premium price for pre-paid services.
We reach home and everyone freshens up and we are ready to leave for Deoghar. We leave the home in perfect condition as it is on its own (& we hope it remains that way) for the next 30hours. We reched the railway station one hour before the departure and the train arrived 40 min. before the departure. ( it was the source station)We all got in to the train and so did other passengers on that platform and believe me waiting on the platform is better than sitting in the train and waiting for it to move.
We were 5 of us and my ticket was for a berth in the cabin adjacent to that accommodating my uncle-aunt and my parents.We sat together and had lunch (food we brought from home). Then we decided to get some rest. I went back to my seat to find another person sleeping there. As it turned out to be the person was traveling on an unreserved ticket. Such things keep happening on trains running in these routes. This I figured out a couple of hours later when i woke up from sleep to find that the seat below the berth that is supposed to be reserved for 6 people was accommodating 9 persons and of course i was sleeping on the upper berth. It was a mix of bengalis and biharis, that was good ammunition for war of words. bengalis dont want to leave anything under the sun and have an opinion about everything whereas just keep quite and nod their head in affirmative. but then they have better ideas about the ground situations and thus have simple logic about everything. Bengalis do most of the talking till asansol and biharis after that. that is when the train moves out of bengal and enters bihar!!
There is no catering service on this train and so whatever we bought was from the local vendors and we can bargain like anything. However at the end of it the quantity of whatever they give is very less and so it is only loss for us but then we loose less. The train was running late and it was dark by the time we reached.We were anticipating the arrival of the train at the Jasidi station and just then the train stops. We thought it was waiting for the signal to enter the station. Just then the lights on the station turn on and we realize that the train has already halted beside the platform. Train doesn't stop here for long and so we grab our bags and dash for the gate.We move through the freshly lit station and move towards the exit.though it was dark there was a decent enough crowd there.As soon as we got out of the station we got plunged back into the darkness of the night. some how the auto-wallahs saw us and came to us with their own proposals to loot us.Then we started to move on the road. Just then a vehicle which in true term was like a jeep that was running on the engine of a tempo stop by us. After a bit of bargain it agreed to leave us at arogya bhavan. we reached there at 8 pm and checked in . My dad is very fond of the place . Arogya Bhavan in some sense is the original health resort concept of India. It is a lovely place and I wish that we could have spend a day or at least a morning there. It is full of well maintained gardens and it is residing as close to nature as is possible. Next day morning we are to leave for visiting the temples.

book tag

2008-02-21T20:40:00.000+05:30

No. Of Books I own
well i dont buy books . didi buys them and i read quite a few of them . like from me the answer wud be only my academics books.

Last 5 books I bought in my case dosent make sense.

5 Books that mean something

1. alchemist - paul cohelo . made me realise not to forget to dream and much more...

2. the painter of signs - r.k.narayan . had a very good message in it as I saw It.

3. freakonomics .. really freaky

4. 5 point someone ... hilarious

5. indian philosophy... I love reading about india.

checkout : my shelf at shelfari

visiting chennai

2008-02-21T00:29:00.000+05:30

I was born in Mumbai but spent the first 7 years of my life in the crazy city of madras (was not named Chennai till then). Such is a chance that I am appearing for an exam and my centre is in Chennai. It is a strange feeling coming back to the city after almost 14 years. Not that I remembered anything much about the place. Also I had long ago forgotten whatever little Tamil I had ever learnt. Well started the preparation to go to the city. Trains are all booked up and so I decided to avail the bus service. After a whole lot of roaming around the garden city I finally got a ticket to Chennai in a Volvo bus at a decent enough rate. It was a first hand experience for me travelling in a bus (a so called luxury one at that). The seats were comfortable and A/C was reprieve from the heat. I had been warned of the torture of watching tamil movies played on the TV. There was a tamil movie going on there. As usual a night before the exams I never feel sleepy. So what better to do than watch a movie? It was decent movie overall. Though, the ending was a bit shocking. (Ok I understood all that was going on thanks largely to the English subtitles). Well the aunty that was sleeping beside me was very troublesome and another elderly couple at my back was not comfortable so I could say good bye to my sweet-dreams. So whenever the bus stopped I got down getting some fresh air. It was always a good site to watch a well maintained brightly lighted highway. Anyways I woke up (not that I slept too much) at 5 am and by 5.30 I am at the bus stand and then I called uncle (a former colleague and close friend of my father). He comes up on his motor bike. Well reached his home and freshened up and got ready to go to my exam centre. Aunty prepared some dosa for me. It was really tasty, can’t wonder where I will be able to so tasty chutney. Ummmm… Then uncle takes me to the centre.. It takes almost quarter to an hour to buzz through the busy roads on a scooter. We had great food in lunch and I was just hoping that I wont get sleep after having eaten so much food. Then we went to the examination hall and uncle sat there in the school compound till the exam got over and this entire period he was just watching the school students indulge in a close game of soccer on the school grounds.

Then after the exam I came out and we went and spent some time on the marina beach. My parents used to bring me here every alternate weekend quite some time back and today I come back to the place again. I hardly remember having been here earlier.

We have some snacks and talk a little and then we move back to home. Back though a maddening traffic we squeeze our way out on the scooter. Then we had a photo-session of sorts and had dinner and back to bus stand and going for catch a bus back to the garden city.

My sincere thanks to uncle and aunty for their assistance and hospitality.

Indianism

2007-12-26T17:31:00.000+05:30

Have you noticed how we are always in a hurry but never make it on time? Indians are known for how much they honk on the road and break all traffic rules with impunity because, one presumes, they have to reach their destinations fast. Then why are we always late - for movies, picnics, interviews, appointments, dates, receptions, birthday celebrations, funeral proceedings - and are known for being hopeless at keeping time?

I honestly don’t know many desis, except perhaps Mumbai brokers, who respect time. Have you noticed how our houses are the cleanest but we live in the dirtiest neighbourhoods? I mean, if we take off our shoes before entering our drawing rooms and subject visitors to the same exercise, even unsuspecting ones whose cultures don’t recommend this purification rite, it would only be in the fitness of things that the roads we walk on or drive past, the parks we loll around in and the public places we visit are equally sanitised. But they aren’t.

Have you noticed how we worship everything that even remotely represents or connotes a god, goddess, deity or holy spirit? You must have surely seen people touching books and pens, coins etc to their heads and raising their hands to their foreheads at every passing holy site. Then how come we just don’t take care of our temples, mosques, gurdwaras and churches?

How you noticed how we must surely be among the last surviving lot on earth that has such a prudish attitude towards sex? In which case we should be borrowing people from outside to fill up our country, but it is brimming with men, women and children. So who’s doing all the rolling in the haystack? Have you noticed how we get really affronted when westerners mention our brown skins but ourselves think nothing of jeering at anyone who is black or yellow? Have you noticed how patriotic we are?

The number of deshbhakti songs, films, hymns, bhajans, stories and novels we have is astounding. We treat our national flag like a consignment from heaven and for a long time we didn’t even have the right to put it atop our homes. Then why are we always making a beeline to go abroad? The list of Indian inconsistencies is long and interesting. We are like this only or only we are like this?

Boyz dont cry

2007-10-04T23:11:00.000+05:30

Becoming a mature person has got a hell lot to do with controlling emotions. As i grew up i always had one thing in my mind and that was to express emotions that people who care would like to see. So this meant that try and smile, never show that any thing is disturbing me. I always tried to hide emotions because the concern from my family always went more than i could handle. I couldn't show that i was bothered by something, because the attention that i received after that was more of a bother. This might be considered to be a temporary phase when one tries to control emotions but it has a lasting effect over a period of time. once we try to control emotions we start losing the spontaneity of our expression. I realize that i decided not to cry. No matter what happens I never shed a tear. I took pride in this practice for a long period of time. A common notion that boys don't cry. of course, I was happy to follow it. Then things started becoming more and more complex. There are certain things that one can say and express and there is para-language that accompanies our words. but slowly and slowly as we try to suppress our emotions we start loosing this god gifted coordination. Thus trying to show a different emotion as to what really is, becomes more and more difficult. Even worse is the fact that once we stop showing emotions, they dont come out naturally. many a times i feel that i am not reacting to any situation. There is a kind of numbness. The situations dont stimulate any emotions. I laugh because I think that it is natural to laugh in a certain situation. I am angered because I think I should be angry in a certain situation, I am sad just because anyone would be sad in any given situation. This is a very complex situation.
I think it all started with some silly notions and was stimulated by some anxieties created by fears that i have since my childhood. this is what i recently read in a magazine article that fears cause mood fluctuations and other clomplexities.i am trying to get out of this mould. let me tell this to all those who read that i have learned it the hard way but i would like to tell you that it doesnt matter that you show your emotions to others. if it is supposed to be shown , show it. sometimes it takes courage to even show your emotions without any fear.

hockey

2007-08-04T23:28:00.000+05:30

Read this in TOI
NEW DELHI, August 4: India kept their title hopes alive as Ritu Rani's lone goal scripted their first win over hosts Italy in a round robin match of the three-nation women's hockey tournament in Bra.

Well, info for jerks Bra is a city in Italy ;)

Hello people

2007-07-29T17:48:00.000+05:30

Well don't be scared if you are feeling like you have dialed a wrong number. You are at the blog which used to be called:

paddy world

the mind of an individual looking for an opening in this lost world

When I started this blog I was feeling that there were some thoughts in my head that I wanted to let out. Since not many (in fact none) cared to listen to them I thought that I would pen them(or actually type them) down here.
Looking back to that time I feel that I was in search of an identity of my own. There was a growing fear of getting lost in the crowd. Mr.Tanuj Poddar became Paddy and wanted to live in a world that he would call Paddy world where he could speak whatever he wanted. Thanks to the genes passed on by my mother I was inquisitive and analytical about things and thus my adolescent's daydreaming gave way to dissection of every thing that came in my life. There was an urge to find people to listen my thoughts. I thought that it was unnecessary to try explain things to people who didn't match my way of thinking. There was a burst of confidence and I felt that I was liked by everyone in the way i presented myself. For those who didn't like they could go to hell. There was a touch of arrogance that gave a good feeling. The reins of my life in my hands. I thought about everything I did and thought of those connected to me before doing something and thus there was no reason for me going wrong. But this kinda attitude was vulnerable against failure and that is what happened. In trying to take the failure in the stride the mindset moved to being passive instead of assertive. The ability to incorporate other's view to my logic was lost. Life kept moving statically. I started accepting what was being told when i couldn't understand something. Somethings seemed impossible to understand because i forgot how to give time to understand. Everything had to happen instantly. I started feeling odd in the presence of peers. I couldn't adapt myself to their thought process. On the practical front I was moving nowhere. There was nothing that was added to my commercial aspect of life. What all gave me a youthful burst was forgotten , which included this blog. I seemed to have hit mid-life crisis too early or maybe it would have been my midlife had I not realized that something was going wrong. There was a lot of things that were going haywire . Priorities were not set and self confidence was gone once it found itself wanting for self-esteem. There was a structure without an infrastructure. Renovation wouldn't do , a through rebuilding process had to take place. Thus first the existing structure had to be brought down to rubbles. Along with that a proper blue print had to be built. The voice that had become a noise for others needed to be modulated to a frequency that could be decoded by the receptors. A self-analysis was needed. The new ideas that were gathered had to be implemented. the destruction process continued at the back-end.
People had to be given importance. A scientific approach was required . Thus experiments needed to be conducted and hypothesis was to be tested. So now i start a new chapter of life where i experiment with life to explore it to the core. Thus this changes my blog to

My Experiments With Life

Life and truth are two sides of the same coin.

the long night

2007-05-23T11:01:00.000+05:30

when we came back down the whole way there was not much peace to be . As most of us felt sleepy but hungry at the same time , we came to know we had to rush to the bhojanalay (the place where food is served ) as there was a huge group of 100 turning up and there wont be anything left once they are done with their thing . as it turned out some of us skipped lunch and instead had the watermelon that we had picked up on our way from rajgiri .then we all had rest . I went to have a bath and then came out and saw that it was raining . I rued the fact that I had missed the chance to get drenched in the rain ( It doesn't make sense to get drenched after having a bath) . But anyways that made the place even more cold . As everyone felt sleepy I was kinda bored . So I was just lurking around in both the rooms trying to find out who wasn't sleepy and thus trying to get them in some conversation . Of course they had become tolerant of my inability to converse in their language and were not reluctant to talk in Hindi . Anyways we had a train to catch from a nearby station Pushkar . they said it was a half an hour drive and our train was at 9.30 . So we had planned to leave by 8 for overcoming any worst-case scenario . But there was more in store , no car was allowed to leave the premises of shikharji after 6 pm because of naxalite threats . So when we came to know about it at around 5 pm there was a rush hour once again . Everybody woke up from their late siesta and all were set to move by 5.30 . but then it was pouring , after waiting for 10 mins we decided to make a move . we got into the sumo we had hired . loaded the luggage over it and provided it cover with a plastic sheet . And here we were set to go . It was so lovely to pass through a road surrounded by green on either in such a rainy whether . though rain stopped , the sky was overcast . anyways by 6 we were at the station . and what a way to greet us at station . people started climbing on our cars and we reached the station . when we got down then we realized that they had climbed on cause we had so many suitcases and they thought we would hire someone to carry them for us . We reached the station went to the platform and sat there for some time . then we came to know that the train was late . how long will it take to come ?not known . anyways we were told it will come by 12 midnight . It was a very small station . though it is a stoppage for many trains that travel from Delhi to Calcutta .and the major shock came when we saw a rajdhani stop at this station of which we had never heard of and which looked no bigger than a platform on the suburban lines of kolkata or mumbai . Anyways in this hour of uncertainty we all decided to stay awake . but for how long . We had some fried snacks from outside the station for dinner . then I went to the station master to get some clear idea about the position . He said that the train will take 2 hours after it reaches Gaya and there is no report of it reaching there . He said that we had been fooled in being handed over the tickets of Dhoon express which is always given last preference on these routes . There we were all doomed . Ideally it is a great time to be in a group as it becomes easier to pass time . But there was some tension between the members in the camp . I wasn't quite understanding what was happening , and my friend who was supposed to understand just kept giving me situations which i was least bothered to listen to . All that mattered was how to spend time . finally everybody started to sleep . on the seats , on the luggage etc. there was something or the other happening till an hour past midnight though . One incident for example was that there were a few people who were sleeping on the platform just beside a pillar . Suddenly everyone started shouting . The man at whome it was directed woke up to find a snake near his neck . though it fled away admist the chaos that it unintentionally caused. ( wonder what reputations human have in the animal kingdom, i would say crazy.) It was a preety busy track with lots of goods-carriages(mostly carrying coal) passing through the time we were there . they never stopped but sped past at full speed , cleaning up the platform in their fury run . that explains how we came across such a clean platform in Jharkhand .As the train timings were uncertain we were to stay ready for the train any moment it came. So we thought of deciding how we would get accommodated in the train . It was then that we saw the berth number that were reserved for us: 8,16,24,32,40,64,72 in S-7 and 48, 50,51 in S-11. those who know about the Indian railway seating system would understand the situation and laugh out loud. I finally went to sleep at 3 am and with the news that the train might come by 4 . i woke up by 4.30and went to the Sation master and came to know that the train has left Gaya but there are many rajdhanis that were stuck in the route so they will be cleared thus it will take another 3 hrs for our train to come . i came back disgusted . After another hours of sleep i woke up to check with the station master and came and told about it to one of the uncles there who said that he had cancelled the tickets . it was ok that he got frusterated , but the problem was that he didn't consider what other options were available once we canceled the tickets. And no matter how insane it may sound but what happened in the end was that we cancelled our reserved ticket for dhoon express and then bought general tickets (as reserved tickets are not available before 8 am) and then we boarded the same train with those general tickets and for the next 5 hours we all along with our luggage stay put in the passage at the entrance of a boogie in which we would have had seats had the tickets not been canceled. Anyways Somehow everyone kept slipping off to sleep and the journey was not that inconvenient. My ordeal was coming to an end . We got down at Burdaman and got another train that would take us to my friends home where all these people were staying. We reached there in another hour or two. I think i kinda dosed off during that period. Finally we reached his place and had lunch . I bid adios to all those people with whom i had spent my vacation and headed to home which was another hours journey in the bus. It was a trip that i will never forget 1)coz it was my first trip without any of my family members. 2) I was with a bunch of people whose language i couldn't follow. 3) I went and lived in Bihar & Jharkhand where people are not really concerned about the opportunity that life is . The are untouched by the shining economy and thus have no complains about the way their lives are. A testimony of the UPA government's failure to bring changes over its tenure is that there people still think that the prime minister of India is A.B.Vajpayee . No matter how strange it seems to be it has given me an insight to what state of mind are people in rural areas and has made me more determined to do something about it in future.

and final day( or so we thought)

2007-05-20T11:50:00.000+05:30

2finally came the last day of the trip (or we thought so ) . I don't know what the reason was but i didn't feel like sleeping and though it was awkward i stayed up all night and that too without a company . whether it was loneliness or solitude i am not sure but there was something within me that told me that i needed to do so . Also it didn't make much of a difference as we slept around 10.30 and were supposed to wake up at 2 in the morning . yeah we woke up at 2 in the morning. the reason being that we had to climb the mountain and considering the heat of the day makes it more stressful , people opt to start climbing from 4 a.m in the morning . So amongst all the unidentified emotions I found one logical reason to not to sleep viz. it would be difficult for me to get up after sleeping peacefully for 3 hours , especially considering the fatigue that had started to settle in after three days of travel ( i wouldn't have done that if i knew what the future had in store for us) . anyways I woke up or rather got off my bedding at the scheduled time and got involved in the daily chores on morning which I usually did at least 4 hours later on any other day . the most chilling part of the process was the bath i took . the water was as if custom made to give people shivers. I had never felt tap water to be so cold , no not even in winters and right now is the time when summers are at its peak . anyways It was refreshing and was just the right thing to fill the body with a renewed energy and enthusiasm .
We came out of our rooms with the water bottles and other things that we had decided to accompany with us for the trip to the top of the mountain , which was house to shikharji . ( interestingly shikhar mean peak and the temple is at the peak of the mountain ) . i was not told by my friend that we wold be climbing this big a mountain . over the course of time we were to realize that we had to walk as much as 9 miles then to visit the temples on the top another 9 miles (there were many small ones) and finally to come down another 9 miles. i was cursing my luck . why did I were kitos instead of sneakers . also i was wearing a cotton trouser where a denim would have been an obvious choice . anywasy there was a temple inside the dharamshala , which we had to visit before starting the climb . It was the temple of bhomi baba sho is said to guide all the pilgrims to the topand bring them down in sound health . it was supposed to open at 3.45 but opened at 4.10 so we kinda stated late but what was basically irritating us was the anxiety that we had to hold on to longer . It was during this period of wait that i saw people who came and sold thin bamboo sticks that would help in the process of ascending . Of course i didnt feel the need for it and didn't get myself one . finally the temple opened and we all did the general prayer and bowed down three tines and prayed to recieve his guidance on the way . as we came out of the dharamshala and started waking up the slope started to get steeper . the route was made up of coal tar for the next couple of hundred meters .there after started the actual steep slope . the route we were to travel was well defined . It was made up of concrete and thus was pretty rough at times .Just think of the dwigamber Jains who walk up this route bare footed . We were a group of ten people out of which the two older ladies had opted for palanquins . the others I thought would move up together . I saw that the eldest person of our group , my friends eldest uncle would be left alone behind and thus I decided to accompany him also we were moving in the vicinity of the palanquins , which were being carrier by a group of four that synchronized their steps by the minutest measure possible . It was early in the morning the sun had not yet come up . I felt like I would be doomed to move up all the way with this person way more than thrice my age .I mean what in the world would we find in common to talk about . the other day he said that he liked to hear to cricket commentary but didn't like to make judgments or talk at length about it . That was a shattering thought that struck me because in India one thing that one should know about is cricket . no matter where you go whome you meet , if it is a stranger still you can talk to him or her about cricket at length and though the outcome is worthless but still you talk instead of looking at each others face . but what about this situation . But then as we moved ahead this man felt the urge to drink tea and we found a tea stall after traveling about an hour up the slope. during this period the discussion was mainly on how he was a tea addict in the greener years of his life and how he came over it . though such a topic meant that the responsibility of carrying it on was on his shoulders and his effort did break the shakles and we started conversing more and more freely and over various things , ranging from religion to life in remote areas of gujrat , to the religious politics of Gujarat and communist politics in west bengal and to the karma of a person . He is a very liberal person i realised and i was surprised to listen to what he said because he said he didnt gather much of education but still had a vast knowledge and an intellectual level of thinking that most of the educated urban apartment clan people never reach in life. It was amazing to see how much life teached a person . He has a whole lot of things bugging him in his life but he never utters a word about it , seemed as calm and cool as fedrer on grass court and at 68 was ready to match steps to step with me . We rested quite a number of times on the way at tea-stalls which gave some refreshing tea to the travellers so that they feel rejuvenated to pursue their path and get an assessment of the task that lied ahead . at times in our path we found a few dogs that were walking in front of us as if guiding us to the path we were to travel . these dogs are said to be blessed by bhomi baba and thus guide us on way . as we moved further ahead towards the completion of the first 9 mile of the trilogy the tea were replaced by lemon juice that we had to avoid dehydration . It was after finishing the first part of the journey that we found a lemonade stall . after resting there for around 15 minutes we moved ahead and found there were a few choices to make . there were three directions in which we could move . One lead to the shikarji , along the way there were subsequent small temples that were home to the footprints of various tirthankars that had meditated at the place . on the other side we had a way leading to parasnath through a path that took us to another peak of the mountain . and also there was a way leading down towards Jal-mandir . It was a temple in middle of a water shed . IT was being renovated . We found other members of our clan and proceeded towards the steep declining slope and it was then that i realized that moving down a slope can be more strenuous than moving up . but it was fun as I could just run the whole way , of course at times it was becoming difficult to control the speed . if i could run at that speed on flat ground i would become the fastest sprinter in the world . Anyways it was a very pretty site the temple , and we spenmt some time there after all the effort that we had put in to climb down and were to put in while climbing up . after that we came back to what i would call the choice-making-crossing . At this point we made an assessment that how much could we walk . We decided to give a skip to the main temple which was 9 miles away . We decided to move around the place visiting the footmarks of the tirthankars . We just kept moving and moving , quite aimlessly , moving up and down , right and left , up the slope and down the slope , even reaching places wher we feared being lost with no one to be seen . But fortunately as soon as we felt like this we found someone around the corner . At one point we were moving through a curved path that pretty much defined the shape of the mountain . It was such a great feeling to look at the scenery there . I wished there that i could fly . I felt like jumping of that place and glide through the air and have a feel of the oneness of the sky , the greens and the earth ( but i thought my life would give me more pleasure than that in years to come :grin: ). We were at par with the clouds and as we felt them approach us we felt how even nothingness gives us a sense of being. a whole cloud could pass through us without us realizing that . It does give a feeling of dampness , but really it is nowhere near something that can flood a whole city ( as it does every monsoon ) . The weather was a respite from the harsh sun that beated down on us the whole day . Then all of a sudden we found that in a matter of 15 minutes we were near the stairs leading to the temple that we once felt was at the peak of another mountain . We had certainly taken a detour without realizing it . Reaching to the top we found my friend and his cousin already out there . It was unspoken but decided that it was our last stop on the mountain and spend quite some time out there . then we started moving down . we went to a food stall had some palak pakodas there which hardly had any palak in it . but it was nice to have something hot in that ambiance . then we started the decline , visiting the daak-banglaa along the way . the decline as i had a brief experience earlier was pretty strenuous . though we were moving much quickly but still it puts a lot of strain on the ankles and knees . and this led to me repeatedly cursing my friend who didn't tell me about this or else i would have carried my sneakers along . Also I was wearing a cotton trousers which i didn't want to get spoiled . I would have loved to rough up my jeans out here . Alas ... . unlike the ascent , we just sat once while coming down . also as i was with my friend and his cousin I could take the liberty of taking the shortcuts that were a roughed up way that one could take to avoid a long curve of the concrete path . It took us quite a while to get down . when we were told that we had another 6 miles to go from the place where we rested , we weer kinda shocked . We kept meeting people of our clan ( or our group) and started moving along . We expected the journey down the mountain to be easier and shorter so it was really frustrating to keep walking and that is when most of us felt demoralized and started feeling tired . the spirit with which we started was diminishing . a thought popped up in my mind that may be it is true that all our feeling are after all dependent on our state of mind . Once again I stopped with the elderly uncle as I saw he was finding it difficult to walk down the slope . We took a considerable amount of time to complete what i would call the last leg of the journey . I bought a pain-relief ointment from a chemist and moved towards the dharamshala . Well we thought that it was finally over . Now all we had to do was catch the train that we had booked at the dharamshala. Well little did we know what was to follow . ( too much to be stuffed in one post )To be continued......

day 3

2007-05-18T22:23:00.000+05:30

After a brief discussion it was decided that we would depart from rajgiri early in the morning to reach our last stop viz. shikharji . shikharji is a temple situated over a mountain . to visit that place one has to start from the foot before sunrise . so even though we would reach shikharji today we cant do the climbing today . but anyways not much of a thought was given and we departed as early as we could from the place . when we were out of rajgiri i got some details from my friend . (actually i was not able to follow the discussions that took place last evening , first of all i dont understand their language completely and secondly i was feeling sleepy .) . he said that our destination is just about 4 hours away and we have to stay there the whole day and start the climbing the next day . also there is no place to hangout nearby . so staying put in a room with so many people who will again dose off to sleep was a really boring prospect . so i thought really hard and viola came out an answer . i suggested an idea of visiting gaya and bodh-gaya in the way. he gave some more weight age and some how propagated the idea through the group and then the driver was asked to proceed towards gaya . we went though village filled with logged water and reached the temple of gaya where prayers are offered to our ancestors . of course we didn't have much to do there , so we just went through the temple and came out , took some refreshments (lassi , buttermilk, juice etc. and packed some for the trip ahead ) . then from there we headed towards bodhgaya . it had a few really beautiful Buddhist temples . the premises of the temple were beautifully maintained . one sign that i will never forget is one that said : " this is the land where such great humans (who marked the beginning of Buddhism ) walked , and we should be proud that we are born here . so be proud and say we are bihari " . I would have loved to describe the beauty of these structures but find myself short of words to do so . all i can say is that the structures and interiors were simple yet elegant and still majestic . we didn't find any cheap hotel around the place and didn't want to move back towards that waterlogged village so we bought ourselves a dozen mangoes and a pack of sliced bread . then we hit the highway and found a tree large enough to provide shelter to us all . then we sat down under it and had mangoes with bread slices. it was an experience that i enjoyed quite a lot . actually i could never image doing that . but it certainly was a memorable experience. we moved along a decent enough highway with two broad lanes . however our journey was halted by truck that had skidded away from the road and was being pulled out by a crane . it was some sight . at times it was hard to conclude whether the crane was pulling the truck or the truck was pulling the crane . anyways the wait was not too long . once we got way , we sped along the highway . after traveling for around an hour we entered jharkhand . how we came to know about it ?? well the answer is simple that we moved back to the zigzag highway where the vehicles were moving in both the directions though the same lane , changing lanes every couple of miles. anyways it was a long distance to shikharji and we reached the place at around 5 pm . there again we had a dharamshala ( this one being really big , as this pilgrimage means a lot to those following jaininsm ) . we unloaded ourselves in the rooms and rested for a while and then off we went to have a look at the market settled at the sides of the road that slanted considerably . then we went back to our rooms and prepared for a small nap , as we had to get up by 2 in the morning and get ready for climbing the mountain and visit the temple .

day 2

2007-05-17T14:27:00.000+05:30

it was a really still night . there was no wind blowing but the was lightening in the clouds(which seemed to have mysteriously arrived , as there was none in the day when the sun was beating on us) . me and my friend could no longer bear it when there was power cut-off and went to venture out in this sleepless night just to stop the mosquitoes from sucking out all the blood from our body. we came out of the room to see that the light near the temple at the other end of the courtyard of the dharamshala was on and just kept moving towards the huge structure (possibly made out of red stone) . around the temple were old buildings with many rooms ( maybe these were in use before the new building was constructed) and could have been used in case too many people came to the place ( though looking at their condition it seemed a doubtful proposition) . there was some renovation work going on there evident from the fact that there were these bamboos , cement , ropes , other construction tools which were visible courtesy a solitary dim bulb that hung in front of a building (from where it was drawing the tension i couldn't see) . well the place did seem a little spooky but we decided to give a round . i don't know but at that point of time as we went around the temple i did think that i was hearing some sounds , but i ignored it considering them to my hallucinations . however we were not at ease and that was evident from the speed at which we completed our trip around the temple .
then as we completed the round we were back to the world of light in front of the temple . there we saw a well , yeah a well . we having spent the whole life in the city had never had the experience of drawing water out of the well so the bucket tied with the rope gave us the temptation to try our hand at it . so we picked the bucket and plunged it into the well . as we did so , we heard a spine chilling shriek , and for a moment our heart sank . then we saw that it was cat near the well , and started to breath normally again. the bucket hit the water and we excitedly pulled out the bucket . it did seem heavy so expected to complete the mission of drawing water and get away from the place . when the bucket came out it was not even 1/10th filled with water . then we thought of giving it another try and again the outcome was a little more than 1/8th of the bucket . then i told my friend that there ain't seems to be enough water in the well . just then a heavy voice from the behind says that there is water in the well . we look back even though we didn't want to move even our nails . we see a lumpish man in white dhoti-kurta , eyes red , a torch in hand , cheeks falling down like that of a bulldog and huge mustache turning upwards at the end, as sharp as a needle . he went on further saying that it was the wrong way in which we were putting in the bucket that resulted in so less water coming out . he asked us to tilt the bucket and throw it in with some force . we did it and this time around we knew that the bucket was filled because it was so heavy that we had to pull it out together . he walked along saying that city boys need to tone their body . point well taken , we pulled out the bucket . he went along with the torch in the dark shouting something maybe to show that he was awake and got some response from other watchmen who were awake . then we used the water we pulled out to wash our hands, face and legs . when we were done then the man come back and starts chatting tells that he is the head watchman out there . then he inquires about us where we were from and where we were heading and all that stuff . when we fell at ease then suddenly my friend out of nowhere asked him that the place looks so spooky , doesn't he feel so . then he gave a laugh and we knew that it was not a good question to ask . and gave a glaring stare to my friend who just kept looking down . anyhow the watchman kept continuing and we didn't even realize when he started an account of some incident that had witnessed . he started saying some weird things that had happened which did seem to us could only have been the brainchild of some mischievous spirit. then he said that we accompany him to the place behind the temple we he had observed something strange . we were out of our minds or what . we refused the proposal , hearing which he started laughing . the somehow made us agree to accompany him . he started moving towards the back of the temple , we sensing the opportunity just ran away from the place and moved towards the room at some pace. when we crossed the courtyard we heard the man laughing and going back to make his rounds. of course we didn't have any further sleep instead we were the alarm that day waking every one up in the morning at 5 am . well the place that was silent a couple of minutes ago was now hushing-bushing with everyone just telling the others to hurry . then we had a breakfast of tea and some snacks that we were carrying . after it was done we headed towards or vehicle to find that we were not allowed to take our vehicle(such as car , suv s, buses etc. ) to the temples we were to visit . so we were forced to hire a couple of auto-rickshaws which looked as if they could be instantly be dismantled . we had no option so we haired a couple of them and hit the road . it was some road . i would preferably call it a road that can be used to test the toughness of a vehicle . all the way long the rickshaw rocked like a cradle . we reached a temple shining in the whole of whiteness . the temple i wasunderstood was called samosaran as it is the place where the lord mahavira sat down and gave preaching to a gathering of all the creatures in the world as well as the lords from the heaven . It was made up of marble and round in shape . inside sat lord mahavira and around him was engraved in three different levels the lords from heaven , the creatures that moved on the earth and the creatures who flew . also at the ground level were small ponds which signified the presence of water creatures at the gathering . then the holy man showed us a well and said that the water from the well used to be used in ancient times for lighting up lamps (instead of the conventionally used oil) . we came out of the place and moved towards the auto that was waiting for us for taking us to our next stop which was jal-mandir (water-temple) . this was a temple in the middle of a large square shaped pond . the story so goes that when lord Mahavira died then he was cremated in this place then the ashes spread over such a long area that when the ashes were picked up it dug up such a big hole that it became such a big pond . and a temple in erected right in the middle of the pond as a remembrance of the place where he was cremated . in near vicinity were a couple of temples whose significance i am not aware of. but at least after having been to these couple of temples , i got some idea of the life of lord Mahavira and why he is worshiped . now we left the place and we had our bolero waiting for us to get loaded and move towards the Raj-giri . in between we were to stop at a place called kundulpur . it is the place where lord Mahavira is supposed to be born . there is huge temple built there with an idol around 10 feet tall made out of possibly green granite . out there was a building which had the idols of the 24 tirthankars of three periods i.e. the past , the present and the future . it was here that i came to know more about the lord who is worshiped . lord Mahavira was the last of the tirthankars of the past and it was him who through a tedious life tried to spread the message of Jainism to the people and it is due to his influence on the people and his selfless life devoted to the cause of preaching Jainism that makes him a lord to be worshiped .from here we moved towards Rajgiri . in between came a place that has always fascinated me . Nalanda Vishwavidlaya . i know i will regret the fact that i couldn't watch the place because we didn't have time . well after a drive of about an hour we reached rajgiri . it was basically a place at the bottom of a couple of hills . at the top of these hills are a couple of jain temples . we reached the place at around 11.30 and even here we got a dharamshala to live in . here i figured out that there are two class of worshipers in Jainism . one is shvetanber and the other is dwigamber . shvetamber worship the lord by making him wear clothes where as dwigamber believe that lord moved around without clothes and thus should be worshiped without them . both these cults have their separate dharamshalas at every place and thus the people of the respective section of worshipers enjoy the services of the respective dharamshalas . now by the time we reached rajgiri we were late for climbing the mountains to go to the jain temples . so we hired horse carriages which took us to the different places worth visit . the rider of the carriage told us that there were many historical monuments here but most were destroyed in an earthquake that hit the place in 1966 . anyways we were taken to the japanese temple on the top of a hill . to reach we were to get up on a rope way taking 7 1/2 minutes or walk at goo pace on the stairs to reach in about 45 minutes . we opted for the rope way and there was no reason to regret . it was a nice ride up the hill at a very easy pace . another 5 minutes walk and we noticed what was termed as Japaneses temple was basically a shanti stupa and beside it was a Buddhist temple . we spent quite some time out there taking some photographs of the picturesque scenery that was on offer . then was the time to come down again enjoying the services of the rope way . after coming down we took the carriage ride to a well that has hot water in it . people worship and do all sorts of thing there . i went there and washed my hand and face there and yeah it was quite a refreshing experience to splash naturally hot water on your face . anyways next we went to a place called veerayatan . it is locally known as a museum . i was surprised at the thought of visiting a historical museum at such a place . anyways we got our tickets and went inside to find that it basically depicted various incidences of lord Mahavira life through beautiful depictions using dolls and clays structures and various other things that completed the scenes and at the bottom a plate describing the scene . it was beautiful and very tedious done making the descriptions both detailed and beautiful to look at. it very beautifully conveyed the messages that lord mahavira had spread amongst the masses during his life time . it certainly was a place i would like to visit again and again . i rue the fact that i didn't pick up a CD which claimed to have all the illustrations along with a running commentary . anyways out of that place we were then escorted by the carriage to a Buddhist temple . it was huge and it had some thing special about it . it was one of the most peaceful place i had ever been to . we came out and headed straight to the dharamshala . it was already a long day . then i and my friend decided to move around the market . it was not much of a market , just a couple of stalls chats and boiled eggs . and the rest was some fruits and vegetables . but the hustle bustle around the place made it look like a very busy market . what i and my friend were looking for was something called taadi . it is a juice of some fruit that is fetched from long trees which were in plenty out there . anyways there is an interesting story around it which i shall disclose later . anyways there was not much adventure left in that day . we just went to the dharamshala rested a little and came out at around 8 and went to restaurant and had our dinner . went back and slept. i must say that these people were not that much of chatters . i mean whenever we were not traveling they all dosed off to sleep instead of having fun and chatting around . well i am a complainer and i would have complained even if they talked because it is a strange feeling of sitting in midst of a bunch of people who are speaking a language that you don't understand . whatever we got ourselves mortien coil for the night so that we were not troubled by the mosquitoes again . and then went into the dreamland till the next morning .

a trip to ...

2007-05-16T16:08:00.000+05:30

I wake up at 4 in the morning .(generally i wake up a couple of hours later) I got a train to catch . Yeah my eyes are sleepy because i slept late , as i was not sure if I would be leaving till late in the evening . At around 9 my friend had confirmed . so it was then that i started packing my bag (trying to make it minimalistic so that we don't have to carry the burden through out . anyways back to the morning , i was ready to leave for the trip with people i had never met and to place i had never heard . i get out of the house with a small bag containing my wardrobe and necessities for the days to come (how many i am not sure) . now out on the roads at quarter past five , the roads are as empty i had ever seen . Am i going to get a bus here?? As if the almighty told my sixth sense that the answer is no . So i will be making a luxurious start to my trip driving all the way to railway station in a taxi and handing over a hari patti . anything to reach the station in time and join the troupe . well one thing nice about traveling in the morning is that you get to see Kolkata like you want to see it during the day while standing and sweating profusely in a bus hold up in a traffic jam. So finally i reach the station about around 6 in the morning . The train black diamond express,will leave at 6.20 . so need to find them fast . well I pace down the platform in a sort of wild goose chase . don't know anyone except my friend and how am i supposed to know the other people as they are the relatives of my friend who arrived from Gujarat a couple of days ago, it was then the first time my friend had met them . Since it was group of 10 so it was easy to spot . on meeting them it came to my knowledge that the tickets we had were not confirmed . So for the first time(there are many firsts waiting to happen in this trip) i got into the general compartment of a train to reserve the seats for this BIG group of ours. though i have traveled in general compartment but then we being young don't quite care about getting a seat . since there were a couple of elderly people and a whole lots of luggage (i was asked to bring less luggage and now i understood why cause they already had 4 suitcase and a couple of handbags but thankfully they were not very heavy) . We managed to get 6 seats so there was a decent level of comfort . it was a passenger train so only seats and no berths me and my friend were roaming around the train just so that we don't get bored . anyways one good news that came to me was that we had to spend 5 hours in the train . another piece of information was that we were to get down at dhanbad . once a couple of hours passed the rush kept shedding and after we crossed Burdwan , there was enough space for all of us to sit comfortably and a couple of stoppages the compartments were so empty that everyone could sleep if they wanted to . anyways finally dhanbad arrives. We got down at the station and were greeted by someone I don't know who (actually i figured out that i might not know many things on this trip cause these people were from interiors of Gujarat and thus spoke the language spoken in kutch district , so even though i understand Gujarati it was difficult to follow what they were saying.) . He escorted us to the vehicle that was to carry us through the trip . we were 10 people with a 10 years old child and to our utter shock we were to travel in a bolero . well though there were a couple of girls nearing anorexia but still it was too small a car for a group of 10 1/2 . anyways we just hopped on somehow (i cant explain how but it was so stuffy it seemed we were trying to establish a record for most people that can be accommodated in that car . ) anyways our first stop was not far off where we were to have our lunch . so we got down and had what could be called proper Gujarati food (more sweet less spice) . then we moved back to the car and tried to figure out how we can adjust within the car as we had to travel in it for the next 3 days (at least as per the plan at that point of time ) . so things were sorted out and we moved ahead towards a place called pawa puri . the place was supposed pretty far off as we were scheduled to reach that place around 7.30 even though we left dhanbad around 1 pm . but what was in the future was still to be seen . after a couple of hours of bumping my head sitting on the roof of the back seat on the so called highways of jharkand . we stopped at a place for refreshment s and then got to sit in the front seat . i had a feeling that we were traveling in the wring lane while in the back seat . but when i came to the front seat i came to know the way the vehicles move on the highways there . where the other states repair their highways once a year there is jharkhand and bihar who dont have a highways as of yet . even though the work has been in progress for almost a decade the work is not complete .there are two broad lanes alright but seldom do they operate together . mostly the vehicles of both directions share the same lane. The other lane seems almost complete but may be is not opened so that the project never ends . I need not be a rocket scientist to understand why the project is kept pending over a long period of time . after all everyone knows how politicians are in these states . anyways the worst thing was that whatever road we had was really bumpy . moreover our driver was the eight wonder of the world , who didn't understand why speed breakers are made . it seemed that they made him go even faster . well it had to take the toll on the car and finally near dusk we had a flat tyre and that brat went off to the nearby garage to get the tyre repaired and the job of changing the tyre was left to us . (i mean i never seen a driver like him and never wish to see anyone like him future either) . well the royal highness came back from the so called garage with the news that we have to travel some distance without a spare tyre as it couldn't be fixed at these small settlements near the highway. and oh yeah on more thing that brat took the keys so we were changing the tyres in the dark without the indicators on , with the bypassing trucks not missing us by much of a distance . well as we proceeded further we come to know something that was going to bother us for the next couple of days. the driver didnt even know the route to the places we were going . well somehow we managed to reach the place after having asked the route to many a people . the curious thing was how these people estimated the distance or what a mile or kilometer meant to them . i mean we ask this guy about how much further we need to go , he say about 27 km . then we move about a couple of KM ahead and we ask someone how far it is and he say 45 km . I mean how is that possible . well as we figured out it was basically a range it was at least 27 km and at most 45km . with all this quizzing around it took us a hell lot of time to reach pawa puri . finally one thing that was good was that there was a huge dharamshala of Jainism followers there and these people i was accompanying were jains . so we got easy lodging and came to believe that finally we get some comfort . well the wish was short lived not cause it came true but because it went to the trash bin , when we found that we wont get any food at that time of the day , 9 pm . so we had to order the chaiwallah for a dozen cup of tea to drink with the thepalaas they had brought for an emergency like this . well as we dosed of in the night we came to realise that life can cruel some times . this time around this message was delivered to us by the fearsome messenger of nature , mosquitoes . wow there was some population of them out there . we had too wake up early in the morning but i don't think we needed to worry about that as we were not gonna get any sleep at the first place . well what a first day to the trip . well lets see what was to come as we wake up on 17th may 2007, the 2nd day of our trip .

words of wisdom

2007-05-01T00:58:00.000+05:30

the most unfair thing about life is the way it ends. i mean, life is tough. it takes up a lot of your time. what do you get at the end of it? a death.what's that , a bonus?!I think the life cycle is all backwards. You should die first , get it out of the way.Then you go live in an old age home. you get kicked out for being to healthy , go collect your pension, then , when you start to work , yu get a gold watch on your first day.you work forty years till you are young enough to enjoy your retirement. you drink alcohol, you party,and you get ready for high school .you go to primary school, you become a kid , you play , you have no responsibilities, you become a little baby, you go back , you spend your last 9 months floating with luxuries like central heating, spa,room service on tap, then you finish off as an orgasm!!

perplexed

2007-03-30T21:30:00.000+05:30

i move ahead with dreams in my heart . i follow the path from where i get positive vibes . didnt ever fear getting lost rather felt i will find myself as i would try to get lost in the depth . i believed in myself and was ready to back myself up . but just like a bolt out of blue comes the age of reason and shifts my focus to the reasons . couldn't work to the standards i set for myself . i find myself at an unforeseen junction of unknown paths and my lost self doesn't feel the vibes coming . my whole existence is based on the way my faith is . i work on my instincts . i don't try to find a reason for every thing i do . all reasons have kept on accumulating up in my brain and my heart and all these believes that i have accumulated throughout my existence give me the answers to all the questions with a logic i find hard to defy . but all my self asks from me is trust and loyalty . but as soon as i stop communicating to myself , i don't hear a call from within me calling me back , instead it lets me realize that the methodology i use to live my life will leave me dazed without the support of self . now i am perplexed . trying to establish the connection . it is just like the relation we have with others , a strong bond is easier to break than to make .
" whispering words of wisdom - Let It Be " . with so many shades to it , life is beautiful :)

a visit to greetings card shop

2007-02-02T00:15:00.000+05:30

I recently went to a greetings shop with my parents to buy a card for some relatives wedding . As usual there were all those glittering items on display begging to be gifted to someone , also there were these huge cards more than half my height . There is so much that we can spend on just to show our affection towards someone we known for quite sometime or will like to know in future . in midst of it all seemed to be a misfit a rack of simple designed cards on nonglossy paper with no flowery words in it . On the top of the rack was written "CRY CARDS" . A note on the rack said that a part of the sales from these cards are given to CRY , which is an organisation taking care of children . On the wall nest to this rack i found a poster bringing to notice the helpage organisation , which takes care of elderly people isolated in this world .
This really stikes me a lot . Many times in various discussions I have heard a point being raised viz. India has a demographic advantage with more than 60% of the population being of international working age group i.e. above 16 and below 60 . however looking at the existance of oraganisations such as cry and helpage , I seriously doubt where we really have any such advantage . Its just incomprehensible that a 65% working population can not support a 35% dependent population .

Hallelujah

2006-12-25T22:04:00.000+05:30

merry christmas to ya all . the day is a celebration of the birth of the son of god . but i consider it as the birth of power . what drives us to achieve something in life is the faith in ourselves . God has instilled a part of his in all of us and the more we believe in ourselves the more we believe in him and the more power we get to achieve what we want to achieve . We dont know where we should we head . many are in search of the meaning of life . we never know what to do but he knows what he wants us to do . so our duty is to do what our inner god tells us to do in the form of our conscience , instincts , sixth sense etc. believe in yourself and extend yourself to the world . accept whatever you face in this world .It is what he feels is necessary to prepare you for the job at hand . there is nothing such as a perfect life , especially in materialistic terms . a perfect life is where you are able to accomplish the job that god has assigned to you . so unquestioningly do what you feel you shoud be doing . if you are being pushed to do something that you dont feel is right and yet you cant do anything about it , consider it is a retification made by god in his plans , and face the situation like that is what you want to do the most . believe in yourself , there is a power within .

when you are down

2006-12-04T02:15:00.000+05:30

Often some insane people like me find themselves in a position when nothing seems to be going in my way and there is no sense of direction . just turn out to be a looser from all directions . but now i know that when in such situations i should focus my mind on working hard to ensure that i dont have to face such a situation .
when down the obstacles seem to be too big , but if i take the courage to overcome them when i am trying to get up then i am sure that they will never be able to troubl me ever again .
Being down is the best gift life can give , it make me connect wth myself . i gives a new zeal to life .it gives a chance to start from scratch .
it makes me realise that how life teaches .

Childrens day

2006-11-14T18:13:00.000+05:30

hum bhi agar bacche hote,
naam hamaraa hota dabloo , babloo
khaane ko milte ladoo....

http://www.cry.org/resources/videos/cry_film2.wmv

today is 14 nov. , a day that meant a lot till about six years ago . it was great to have a few liberties in school with free periods and teachers getting involved in having fun . in fact I can even recall a couple of years when they staged some shows in the school about how we behaved in the class . we used to laugh and feel awkward on realizing how they knew about all our mischiefs . how much we used to wait for that one day full of fun . it was our day just like our birthdays . but today suddenly realized that it was children's day when i opened the paper today as there was an ad of some function that was being held . childhood is a great thing to celebrate . it is on of the longest occasion of our lives where we have fun and spread happiness to others .
I just wish that more children would actually be able to enjoy the pleasures of childhood . everyone who feels the same should try and make a conscious effort to see that the anti-child labour law reaches its goal .

shubh dipawali

2006-10-21T19:04:00.000+05:30

happy diwali

2006-10-20T18:54:00.000+05:30

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Book Of Love

2006-10-13T00:17:00.000+05:30

came across this lovely song

The book of love is long and boring
No one can lift the damn thing
It's full of charts and facts and figures and instructions for dancing
But I
I love it when you read to me
And you
You can read me anything
The book of love has music in it
In fact that's where music comes from
Some of it is just transcendental
Some of it is just really dumb
But I
I love it when you sing to me
And you
You can sing me anything
The book of love is long and boring
And written very long ago
It's full of flowers and heart-shaped boxes
And things we're all too young to know
But I
I love it when you give me things
And you
You ought to give me wedding rings
And I
I love it when you give me things
And you
You ought to give me wedding rings
And I
I love it when you give me things
And you
You ought to give me wedding rings
You ought to give me wedding rings

words

2006-09-30T22:04:00.000+05:30

The thing that really seperates humans from any other animal is the words to express . for this very reason i love the slogan of Airtel " express yourself" . i believe we live only to express what we feel , observe and understand . We communicate in various forms , but words are the most accurate forms of expression ... well here is the catch what if you come in contact with a person who dosent know your language and whose language you dont know . then i believe you have to trust your instincts for communicating . but do i need to meet such a person to realise this , nope . Words dont always express what we feel , they just dont have the power , maybe one can impress someone through proficient usage of a language , but i wonder if the words can express everything . They create misunderstanding because people think that they are the most accurate form of expression , thus understand the superficial meaning and not the feeling they are meant to express . I wish everyone could go back to their instincts to understand the feelings rather than the words ...

2 decades

2006-09-07T22:37:00.000+05:30

Hey today I have completed two decades in the third rock from the sun and in this world where people love those who mature beyond their years , I have had a rocking time being idiotic , erratic and kiddish to say the least , and have not been seriously been hated for it ....
Just looking back at those years I think I have not been of any worth to this world but there are a lot of things that I have learned . I have learned about life , yes no matter what I have studied I have always been a desciple of life . Life has taught me lots of things and I have been able to develop myself as an individual . The first thing I learnt was that individuality can be maintained without being stubborn and a pain in the neck for others . we may have our views of life but there is no reason for us to believe that it is perfect . we need to keep changing that is what makes life worth living ... next comes the fact that we all have our own philosophy of life and everyone act in a manner that suits best to his way of thinking ... also no one is born with all the knowledge , everyone shapes their mind in this world depending on the situations and influences they face in life ... so no one is supposed to be hated for the way they think coz it is the people who are around them who have made him like this ... moreover there is nothing such as prestige ... ego exists in this world in the name of prestige ... one feels insulted when his prestige is hurt and thus gives an opening for ego to creep in ... there is no harm in saying sorry or getting slapped in front of a huge audience if you are wrong .... and so if you are right and are standing by the truth ... i have spent a lot of time pondering over many a teachings in life and to my utter surprise everytime the basis of every lesson was one five letter word TRUTH . it is the biggest fact of life ... infact life is nothing but like a eucledian space representing coordinate points which are the different versions of truth that we come across in our lives ... sticking to it makes sense ... trust me on that point...
furthermore i have sensed that relationships are something that make life complex , so stay away from them as far as possible . there are some we arte born with so we should cautiously handle them but be very selective in the others that we form as we move ahead in life ... i dont say that i dont interact with people , yes i do but still i try to be smart enough to not to be attached to them ....
i will always try and make an effort to be creative and be an individual ... i realise the importance of being true to myself and thus i dont need to show the world that i am individual but i need to be sure myself about the same...
i look to spend the coming decades in a more responsible manner and hope to apply what i have learned till now and be open to newer ideas ...
chao

let them go by

2006-09-03T16:16:00.000+05:30

Dosent it sometimes happen that we actually make a meaningless effort to feel happy and make others feel the same...

i had changed my school after my senior secondary exams to complete my higher secondary ... back then i dont know what was going on in my mind that i didnt quite make an effort to keep in touch with my batchmates , or i felt that they didnt had any intrest either ... I was lucky to have come across a great bunch of people in my new school . so there was no reason more so ever to think about them ... we had great fun in the school , just rocked the whole school with our mischevious brains ... i personally felt it was the best time of my life ... man, thinking of the last day of school still brings tears to my eyes ... we had bonded so much that it was hard to believe that it all had to end ... after that we parted in our ways and most of the folks got into some engg. college across the country ... well i didnt quite get a happening batch in college ... everything seemed quite boring ... so i thought that how great it would get back togeather and just revive ourselves of the spirit to have fun that we had ... with the help of a couple of people of the batch we got a get2 geather happening . it was grest to see everyone togeather again. everyone described how their year had gone and what kinda life they are living ... ihad opened a yahoo group and asked everyone to join it and we had some of our group photos uploaded . sometimes someone informed about the fest and stuuf going on in their colleges ... then we all joined orkut and thought we could better interact there ... but basically all we do is keep scrapping some crap and the same old questions "how are you???" and "hey wazzup?" ... and as usual the answer is the same ....'
open the mail box and find yourself a hundred mails from your friends but those too are some crap forwards... for gods sake how much can you sit in the front of the pc and get amused from them , and do i need friends for these mails , no i can get them by joining some sick group that can fill up your 2GB email space within a week ....
but still people keep sending them because they feel like it is a way to keep in touch..
i made a few email pals and teh same thing happened with them too....
i was quite puzzled about what to do and then suddenly today i got from a friend of my earlier school ... never calle for three good years and i was surprised to hear from him .. he said he was flying out of the country and getting settled in uk .... so he thought of just contacting me once and tell me just in case i was ever willing to contact him . and i realise today tha what is the importance of human contact... the best way to preserve a relation is not to try and make effort to maintain it but let it take its due course and preserve the care on which it is based ...
just let them go by instead of making an abortive effort to keep in touch always ... there is a wireless connection that bounds us always so need never worry about losing touch ... just make a call when you remember of someone....

Bamboozled

2006-09-02T19:51:00.000+05:30

current status : "tujhse naaraaz nahin zindagi hairaan hoon main"

ya i know many of you are permanantly in that status ... well after my exams ended on 11 aug I decided to spend the rest of the month to realise where i stand in my life.. to understand my self , what i want , and where i am heading ... i realised that i am not really heading anywhere ... i am studying but i am not quite sure how and where i will be applyng it . well i realised i had to be creative , i realised i was not using my mind as much as i should... maybe i was following others words too much . i should literally start living my life the way i think i should .... finally i decided that i would think out what to do and when to do ... i also came across this ebook called "wisdom of osho" . spent long time on the pc , strained my eyes a lot and finished it ... while i was reading i felt i had learnt quite a lot but in the end when i analysed it then i found that the philosophy itself told me to not follow what the book preached me ... such was the paradox of the philosophy descfibed.. hehe ..
well i had decided to be creative so started spending more time towards my site , started a new blog and started playing my guitar and trying to be progressive by making effort in improving in whatever i did...
then i started to write a bit of poetry and composed a new song (atleast started to )
well i decided to clean up my computer up a bit of all the junk that i had been storing all the songs i had never heard and all the ebooks ehich i never read , and then i cleared my blogs blogroll list of the dead links , sad to see some of my old friends having stopped blogging ...

well somthing important i realised that now i was not thinking but instead doing ... i was living like others who thought that ok maybe some day i will rad the book and someday i will listen to the songs and someday i will .. & i will ....
what the hell , i relaised what am i doing . i have to start living in today ... from now on I am doing what i feel like doing and am going to make an effort to be more practical in life...
i wasted quite some time on orkut now , thinking i ll make some new friends but now no more , i'll carry on with the ones i already have , no more future speculations . similarly i'll post more often because it has often happened that i have thought i will post about something but kept postponing it ... also from now on i have a new blog , running parallel to this blog..

there was no yesterday , no tommrow and only today...

maths and stats

2006-08-11T00:31:00.000+05:30

well first paper was preety good and the second paper i some how managed and third paper was very good , nothin much adventurous to tell

stats was very simple and i think i did preety well in explaing all the basic model that were part of the questions asked ....

so part 1 is finally over...

Friendship Proverbs

2006-08-06T17:11:00.000+05:30

"Books and friends should be few but good."

"A friend in need is a friend indeed."

"A good friend is my nearest relation."

"A hedge between keeps friendship green."

"God defend me from my friends; from my enemies I can defend myself."

"Love is blind; friendship closes its eyes."

"Love is blind. Friendship tries not to notice."

"The best of friends must part."

"Do not use a hatchet to remove a fly from your friend's forehead."

"To have a friend, be a friend."

"The death of a friend is equivalent to the loss of a limb."

"Life without a friend is like death without a witness."

"The best mirror is an old friend."

"May there always be work for your hands to do, may your purse always hold a coin or two. May the sun always shine on your windowpane, may a rainbow be certain to follow each rain. May the hand of a friend always be near you, may God fill your heart with gladness to cheer you."

"A cheerful friend is like a sunny day spreading brightness all around."

"There are many types of ships. there are wooden ships ,plastic ships, and metal ships. but the best and most important types of ships are friendships."

"The only unsinkable ship is FRIENDSHIP."

" A friend is one to whom one may pour out all the contents of one's heart, chaff and grain together, knowing that the gentlest of hands will take and sift it, keep what is worth keeping and with a breath of kindness blow the rest away."

"It is better to be in chains with friends , than to be in a garden with strangers."

happy friendship day to all....

hindi paper

2006-07-24T20:24:00.000+05:30

well i admitted it lot of times i just hate reading hindi , but it is a compulsary subject so had to give it . it had many more chapters than english somehow managed to mugg up the whole guide that i had borrowed from a friend.... the only motivation for the exam was that this is gonna be the alst time i will be giving an exam on hindi ... well i had not touched hindi for the past two years and in the examination hall i realised that was a problem whicvh io had never though of , because of my kinda abandoning the subject i almost forgot how to write it and also i could really remember the words that is used when we speak hindi in stead of hinglish...
well it is all over my ordeal with hindi has finally ended

paper 3

2006-07-21T23:21:00.000+05:30

man i cant believe what an idiot i am , i will never l;earn . for teh three days that i got for this exam i just didnt study , i dunno what i was doing but one thing i was not doing was studying .... and that too for a subject like econometrics... well this was the paper that everybody tries top score the most in and my friend could be quoted saying "if you dont aim of scoring above 80% in this exam , then you are not worth being graduating " . well some how i just quickly glanced over everything ... but i had left sum portion of the syllabus since i didnt have the time to go into the details that it puts a person into . but still i had done the rest , so i finally decided that common i cant be so dumb i have read these thing over and over again but i just dont remember them when it mattered trhe most .... arghhhh.... well i will have to give the exam and so i went into the hall and when i got the paper then i though that i must lessen my aim to somewhere around 50 ... still those words of my friend kept ringing in my ears .... so i just wen t about doing the questions one after the other with the feeling that i can do it .... i dunno where all those things were hiding but as i started solviong the problems i just kept getting the answer , suddenly the technical and logical part of my brain started working at its optimal level and just as it had happened earlier i had unanticipatedly completed my exam way before the alloted time and i just dunno how i just completed it ... i feel that even if i try to solve those quetions now i would just wont be able to do it , but hey i did it just when it mattered the most .... well what i would take out of this is that dont be afraid to take the plunge , everything goes in your favour once you think that you can change the coruse with your effort...
well a big paper coming up next development economics and just got one day in between do i better start working right now .... i dont want myself to be in the same situation that i found myself in the morning.....
chao...

english paper

2006-07-21T20:17:00.000+05:30

well this is one of the easiest papers in this examination , we have a 50 marks paper and we get 2 hrs of time . more over we dont have many stories or poems so not much to read ... welll the timing had changed from the usual for this exam i had no clue i was all p[repared to get out of the house at 8 in the moprning but thank god i called my friend last night who reminded me that it was later in the day . neways it was never going to be a problem and it was one exams after which everyone had a smile on their face . after the completion of exams i went to a friend to take a guide book of hindi it is my next paper...

some Quotes

2006-07-21T01:07:00.000+05:30

There are only three events in a man’s life; birth, life, and death; he is not conscious of being born, he dies in pain, and he forgets to live. — JEAN DE LA BRUYÈRE

I can’t listen to music too often. It affects your nerves; you want to say nice, stupid things and stroke the heads of people who could create such beauty while living in this vile hell. And now you must not stroke anyone’s head — you might get your hand bitten off. You have to hit them on the head, without any mercy. — VLADIMIR ILYICH LENIN

Business underlies everything in our national life, including our spiritual life. Witness the fact that in the Lord’s Prayer the first petition is for daily bread. No one can worship God or love his neighbour on an empty stomach. — WOODROW WILSON

Say what you will, there is something fine about our old aristocracy. I’ll bet Trotsky couldn’t hit a moving secretary with an egg on a dark night. — P. G. WODEHOUSE

The difference between being a director and being an actor is the difference between being the carpenter banging the nails into the wood, and being the piece of wood the nails are being banged into. — SEAN PENN

Crimes are created by Parliament; it needs a policeman to make a criminal. You don’t become a criminal by breaking the law, but by getting found out. — EDMUND LEACH

I could see that childhood was an invention of grown-ups, a fiction we were required to take on trust in case we demanded something better. — PHILIP OAKES

There is no reason whatever to believe that the order of nature has any greater bias in favour of man than it had in favour of the ichthyosaur or the pterodactyl. ? H.G. WELLS

One out of four people in this country is mentally unbalanced. Think of your three closest friends — and if they seem okay then you’re the one! — ANN LANDERS

I’ll give you my opinion of the human race in a nutshell…Their heart’s in the right place, but their head is a thoroughly inefficient organ. — W. SOMERSET MAUGHAM

What’s the good of a lie if it’s seen through? When I tell a lie no one can tell it from the gospel truth. Sometimes I can’t even tell it myself. — GRAHAM GREENE

Those who talk most about the blessings of marriage and the constancy of its vows are the very people who declare that if the chain were broken and the prisoners left free to choose, the whole social fabric would fly asunder. You cannot have the argument both ways. If the prisoner is happy, why lock him in? If he is not, why pretend that he is? — GEORGE BERNARD SHAW

I was ready to admit — if only I had been old enough to understand them — all the right-wing truths which an old left-wing man taught me through his actions: that Truth and Myth are one and the same thing, that you have to simulate passion to feel it and that man is a creature of ceremony. — JEAN-PAUL SARTRE

I sometimes wonder if the manufacturers of foolproof items keep a fool or two on their payroll to test things. — ALAN COREN

It is unfortunate, considering that enthusiasm moves the world, that so few enthusiasts can be trusted to speak the truth. — A.J. BALFOUR

paper 4

2006-07-19T20:03:00.000+05:30

well what a start to the day , overnight and morning rains and i had to get out for the exams at 10 am in knee deep water . today is the paper on economic development though very simple we are very much vary of it coz of the length of the answers that we are supposed to wrtie for this paper...
as always i was tensed for this paper but the reason not being that i might not know an answer but for the fear that i wont be able to write answers that would fetch me enough marks...
well with my pants folded upto knee i went out and reached the busstop and got a bus after quite a long wait and it was not smooth even after getting into it ... due to excessive rain there was serious waterlogging at some major crossings and so it was becoming difficult to believe that i would reach in time but somehow the bus took on to the bypass and then there was no waterlogging any where ... well after that the running was smooth and reached college and gave the exam , well i didnt sit with any of my classmated i choose to sit in a seperate corner surrounded by students with other field of study like bengali , english and maths etc...
i dunno but i felt today i didnt want any interruptions from anyone and as it turned out to be i finished the paper just in the nick of time ... sometimes even four hours are not enough ... well blame it on one of the questions that i had no clue about , i completely made up the answer by putting in points from various other topics i had read , believe it or not it was worth 15 marks thats more than 600 words . i felt like an eternal genius after writting that answer...

anyways my honours papers are all over now what are left are just language papers and papers on statistics and maths which are my additional subjects....

paper 2

2006-07-13T22:17:00.000+05:30

ahemmm well today was my second honours paper , well there was some tension building around this one ... i was not able to concentrate for the whole day till 2 in the afternoon on the day before the exam and we got just a days break , so i was preety depressed coz this was a subject on which i had even studied out of the course becoz of the intrest i had in it... wel i had my lunch yesterday and though that ok i must give myself a chance to score well in this exam , no matter if i am not able to concentrate , i must give myself a chance tommrow to write the answers .... so with that in mind i sat wid de book and just started reading , whenever i felt distracted i started reading loudy . so i started at say 3 pm and the session stretched till the whole syllabus was finished ... it was about 1 am in the night when i finally closed my book . what kept on driving me was that i wanted to give myself a chance to write .... even when i woke up in the morning at 5:30 i was not feeling sleepy coz all that was going through my mind was all that i had been studying , it was as if i had completed my syllabus in my dreams .... well i just wanted to be sure that i had completed it all in reality so i started all over again even though i had to be out of my house by 10 . so i started reading and by the time it was 9 i found that i was again through with the whole thing . so i was preety confident as i went to the examination centre and thankfully i didnt have all the trouble i had to face last day... well i sat to give the exams with much anxiety ... the paper was handed over , hmmm seems preety simple except for may be a bit tricky ones there , well the first problem was worth 15 marks and i started writting it but i got totally confused and b4 i knew it was already half an hour gone , then there were another 3 15 markers i had to write , so i proceded with them with that first question still at the back of my mind .. this lead to me taking more time to write those answers and i dont think i wrote them as it would have pleased me... and by the time i finished them it was already more than 2 hours that i had spent in the examination hall , and i still had to finish all the remaining questions and the first question . there were a couple of other questions in the paper as an option for the 15 markers , but decided that the problem i had zeroed into had challenged my intellect and i must solve it ... before i call quits i must try ..... so now with this new zeal i proceeded to see write the answer and the only thing thta was on my mind was that i must give my self enough time to ponder over the question i unsuccessfully attempted and i quicklyt finished the remaining questions and then when i glanced my watch i couldnt belive what i saw ... i had completed it all in less than a hour and was now left with just about an hour for that first question ... i returned to the page where the first attempt was made .... again got confused .... so i cancelled what i had wrotten or written and started afresh ...... cleared my mind of everything and took a systematic approach and got the technical flaw i had made and then i just had to give a finishing touch , then looking around i just found that i was actually the first one to finish the paper and then i revised the whole thing and submitted it and my heart just grew into pride to hear that no one in that class had the confidence to try and solve the question and that made my achievement even greater . i always knew they were muggers who mugged up all those things that their tutor had taught them and now i had proved the point ...
but now when i look back what was really worth being proud of was that i followed my inner voice and had confidence in myself to get out of situation when i though like i was doomed ....
well now 3 days of gap before the next exams so i hope will prepare well for that one...
chao...

buzzzzy paper 1...

2006-07-11T21:59:00.001+05:30

well today was the date my exam started . i had my first paper and the examination centre was in the other side of the city ... well the exam starts at 12 , i start from home at 10 with dad , overnight rains had caused waterloggin below the road to the subway railways ... then i had to take the longer route and so went to the bus stand and what i find is that Mr. Prime Minister is arriving for some sort of inaugration and so the traffic was blocked for an hour . well with nothin to do waited in a cab for all while just revising all the stuff from a notebook i had ... finally the traffic got a move and in the end it seemed we would just make it in time. then bang the cab bangs into another car and the driver gets out and starts fighting and OMG how long will this takes . policeman comes to the rescue ... we move a few meters and the car gives up .... on a road barrened by the arrival of PM ... i am doomed today i thought , then came a saviourer , i got a cab , then through the heavy rush i finally made it just in time ... once in the centre giving the exam , i got a paper in which i knew just about everything ... i am so happy after filling up the paper with what i thought was the right answers ... did i mention i thought was the right answer , well that is important coz i made blunders in putting the values from the paper and thus my exam is just ruined... damed ... then i came to metro station to catch the train , but alas i was so petrified byrealisiing the blunders i had commited i purchased a ticket lower than the fare i am supposed to have , so i had to come out of the staiton half way and had to catch a bus for further journey as i found the queue was very long , so decided not to waste any time there .. so when i just got of the bus stop , the abode above opened it doors and finally reached home all drenched ... so what do you think i was in what frame of mind , common i was very pissed afterall i am a human ... really cursed god for making such a day .... then logged on to net to see this
http://www.deccanherald.com/deccanherald/jul112006/update1429342006711.asp

& this http://www.deccanherald.com/deccanherald/jul112006/update1412242006711.asp ...
and i thought i was selfish in cursing God but then anyways i was right in cursing him for making this day ....

buzzzy

2006-07-09T01:32:00.000+05:30

well i know i have not been posting on the blog for some time and no i am not bored of writing on blogs but its just that i have my university exams next week and i have no other job than studying right now so that is what i am doing coz this time around i have been so careless about my studies that i was in a big fix in the beginning of the month , lamenting those days when scoring badly in exams didnt matter and was just thinking that god may help me and get me out of this hole i put my self in just like i alwasy say , as i am always in a state of bother before my exams , hehe , so actually i must be saying everything is normal with me ... just hope i do score decent enough in the forthcoming exams .....
then i would start filling up this page again .... till then (11 aug ) chao....

lost in time

2006-06-13T21:20:00.000+05:30

well we are all lost in time ... yesterday , today and tommrow , just passing by like the trees and lamposts just pass away at a blink of an eye when sitting in a train . every second we live a momnet of our lives but it seems just unexplainable that is that second gone or is the moment lived by us . time seems to be there static and we seem to be lost just moving ahead leaving it back in our minds as a memory. time os never lost , but we al the zillions of beings on this earth just move ahead living a moment at every offering of the time . i dunno what i write but i am livin a moment writing it , nobody knows where this momnet will stay ya it is written here and this post is a witness of what i am doing at this momnet , maybe someday the blogger.com server will crash and it will be lost .. just recalling from whatever economics i have studied that what is a short run and a long-run in our lives ......... we dont know a thing about it , we are all lost in time ....

Just CRAp

2006-05-31T00:59:00.000+05:30

dont grow old just grow up

Many people are afraid of growing old.
I'm afraid of growing old and boring.
Many people are afraid of growing old, alone.
I'm afraid of growing old, insane.
Many people are afraid of losing their looks.
I'm afraid of losing my dreams.
Many people are afraid of losing their youth.
I'm afraid of losing my soul.
When you're 15, 35 seems ancient.
When you're 35, 15 seems juvenile.
A turnaround in a split second - two decades zoom past and
before you know it, it's only a mile to the next millennium.
Don't fear age,
it's a right of person-hood.
Don't fear death- it's God's greatest jest.
Don't grow old - you don't have to.
Don't date because you're desperate.
Don't marry because you're miserable.
Don't have kids because you think your genes are superior.
Don't separate because you think it's fashionable.
Don't drink because you have troubles.
Don't gamble because you think winning is inevitable.
Don't philander because you think you're irresistible.
Most likely, you're not.
Don't associate with people you can't trust.
Don't cheat.
Don't lie.
Don't pretend.
Don't try to buy your way into the kingdom of God.
Don't dictate because you're smarter.
Don't demand because you're stronger.
Don't sleep around because you think you're old enough and know better.
Don't hurt your kids because loving them is harder.
Don't sell yourself, your family or your ideals.
Don't stagnate.
Don't regress.
Learn a new skill.
Find a new friend.
Start a new career.
Don't live in the past.
Time can't bring anything or anyone back.
Don't put your life on hold for possibly Mr./Ms. Right.
Don't throw you life away on absolutely Mr. Wrong because your biological clock is ticking and you can't afford to have your eggs harvested before the new millennium.
There's always a mad rush to something, somewhere - but victory does not always belong to those who finish first.
Sometimes, there is no race to be won, only a price to be paid for some of life's more hasty decisions.
You can't always go with the throng who could be wrong.
To terminate your loneliness, reach out to the homeless.
To feed your nurturing instincts, care for the needy.
To fulfill your parenting fantasies, get a puppy.
Don't bring another life into this world for all the wrong reasons.
To keep yourself warm, buy a jacket.
In the long run, it will be less complicated and less costly.
To make yourself happy, pursue your passions and be the best of what you can be.
Simplify your life.
Take away the clutter.
Get rid of destructive elements - abusive friends, nasty habits and dangerous liaisons.
Don't abandon your responsibilities, but don't overdose on duty.
Don't live life recklessly without thought and feeling for your family.
Be true to yourself. Don't commit when you're not ready.
Don't keep others waiting needlessly.
Fall in love - it's the greatest thing on earth.
But take care and remember, after the fall must come the rise.
Go on that trip. Don't postpone it.
Say those words. Don't let the moment pass.
Do what you must even at society's scorn.
Write poetry. Love deeply. Walk barefoot. Hold hands.
Dance with wild abandon. Cry at the movies.
Take care of yourself.
Don't wait for someone to take care of you.
You light up your life.
You drive yourself to your destination.
No one completes you - except you.
It is true that life doesn't get easier with age.
It only gets more challenging.
Don't be afraid.
Don't lose your capacity to love.
Pursue your passions.
Live your dreams.
Don't lose faith in God.
Sometimes, you have to be alone to be enlightened.
He still speaks in a small still voice.
Don't grow old.
Just grow up.

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kid thoughts

Pay special attention to the wording and spelling. If you know the Bible, even a little, you'll find this hilarious! It comes from a Sunday school test. Kids were asked questions about the Old and New Testaments.
The following statements about the Bible were written by children. They have not been retouched or corrected (i.e., incorrect spelling has been left in).
1. In the first book of the bible, Guinessis, God got tired of creating the world, so he took the Sabbath off.
2. Adam and Eve were created from an apple tree. Noah's wife was called Joan of Ark. Noah built an arc, which the animals come on to in pears.
3. Lot's wife was a pillar of salt by day, but a ball of fire by night.
4. The Jews were a proud people and throughout history they had trouble with the unsympathetic Genitals.
5. Samson was a strongman who let himself be led astray by a Jezebel like Delilah.
6. Samson slayed the Philistines with the axe of the Apostles.
7. Moses led the Hebrews to the Red Sea, where they made unleavened bread which is bread without any ingredients.
8. The Egyptians were all drowned in the dessert. Afterwards, Moses went up on Mount Cyanide to get the ten amendments.
9. The first commandment was when Eve told Adam to eat the apple.
10. The seventh commandment is thou shalt not admit adultery.
11. Moses died before he ever reached Canada. Then Joshua led the Hebrews in the battle of Geritol.
12. The greatest miracle in the Bible is when Joshua told his son to stand still and he obeyed him.
13. David was a hebrew king skilled at playing the liar. He fought the Finklesteins, a race of people who lived in Biblical times.
14. Solomon, one of David's sons, had 300 wives and 700 porcupines.
15. When Mary heard that she was the mother of Jesus, she sang the Magna Carta.
16. When the three wise guys from the east side arrived, they found Jesus in the manager.
17. Jesus was born because Mary had an immaculate contraption.
18. St. John the blacksmith dumped water on his head.
19. Jesus enunciated the Golden Rule, which says to do one to others before they do one to you. He also explained, a man doth not live by sweat alone.
20. It was a miracle when Jesus rose from the dead and managed to get the tombstone off the entrance.
21. The people who followed the lord were called the 12 decibels.
22. The epistles were the wives of the apostles.
23. One of the oppossums was St. Matthew who was also a taximan.
24 St Paul cavorted to Christianity. He preached holy acrimony, which is another name for marriage.
25. Christians have only one spouse. This is called monotony.

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POSITION:
Mother, Mom, Mama, Mommy
JOB DESCRIPTION:
Long term, team players needed, for challenging permanent work in an, often chaotic environment. Candidates must possess excellent communication and organizational skills and be willing to work variable hours, which will include evenings and weekends and frequent 24 hour shifts on call. Some overnight travel required, including trips to primitive camping sites on rainy weekends and endless sports tournaments in far away cities. Travel expenses not reimbursed. Extensive courier duties also required.
RESPONSIBILITIES:
The rest of your life. Must be willing to be hated, at least temporarily, until someone needs $5. Must be willing to bite tongue repeatedly. Also, must possess the physical stamina of a pack mule and be able to go from zero to 60 mph in three seconds flat in case, this time, the screams from the backyard are not someone just crying wolf. Must be willing to face stimulating technical challenges, such as small gadget repair, mysteriously sluggish toilets and stuck zippers. Must screen phone calls, maintain calendars and coordinate production of multiple homework projects. Must have ability to plan and organize social gatherings for clients of all ages and mental outlooks. Must be willing to be indispensable one minute,! an embarrassment the next. Must handle assembly and product safety testing of a half million cheap, plastic toys, and battery operated devices. Must always hope for the best but be prepared for the worst. Must assume final, complete accountability for the quality of the end product. Responsibilities also include floor maintenance and janitorial work throughout the facility.
POSSIBILITY FOR ADVANCEMENT &PROMOTION:
Virtually none. Your job is to remain in the same position for years, without complaining, constantly retraining and updating your skills, so that those i! n your charge can ultimately surpass you
PREVIOUS EXPERIENCE:
None required unfortunately. On-the-job training offered on a continually exhausting basis.
WAGES AND COMPENSATION:
Get this! You pay them! Offering frequent raises and bonuses! A balloon payment is due when they turn 18 because of the assumption that college will help them become financially independent. When you die, you give them whatever is left. The oddest thing about this reverse-salary scheme is that you actually enjoy it and wish you could only do more.
BENEFITS:
While no health or dental insurance, no pension, no tuition reimbursement, no paid holidays and no stock options are offered; this job supplies limitless opportunities for personal growth and free hugs for life if you play your cards right.
Forward this on to all the Moms you know, in appreciation for everything they do on a daily basis, and let them know they are appreciated.

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i am not ur friend if

AM NOT YOUR FRIEND IF.....
you have to think before you speak to me!

I AM NOT YOUR FRIEND IF.....
my presence ever makes you feel uncomfortable!

I AM NOT YOUR FRIEND IF.....
you have to thank me for everything i do for you!

I AM NOT YOUR FRIEND IF.....
you have to say sorry for everything
that you don't do!

I AM NOT YOUR FRIEND IF.....
you have to ask me for favours!

I AM NOT YOUR FRIEND IF.....
you think i would not be curious to
know your new philosophy of life!

I AM NOT YOUR FRIEND IF.....
you go by what i say and do not understand
what i don't say!

I AM NOT YOUR FRIEND IF.....
you think that listening to your dreams
would put me to sleep!

I AM NOT YOUR FRIEND IF.....
you think that seeing you in pain, would
not bring a tear to me!

I AM NOT YOUR FRIEND IF.....
you think I do not remember the first time
we met!

I AM NOT YOUR FRIEND IF.....
you don't see the thousand ways I try to
make you happy!

I AM NOT YOUR FRIEND IF.....
you don't realise how your smile brightens
up my day!

I AM NOT YOUR FRIEND IF.....
you would rather keep quiet when you really
wanna talk!

I AM NOT YOUR FRIEND IF.....
you hesitate to ask me to stay back when
you think we should be together!

I AM NOT YOUR FRIEND IF.....
you take too much time to tell me what i
mean to you!

I AM NOT YOUR FRIEND IF.....
THE ABOVE WERE TRUE FOR THE RELATIONSHIP
THAT WE SHARE

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JUST BECAUSE

Something To Think About
If you love someone,
put their name in a circle,
instead of a heart,
because hearts can break,
but circles go on forever.
Everyone hears what you say.
Friends listen to what you say.
Best friends listen to what you don't say.
If all my friends were to jump off a bridge,
I wouldn't jump with them,
I'd be at the bottom to catch them.

Don't frown,
because you never know who's falling in love with your smile!

If you judge people,
you have no time to love them.

Be kind,
for everyone you meet is fighting
a harder battle.

It may take only a minute to like someone,
only an hour to have a crush on someone
and only a day to love someone
but it will take a lifetime to forget someone.
Enthusiasm is contagious.
You might cause an outbreak and affect many.
Yesterday is the history,
tomorrow is a mystery.
Today is a gift,
that is why it is called the present.
Dance like nobody's watching,
and love like it's never gonna hurt.

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ALL I THINK THE WAY U MADE ME CRY

there's one thing I never thought you'd do

I know it's wrong to look for answers in a glass
But the questions keep on coming and this cigarette's my last
I know some things you've done surprised me in the past
But there's still one thing I never thought you'd do

i'd like to think about the way we met that night
I'd like to think of all the warmth of holding tight
But all I think of is the way you made me cry
A thing I never thought you'd do
All that I think of is the way you said goodbye
And that's the last I've seen of you
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hold up

Holdup
This is a holdup!!
There is no escape...
All routes are sealed with hope & happiness..
Put your hands up,
And open out your hearts.
That is all i ask of you...
Put your pretences & lies away,
Put your egos aside..
Throw all negativity away,
For i have come to take all you don't need-
But are burdened with..
Let brotherhood take you away-
From hatred & envy.
Let love hold you at ransom ,
Surrender yourself in totality,
And become a prisoner ,
In my heart forever....
For i am your inner soul,
That wants you to become..
A human-gods own lovely creation-
That you were meant to be..

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inspiring quotes

"Everything seeks its source"...~a universal principle

"Everything that irritates us about others can lead us to an understanding
about ourselves"...~Carl Jung

"Bless those who challenge us to grow, to stretch, to move beyond the
knowable, to come back home to our elemental and essential nature. Bless
those who challenge us for they remind us of doors we have closed and doors
we have yet to open"...~Navajo saying

"Life is 10 percent of what happens to you,
and 90 percent of how you respond to it"...
~unknown

"It is not enough to forgive one another,
we must learn to forgive ourselves"...
~unknown

The Thirsty Fish
"I laugh what I hear the Fish in the water is thirsty...
I laugh when I hear that people go on pilgrimage to find God"...
~Kabir (15th century) India

We must come to see that peace is not merely a distant goal we seek...
but it is a means by which we arrive at that goal"...
~unknown

"We must pursue peaceful ends, through peaceful means"....
~ Martin Luther King Jr.

"We cannot live the afternoon of life according to the program of life's
morning; for what in the morning was true will in evening become a lie". ~
Carl Jung

"Every lesson is a widening and deepening of consciousness. It is a
stretching of the mind beyond its conceptual limits and a stretching of the
heart beyond its emotional boundaries. It is a bringing of unconscious
material into consciousness, a healing of past wounds, and a discovery of
new faith and trust"... ~ Paul Ferrini

"As long as you don't forgive, who and whatever it is will occupy rent-free
space in your mind".~Isabelle Holland

"Hope is faith holding its hand out in the dark"...
~George Iles

"The great thing in this world is not so much where we are...
but in what direction we are moving"...
~Oliver Wendell Holmes

"Never think that God's delay are God's denials...
hold on, hold fast, hold out...Patience is Genius"...
~unknown

Pride is concerned with who is right...Humility is concerned with what is
right"...
~E. Benson

"Man's mind stretched to a new idea
never goes back to its original dimensions"...
~Oliver Wendell Holmes

"The true perfection of a man lies not in what he has,
but in what a man is"...
~Oscar Wilde

"It has become appallingly obvious that our
technology has exceeded our humanity"...
~Albert Einstein

"I am not a teacher, but an awakener"...
~Robert Frost

"Vision: the art of seeing things invisible"...
~Jonathan Swift

"Some people come into our lives and quickly go...
Some people move our souls to dance...They awaken us
to new understanding with the passing whisper of their wisdom...
Some people make the sky more beautiful to gaze upon...
They stay in our lives for awhile, leave footprints in our hearts,
and we are never, ever same"...
~unknown

Appreciation is a wonderful thing; it makes what is
excellent in others belong to us as well"...
~Voltaire

Learn to forgive, by practicing forgiveness"...
~unknown

"Knowing life is so short...how can we quarrel?"
~Buddha

"Our duty is not to see through one another...but to see one another
through"...
~Leonard Sweet

"Know the Truth and the Truth will set you free"...
~Jesus Christ

"Being happy doesn't mean everything is perfect,
it means you've decided to look past the imperfections"...
~unknown

"Watch your thoughts, for they become words...Choose your words, for they
become actions...Understand your actions, for they become habits...Study
your habits, for they become your character...Develop your character, for it
becomes your destiny"... ~unknown

"Each today, well-lived, makes yesterday a dream of happiness and each
tomorrow a vision of hope. Look, therefore, to this one day, for it and it
alone is life"...~Sanskrit poem

"Divinity is the true self of man"...~Kahlil Gibran

"Knowledge of any kind ... brings about a change in awareness from where it
is possible to create new realities"....~Deepak Chopra

The intuitive mind is a sacred gift and the rational mind is a faithful
servant...
We have created a society that honors the servant and has forgotten the
gift".~ Albert Einstein

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Inspiration: ---------------- "Don't Ever" Don't ever be reluctant to show your feelings when you're happy, give in to it... When you're not, live with it. Don't ever be afraid to try to make things better you might be surprised at the results. Don't ever take the weight of the world on your shoulders. Don't ever feel threatened by the future take life one day at a time. Don't ever feel guilty about the past what's done is done. Learn from any mistakes you might have made. Don't ever feel that you are alone there is always somebody there for you to reach out to. Don't ever forget that you can achieve so many of the things you can imagine. It's not as hard as it seems. Don't ever stop loving Don't ever stop believing, Don't ever stop Dreaming your Dreams.

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i have learnt

As I walk through life...
I have learnt...
• No one ever got fat eating one big meal.
• We all live under the same sky... but we do not all have the same horizon.
• If you think you can... or if you think you can't... you're right!
• No one can make you feel inferior without your consent.
• You don't drown by falling in water. You drown by staying there.
• If you don't know where are you going, you're never gonna get there.
• Persistence is the hard work you do after you get tired of doing the hard work you already did.
• You can make money, or you can make excuses. You just can't make them both at the same time.
• Men do not decide their future. They decide their habits... and their habits decide their future.
• The ruling passion, be what it will. The ruling passion, conquers reason still.
• A ship in harbour is safe. But that's not what ships are built for.
• No one ever died from overwork, but many died from doubt.
• A man is not old until regrets take place of dreams.
• Life is like a 10-speed bike. Most of us have gears we never use.
(Miscellaneous Sources)
keep smiling
neha

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apology -- superglue of life

In some families, please is described as the magic word.
In our house, however, it was sorry. ~Margaret Laurence

An apology is a good way to have the last word. ~Author Unknown

A stiff apology is a second insult.... The injured party does not want to be
compensated because he has been wronged; he wants to be healed because he
has been hurt. ~G.K. Chesterton

An apology is the superglue of life. It can repair just about anything.
~Lynn Johnston

Apologizing - a very desperate habit - one that is rarely cured. Apology is
only egotism wrong side out. ~Oliver Wendell Holmes, Sr., The Professor at
the Breakfast-Table

It is a good rule in life never to apologize. The right sort of people do
not want apologies, and the wrong sort take a mean advantage of them. ~P.G.
Wodehouse, The Man Upstairs

Never ruin an apology with an excuse. ~Kimberly Johnson

True remorse is never just a regret over consequence; it is a regret over
motive. ~Mignon McLaughlin, The Neurotic's Notebook, 1960

Apology is a lovely perfume; it can transform the clumsiest moment into a
gracious gift. ~Margaret Lee Runbeck

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check ur id

Subject: Riddles .....

1. A woman was sitting on a windowsill on the 35th floor of a building. She was about to commit suicide. The police surrounded the bottom of the building telling her NOT to jump. Her husband was in the room with her and kept trying to stop her. She got nervous and fell, yet she did not get hurt or even a scratch. Why?

2. A boat will carry only 200 pounds. How can a man weighing 200 pounds and his 2 sons, each weighing 100 pounds, use the boat to cross a river?

3. Looking at a picture a man says "Brothers and sisters I have none but that man's father is my father's son." Whose picture is it?

4. If a rooster laid a brown egg and a white egg, what kind of chicks would hatch?

5. There are three errers in the statement of this problem. You must detect all of them to recieve full credit.

6. Before Mount Everest was discovered, what was the highest mountain on Earth?

7. How many bricks does it take to complete a building made of brick?

8. Bill's parents have three sons. The first is named Tom, the second is named Dick. What is the third son named?

9. What occurs once in a minute, twice in a moment, but never in a thousand years?

10. A patient is rushed into the emergency ward of the Conundrum National Hospital after a horrific road crash, and is in urgent need of an operation to save his life. The surgeon on duty walks into the room and says "Oh my god! I can't operate on this boy. He is my SON!" but the surgeon was not the boy's father. How could this be?

11. A woman had two sons who were born on the same hour of the same day of the same year. But they were not twins. How could this be so?

12. A bottle and a cork together cost $1.50. the bottle costs $1.00 more than the cork. How much does each cost?

13. A woman with no driver's license goes the wrong way on a one-way street and turns left at a corner with a no left turn sign. A policeman sees her but
does nothing. Why?

14. The one who makes it, sells it. The one who buys it, never uses it. The one that uses it never knows that he's using it. What is it?

15. Take 2 apples from 3 apples and what have you got?

16. Which common English word is most often pronounced incorrectly?

17. A barbecue grill holds two steaks at a time. It takes ten minutes to grill one side of a steak. What is the shortest amount of time it will take to grill three steaks on both sides?

18. What do you throw out when you want to use it, but take in when you don't want to use it?

19. A horse is tied to a five meter rope, six meters away from it was a bail of hay. Without breaking the rope, the horse was able to get to the bail of hay. How is this possible?

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ANSWERS...

1. She fell INTO her room instead of out the window

2. First the 2 sons cross the river together. 1 son then re-crosses the river to take the boat back to the man. The man then crosses the river The other son then re-crosses river. Both sons then cross the river, and everyone is now on the other side.

3. His son.

4. None. Roosters don't lay eggs.

5.Errors is spelled incorrectly (spelled "errers" in the problem).
Receive is spelled incorrectly (spelled "recieve" in the problem).
The third error is that there are only two errors, not three.

6. Mount Everest

7. Only the last one.

8. Bill

9. The letter M.

10. The surgeon is the boy's mother.

11.There are more than two babies. It could be triplets, quadruplets, etc.

12.The bottle costs $1.25 and the cork costs $0.25.

13.She's a pedestrian or bicyclist.

14. A coffin.

15. 2 apples.

16. incorrectly

17. 30 minutes. First grill one side of two steaks for 10 minutes. Then flip over the first steak. Set aside the second steak for now, and grill one side of the third steak. Grill them for 10 minutes. Now the first steak is done. Put the second steak back on and grill the other side, and flip over the third steak. Grill for 10 more minutes. All 3 steaks will be grilled in 30 minutes.

18. An anchor.

19. The other end of the rope is tied to nothing.

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EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON

Everything Happens for a Reason
Sometimes people come into your life and you know right away that they were meant to be there ...
to serve some sort of purpose
to teach a lesson, or to help you figure out who you are or who you want to become.

You never know who these people may be: a roommate, friend, neighbor, professor, child, teacher or even a complete stranger, but when you lock eyes with them, you know at that very moment that they will affect your life in some profound way.

Sometimes things happen to you at the time that may seem horrible, painful and unfair at first, but in reflection, you find that without overcoming those obstacles you would not have realized your strength, potential, will power or heart.

Nothing happens by chance or means of good luck. Illness, injury, love, lost moments of true greatness and sheer stupidity all occur to test the limits of your soul. Without these small tests, life would be like a smoothly paved, flat road to nowhere ... safe and comfortable but dull and utterly pointless.

People who you meet and who affect your life, and the successes and downfalls you experience, help to create who you are and who you become. The bad experiences are the most valuable because it is often from them that we learn the most. They are probably the most poignant and important ones. Hurt, betrayal, loss, sadness ... these are the great builders of character. Only those who have hurt and lost or have been sad and disappointment know how to truly comfort and forgive another in the same circumstances. Consider yourself blessed!

If someone hurts you,
betrays you or breaks your heart,
forgive them
because they have helped you learn
about trust and the importance of being cautious
to whom you open your heart to.

If someone loves you,
love them back unconditionally,
not only because they love you,
but because they are teaching you to love,
and open your heart and eyes to little things.

Make every day count. Appreciate every moment and take from it, everything that you possibly can,
for you may never be able to experience it again. You may not have the chance to share, talk, listen, dream, love, teach, or enjoy that moment again.

Talk to people you have never talked to before,
and actually listen.

Let yourself fall in love,
break free, and set your sights high.

Hold your head up
because you have every right to.

Tell yourself
you are a great individual
and believe in yourself,
for if you don't believe in yourself,
no one else will believe in you.

You can make of your life anything you wish.
Create your own life and then go out and live it
with absolutely no regrets.

Most importantly,
if you love someone tell them,
for you never know what tomorrow may have in store.
And learn a lesson in life each day you live.

~Author Unknown~

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Failure Doesn't Mean--------You R A Failure,
It Means--------You Have Not Succeeded.

Failure Doesn't Mean--------You Accomplished Nothing,
It Means--------You Have Learned Something.

Failure Doesn't Mean--------That You Have Been A Fool,
It Means--------You Had A Lot Of Faith.

Failure Doesn't Mean--------You've Been Disgraced,
It Means--------You Were Willing To Try.

Failure Doesn't Mean--------You Don't Have It,
It Means---------You Have To Do Something In A Different Way.

Failure Doesn't Mean--------You Are Inferior,
It Means-------You Are Not Perfect.

Failure Doesn't Mean--------You've Wasted Your Life,
It Means--------You Have A Reason To Start Afresh.

Failure Doesn't Mean--------You Should Give Up,
It Means--------You Must Try Harder.

Failure Doesn't Mean--------You'll Never Make It,
It Means--------It Will Take A Little Longer.

Failure Doesn't Mean--------God Has Abandoned You,
It Means--------God Has A Better Way For You.
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Some flowers are bruised that they may be more sweet,
And some lie broken 'neath the rush of feet;
And some are worn a while, then tossed aside;
Some grace the dead, while others deck the bride.
And so in life I've seen the saddest face,
The broken flower, give forth the sweetest grace...

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marriage

What matter if the words be said,
The license paid - they are not wed;
Unless love link each heart to heart,
'Twere better keep those lives apart...

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You Won't Understand

Often people say to me "You just won't understand." "You're way too old," or "Way too young," or "YOU are NOT a man." I don't know why some people feel they suffer unique pain. As if they are the only ones who've lost or ceased to gain. I don't know why they hide their pain and clutch it ever tighter. It seems to me that all should know - a burden shared gets lighter. Why some folks even deisgn to think the pain that's in their heart, is all their own, to keep and hoard, they set themselves apart. They keep their eyes from meeting mine lest I should see their hurt. And even if we stop and speak their words are often curt. The Bible says: 'Two' can withstand what overcomes just 'one'. And also that- a 'Cord of Three' can scarcely be undone. Besides, I know the ways of hurt- My heart's been crushed before. Friends have betrayed- I've lost at love, despair's knocked at my door. And I Remember- thoughts gone wild- and crying late at night. Not having strength to care at all- much less the strength to fight. But, someone special came to me- and when my trials were told. I realized that with their tears- they'd eased my heavy load. And so, I learned- that pain- like love- is bearable if shared. I don't know what I would have done without that friend who cared. My trials did not vanish fast- in fact the time was long. But sharing gave me breathing space until I could grow strong Enough to laugh again and even start to smile- and though it seemed it could not help- it eased my pain awhile. So, if you think that you can't share cause I won't understand. At least just give me half a chance to lend a helping hand. For I know that you're hurting and I know a place to start. Perhaps if you could realize- your pain burns in my heart. I know I cannot make your trials and troubles go away. But maybe I can help a bit to get you through today. And maybe by tomorrow you wont need help anymore. But if you should- don't be ashamed- for that's what friends are for. And after all is said and done- the trials ceased- you're whole. Perhaps you'll know just what to do to help another soul- Who's being crushed by hurt and pain- be it woman or a man. And you won't have to hear them say "You just won't understand." -- author unknown --

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When you thought I wasn't looking . . .

(By a child) When you thought I wasn't looking, I saw you hang my first painting on the refrigerator, and I immediately wanted to paint another one. When you thought I wasn't looking, I saw you feed a stray cat, and I learned that it was good to be kind to animals. When you thought I wasn't looking, I saw you make my favorite cake for me and I learned that the little things can be the special things in life. When you thought I wasn't looking, I heard you say a prayer, and I knew there is a God I could always talk to and I learned to trust in God. When you thought I wasn't looking, I saw you make a meal and take it to a friend who was sick, and I learned that we all have to help take care of each other. When you thought I wasn't looking, I saw you give of your time and money to help people who had nothing and I learned that those who have something should give to those who don't. When you thought I wasn't looking, I felt you kiss me good night and I felt loved and safe. When you thought I wasn't looking, I saw you take care of our house and everyone in it and I learned we have to take care of what we are given. When you thought I wasn't looking, I saw how you handled your responsibilities, even when you didn't feel good and I learned that I would have to be responsible when I grow up. When you thought I wasn't looking, I saw tears come from your eyes and I learned that sometimes things hurt, but it's all right to cry. When you thought I wasn't looking, I saw that you cared and I wanted to be everything that I could be. When you thought I wasn't looking, I learned most of life's lessons that I need to know to be a good and productive person when I grow up. When you thought I wasn't looking, I looked at you and wanted to say, "Thanks for all the things I saw when you thought I wasn't looking." Each of us, parent, grandparent, relative or friend, influence the life of a child. How will you touch the life of someone today? To the world you may just be somebody, but to somebody you are the world.

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"How To Be Unhappy"

It's not that we want to be unhappy, but don't we do a lot of these things? This is a good thing to read and reread--behaviors to avoid! Make little things bother you. Don't just let them, MAKE them. Lose your perspective on things and keep it lost: don't put first things first. Get yourself a good worry, one about which you cannot do anything. Be a perfectionist, which means not that you work hard to do your best, but that you condemn yourself and others for not achieving perfection. Be right. Be always right. Be the only one who is always right, and be rigid in your rightness. Don't trust or believe people, or accept them at anything but their worst and weakest. Be suspicious. Insist that others always have hidden motives. Always compare yourself unfavorably to others. This guarantees instant misery. Take personally everything that happens to you. Don't give yourself whole-heartedly to anyone or anything. Author Unknown

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When It Looks Like I Have Failed

Failure does not mean that I am a failure; It does mean I have not yet succeeded. Failure does not mean I have accomplished nothing; It does mean I have learned something. Failure does not mean I have been a fool; It does mean I had enough faith to experiment. Failure does not mean I have been disgraced; It does mean I dared to try. Failure does not mean I don't have it; It does mean I have to do something in a different way. Failure does not mean that I am inferior; It does mean that I am not perfect. Failure does not mean that I have wasted my life; It does mean that I have an excuse to start over. Failure does not mean that I should give up; It does mean that I should try harder. Failure does not mean that I will never make it; It does mean that I need more practice. Failure does not mean that you have abandoned me; It does mean that you must have a better idea. - Author Unknown

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Can you see the *good* in good-byes? Many people can't. They don't realize that nothing is bad or good, but thinking makes it so. Do you?
Here's an example:
A person is leaving. You are about ready to say your good-byes. What you *see* in the leaving determines your *tomorrows.* If you can't see the good, what are you seeing? The bad? Right. And what are you showing the person leaving? Certainly not the good, if you're thinking the bad. Now . . . both of you are upset. Do yourself, and those around you, a favor. Learn to take charge of your thoughts.
Here's one way to do that:
A son or daughter is leaving for college. Look at this scenario: The family is solemn, helping their son/brother pack the car for college. Now, the car is packed, they've said their good-byes, and are watching as his tail lights disappear down the street. A sad look is on their faces, because, for a few minutes, they are sad. Suddenly, they realize he is actually gone. They all rush into the house, each with a different purpose in mind! They had told themselves that they wouldn't begrudge him going to college. He's gone, now they would look toward the future. You can see their thoughts. *The mom gets a new sewing room!* *The dad gets to use the computer more!* *The teenage daughter gets to have the upstairs bathroom all to herself!* grin
Now, that is progressive -- and healing -- thinking.
What is NOT progressive and healing thinking is continually thinking about how much they will miss him. They will, of course, but they will have compensation. Their son is going on to a better life. His future is great. It's not like he's gone forever, and there is nothing they can do, or would want to do, to stop his progress. They will be helping him by helping themselves.
Here's the other side of the coin. They didn't see the *good* in good-bye. They moped and missed him, built their life around what they were missing, and years go by before they realize that they had put their life on hold for a person who was really never coming back to the same life they had known and loved.
Look at both scenarios. There really is some *good* in good-bye. All we have to do is take control of the situation and look forward to handling it beautifully. If we don't, we are letting the situation take control of us.
Why not prepare for these situations? Why not, say, plan on moping and missing the leaving loved one for a designated period of time -- like one hour, OK, maybe a day -- THEN get on with your lives so you will have plenty to share with them when they come back.
Why not, every time you start to miss him or her, retarget your thoughts to all the good things that person is accomplishing with his or her life.
Realize now that you'd probably better start accomplishing things, too, or you won't have anything new to share with your loved one that is away growing and learning.
Meet the challenge head on, show your son or daughter, by example, how to act when one has to *let go* of someone they love. They are always learning from us.

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Keep your childish point of view!

Kids.... When I look at a patch of dandelions, I see a bunch of weeds that are going to take over my yard. My kids see flowers for Mom and blowing white fluff, you can wish on. When I look at a homeless person and he smiles at me, I see a smelly, dirty person who probably wants money and I look away. My kids see someone smiling at them and they smile back. When I hear music I love, I know I can't carry a tune and don't have much rhythm so I sit self consciously and listen. My kids feel the beat and move to it. They sing out the words. If they don't know them, they make up their own. When I feel wind on my face, I brace myself against it. I feel it messing up my hair and pulling me back when I walk. My kids close their eyes, spread their arms and fly with it, until they fall to the ground laughing. When I pray I say thee and thou and grant me this, give me that. My kids say, "Hi God!!! Thanks for my toys and my friends. Please keep the bad dreams away tonight. Sorry, I don't want to go to Heaven yet. I would miss my Mommy and Daddy." When I see a mud puddle I step around it. I see muddy shoes and clothes and dirty carpets. My kids sit in it. They see dams to build, rivers to cross and worms to play with. Sometimes, I wonder if we are given kids to teach .. or to learn from? No wonder God loves the little children!! Author Unknown
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People are unreasonable, illogical, and self-centered.
Love them anyway.
If you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish ulterior motives.
Be kind anyway.
If you are successful, you will win some false friends and true enemies.
Succeed anyway.
The good you do today will be forgotten tomorrow.
Be good anyway.
Honesty and frankness will make you vulnerable.
Be honest and frank anyway.
What you spend years building may be destroyed overnight.
Build anyway.
People need help, but may attack you if you try to help them.
Help them anyway.
In the final analysis, it is between you and God.
It was never between you and them anyway

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A man came home from work late, tired and irritated, to find his 5-year old son waiting for him at the door.
"Daddy, may I ask you a question?"
"Yeah sure, what is it?" replied the man.
"Daddy, how much do you make an hour?"
"That's none of your business. Why do you ask such a thing?" the man said angrily.
"I just want to know. Please tell me, how much do you make an hour?" pleaded the little boy.
"If you must know, I make $20 an hour."
"Oh," the little boy replied, with his head down. Looking up, he said, "Daddy, may I please borrow $10?"
The father was furious, "If the only reason you asked that is so you can borrow some money to buy a silly toy or some other nonsense, then you march yourself straight to your room and go to bed. Think about why you are being so selfish. I work hard everyday for such this childish behavior."
The little boy quietly went to his room and shut the door.
The man sat down and started to get even angrier about the little boy's questions.
How dare he ask such questions only to get some money? After about an hour or so, the man had calmed down, and started to think:
Maybe there was something he really needed to buy with that $10 and he really didn't ask for money very often. The man went to the door of the little boy's room and opened the door.
"Are you asleep, son?" He asked.
"No daddy, I'm awake," replied the boy.
"I've been thinking, maybe I was too hard on you earlier," said the man, "It's been a long day and I took out my aggravation on you. Here's the $10 you asked for."
The little boy sat straight up, smiling. "Oh, thank you daddy!" He yelled. Then, reaching under his pillow he pulled out some crumpled up bills. The man, seeing that the boy already had money, started to get angry again. The little boy slowly counted out his money, then looked up at his father.
"Why do you want more money if you already have some?" the father grumbled.
"Because I didn't have enough, but now I do," the little boy replied.
"Daddy, I have $20 now. Can I buy an hour of your time? Please come home early tomorrow. I would like to have dinner with you."
Share this story with someone you like.... But even better, share $20 worth of time with someone you love.
It's just a short reminder to all of you working so hard in life. We should not let time slip through our fingers without having spent sometime with those who really matter to us, those close to our hearts.
If we die tomorrow, the company that we are working for could easily replace us in a matter of days. But the family & friends we left behind will feel the loss for the rest of their lives. And come to think of it, we pour ourselves more into work than to our family an unwise investment indeed
Regards,
Amar aka Heartbreak_Guy
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Sometimes In Life out Drinking and driving kills the one we love

Remember the time you let me drive your car and I dented the fender? I thought you'd kill me
BUT YOU DIDN'T

And remember the time I met your new girlfriend, you know the one you were crazy about,and she became my new girlfriend? I thought you'd floor me
BUT YOU DIDN'T

What about the time I forgot to tell you the party was black tie, and you wore jeans? I thought you'd never speak to me again
BUT YOU DID

Do you remember the time I wanted to go to the concert, but you said it would be boring? I thought you'd scream "I told you so"
BUT YOU DIDN'T

Remember the time we went to the disco and i picked up a new girl while i had my girlfriend? I thought you'd give up on me
BUT YOU DIDN'T

And remember the time i was drunk and driving? You told me I shouldn't drive but i insisted. You came along to make sure I was alright. I crashed. I saw our beds side by side. I decided I would tell you all this when you awoke
BUT YOU DIDN'T..
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senti ho jao

Every time i miss u a star falls frm da sky, So if u look up at da sky and find it empty, It wld be all ur fault u made me miss u just ToO Much
Roses R Red violets r blue worldz a mystery without a frnd like u ! Roses my die Violets may cry but this frnd wld never let a tear fall frm ur eye.
Between a thousand yesterdays.. and a million tommorrows there is only one today and I wouldnt let this day pass without saying this to you.....Thanks for being my friend!
I dont expect to be the most important person in your life..thats too much to ask...wht would make me happy is 1 day if ever u hear my name, u smile and say..."Ah...thats my friend!"
Never take for granted every person close to your heart coz u might wake up 1day and realise that u have lost a diamond coz u were busy collecting stones.
Yesterday brought the begning, tomm will bring the end...but somehow in between we became the best of friends!
Love is when someone hurts u,u dont hurt back...
she blocks u,u dont block back...
she yells at u,u dont yell back.....but....when she needs u,u always come back!
Sometimes I wish I never saw u, never met u, I never knew u, its not bcoz I dont like u,neither bcoz I hate u....bcoz I m afraid that I might loose u.....
Friendship doesnt need everyday conversations,doesnt always need togetherness.As long as the relationship is kept in the heart,true friends never go apart.
I hide my tears when i say your name..but the pain in my heart is still the same.Although I smile and seem carefree...there's no one who misses you more than me!
I've learned....
That when you plan to get even with someone, you are only letting that person continue to hurt you.
I wish i was a tear in ur eyes then i would roll down your cheeks n die on your lips, and i wish u were a tear in my eyes then i would never cry in the fear of loosing u!
I would give up the world to hear your voice and see your smile to sit and talk with you a while. The hardest thing in life to bear is to want you and you are not there.
A memory lats forever, never does it die. True friends stay together n never say goodbye.

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Don't Ever
Don't ever be reluctant to show your feelings when you're happy, give in to it.
When you're not, live with it.
Don't ever be afraid to try to make things better you might be surprised at the results.
Don't ever take the weight of the world on your shoulders.
Don't ever feel threatened by the future take life one day at a time.
Don't ever feel guilty about the past what's done is done. Learn from any mistakes you might have made.
Don't ever feel that you are alone there is always somebody there for you to reach out to.
Don't ever forget that you can achieve so many of the things you can imagine.
It's not as hard as it seems.
Don't ever stop loving don't ever stop believing, don't ever stop dreaming your dreams.
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My name is Gossip.
I have no respect for justice.
I maim without killing.
I break hearts and ruin lives.
I am cunning and malicious and gather strength with age.
The more I am quoted the more I am believed.
My victims are helpless. They cannot protect themselves against me because I have no name and no face.
To track me down is impossible. The harder you try, the more elusive I become.
I am nobody’s friend.
Once I tarnish a reputation, it is never the same.
I topple governments and wreck marriages.
I ruin careers and cause sleepless nights, heartaches and indigestion. I make innocent people cry in their pillows.
Even my name hisses. I am called Gossip.
I make headlines and headaches.
Before you repeat a story, ask yourself:
Is it true?
Is it harmless?
Is it necessary?
If it isn’t, don’t repeat it.
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A tendency to think and act spontaneously, rather than on fears based on past experiences.
An unmistakable ability to enjoy each moment.
A loss of interest in judging other people.
A loss of interest in judging self.
A loss of interest in interpreting the actions of others.
A loss of the ability to worry.
Frequent, overwhelming episodes of appreciation.
Contented feelings of connectedness with others and nature.
Frequent attacks of smiling.
An increasing tendency to let things happen.
An increased susceptibility to love, and to freely receive the love extended by others, as well as the uncontrollable urge to extend it.

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The words are written by a teenaged girl who later commited suicide!
The Greatest Pain in Life

The greatest pain in life is not to die,
but to be ignored.To lose the person you love so much
to another who doesn't care at all.
To have someone you care about so much throw a party
and not tell you about it.
When your favorite person on earth
neglects to invite you to his graduation.
To have people think that you don't care.
The greatest pain in life,is not to die, but to be forgotten.
To be left in the dust after another's great achievement.
To never get a call from a friend, just saying "hi".
When you show someone your innermost thoughts and they laugh in your face.

For friends to always be too busy to console you
when you need someone to lift your spirits.
When it seems like the only person who cares about you, is you.
Life is full of pain, but does it ever get better?
Will people ever care about each other, and make time for those who are in need?
Each of us has a part to playing this great show we call life.
Each of us has a duty to mankind to tell our friends we love them.
If you do not care about your friends you will not be punished.
You will simply be ignored...
forgotten...as you have done to others.
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I have a little group of friends,
As dear as they can be.
I love them all, but sad to say,
Most I'll never get to see.
The only claim I have is that
When I feel sad, alone or blue,
I get on line,
Play wav's and chat.
And maybe find someone who feels it too.
They give love
And support,
Opinions and such,
Which I can take or ponder much,
But...sometimes I round a bend
And Lo!! I'll make a brand new friend.
Feel bad, or sad?
Just plain sick?
Got an attitude or habit
You want to kick?
"Its ok", your friends will say,
"We've all been there before,
A time or two, just like you".
We know the ups, the downs,
The highs, the lows,
The "I-could-kill-that-so-n-so's".
The pain and strain,
Of getting through
The leave-takings without adieu.
We've seen it all, the been-theres done-thats,
We've worn all the different hats,
That makes us each uniquely "us",
And when we want to make a fuss,
We come online and find
The equalizers,
The friends, who become our sympathizers,
Who know,
And feel,
And wish,
And pray,
When you both know there is nothing more to say--
But an online friend
Will say it anyway.

nEhA

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10 Rules For A Happy Day

TODAY I WILL NOT STRIKE BACK:
If someone is rude, if someone is impatient, if someone is unkind... I will not respond in a like manner.

TODAY I WILL ASK GOD TO BLESS MY "ENEMY:"
If I come across someone who treats me harshly or unfairly, I will quietly ask GOD to bless that individual. I understand the "enemy" could be a family member, neighbor, co-worker or stranger.

TODAY I WILL BE CAREFUL ABOUT WHAT I SAY:
I will carefully choose and guard my words being certain that I do not spread gossip.

TODAY I WILL GO THE EXTRA MILE:
I will find ways to help share the burden of another person.

TODAY I WILL FORGIVE:
I will forgive any hurts or injuries that come my way.

TODAY I WILL DO SOMETHING NICE FOR SOMEONE, BUT I WILL NOT DO IT SECRETLY:
I will reach out anonymously and bless the life of another.

TODAY I WILL TREAT OTHERS THE WAY I WISH TO BE TREATED:
I will practice the golden rule - "Do unto others as I would have them do unto me" - with everyone I encounter.

TODAY I WILL RAISE THE SPIRITS OF SOMEONE WHO IS DISCOURAGED:
My smile, my words, my expression of support, can make the difference to someone who is wrestling with life.

TODAY I WILL NURTURE MY BODY:
I will eat less; I will eat only healthy foods. I will thank GOD for my body.

TODAY I WILL GROW SPIRITUALLY:
I will spend a little more time in prayer today: I will begin reading something spiritual or inspirational today; I will find a quiet place (at some point during this day) and listen to GOD's voice!!!
"But since we belong to the day, let us be self controlled, putting on faith and love as a breastplate, and hope of salvation as a helmet."

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WOMEN have strengths that amaze men.
They carry children, they carry hardships, they carry burdens,
but they show happiness, love and joy.
They smile when they want to scream.
They sing when they want to cry.
They cry when they are happy and laugh when they are nervous.
WOMEN wait by the phone for a "safe at home call" from a friend or relative after a snowy drive home.
WOMEN have special qualities about them. They volunteer for good causes.
They are pink ladies in hospitals, they bring food to shut ins.
They are childcare workers, executives, attorneys, stay-at-home moms, biker babes and your neighbors.
They wear suits, jeans, and they wear uniforms.
They fight for what they believe in. They stand up for injustice.
They are in the front row at PTA meetings.
They vote for the person that will do the best job for family issues.
WOMEN walk and talk the extra mile to get their children in the right schools and for getting their family the right health care.
They write to the editor, their congressmen and to the "powers that be" for things that make for a better life.
They don't take "no" for an answer when they believe there is a better solution.
WOMEN stick a love note in their husband's lunch box.
They do without new shoes so their children can have them.
They go to the doctor with a frightened friend.
They love unconditionally.
WOMEN are honest, loyal, and forgiving.
They are smart, knowing that knowledge is power; but they still know how
to use their softer side to make a point.
WOMEN want to be the best for their family, their friends, and themselves.
They cry when their children excel and cheer when their friends get awards.
WOMEN are happy (or cry) when they hear about a birth or a new marriage.
Their hearts break when a friend dies.
They have sorrow at the loss of a family member, yet they are strong when they think there is no strength left.
A WOMAN'S touch can cure any ailment. They know that a hug and a kiss can
heal a broken heart. She can make a ro---man--------tic evening unforgettable.
WOMEN come in all sizes, in all colors and shapes.
They live in homes, apartments and cabins.
They drive, fly, walk, run or e-mail you to show how much they care about you.
The heart of a wo---------man is what makes the world spin!
WOMEN do more than just give birth.
They bring joy and hope. They give compassion and ideals.
They give moral support to their family and friends.
All they want back, is a hug, a smile and for you to do the same to people you come in contact with.
WOMEN have a lot to say and a lot to give.
The beauty of a woman is not in the clothes she wears, the figure that she carries, or the way she combs her hair.
The beauty of a woman must be seen from in her eyes, because that is the doorway to her heart, the place where love resides.
The beauty of a woman is not in a facial mole, but true beauty in a woman is reflected in her soul.
It is the caring that she lovingly gives, the passion that she shows, and the beauty of a woman with passing years-only grows!

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Where are we heading ?
The paradox of our time in history is that we have
taller buildings, but shorter tempers; wider freeways,
but narrower viewpoints; we spend more, but have less;
we buy more but enjoy it less.
We have bigger houses and smaller families; more
conveniences, but less time; we have more degrees, but
less sense; more knowledge, but less judgement; more
experts, but more problems; more medicine, but less
wellness.
We drink too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too
little, drive too fast, get too angry too quickly,
stay up too late, get up too tired, read too little,
watch TV too much, and pray too seldom.
We talk too much, love too seldom, and hate too often.
We've learned how to make a living, but not a life;
We've added years to life, not life to years.
We've been all the way to the moon and back, but have
trouble crossing the street to meet the new neighbor.
We've conquered outer space, but not inner space;
We've done larger things, but not better things.
We've cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul; we've
split the atom, but not our prejudice. We write more,
but learn less; we plan more, but accomplish less.
We've learned to rush, but not to wait; we have higher
incomes, but, lower morals.
We build more computers to hold more information to
produce more copies than ever, but have less
communication; We've become long on quantity, but
short on quality.
These are the days of two incomes, but more divorce;
of fancier houses, but broken homes.
These are the days of quick trips, disposable diapers,
throw away morality, one night stands, overweight
bodies, and pills that do everything from cheer, to
quiet, to kill. Where are we heading ....?
If we die tomorrow, the company that we are working
for could easily replace us in a matter of days. But
the family we left behind will feel the loss for the
rest of their lives.

And come to think of it, we pour ourselves more into
work than to our family an unwise investment indeed.

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If God brings you to it, He will bring you through it.
A young and successful executive was traveling down a neighborhood street, going a bit too fast in his new Jaguar. He was watching for kids darting out from between parked cars and slowed down when he thought he saw something.
As his car passed, no children appeared.
Instead, a brick smashed into the Jag's side door!
He slammed on the brakes and backed the Jag back to the spot where the brick had been thrown. The angry driver then jumped out of the car, grabbed the nearest kid and pushed him up against a parked car shouting,
"What was that all about and who are you? Just what the heck are you doing?
That's a new car and that brick you threw is going to cost a lot of money.
Why did you do it?"
The young boy was apologetic. "Please, mister...please, I'm sorry but I didn't know what else to do," he pleaded. "I threw the brick because no one else would stop..." With tears dripping down his face and off his chin, the youth pointed to a spot just around a parked car.
”It's my brother," he said. ”He rolled off the curb and fell out of his wheelchair and I can't lift him up."
Now sobbing, the boy asked the stunned executive, "Would you please help me get him back into his wheelchair? He's hurt and he's too heavy for me."
Moved beyond words, the driver tried to swallow the rapidly swelling lump in his throat. He hurriedly lifted the handicapped boy back into the wheelchair, then took out a linen handkerchief and dabbed at the fresh scrapes and cuts.
A quick look told him everything was going to be okay..
"Thank you and may God bless you," the grateful child told the stranger.
Too shook up for words, the man simply watched the boy push his wheelchair-bound brother down the sidewalk toward their home.
It was a long, slow walk back to the Jaguar. The damage was very noticeable, but the driver never bothered to repair the dented side door. He kept the dent there to remind him of this message.
"Don't go through life so fast that someone has to throw a brick at you to get your attention!"
God whispers in our souls and speaks to our hearts. Sometimes when we don't have time to listen, He has to throw a brick at us. It's our choice to listen or not.
Thought for the Day:
If God had a refrigerator, your picture would be on it.
If He had a wallet, your photo would be in it.
He sends you flowers every spring.
He sends you a sunrise every morning.
Face it, friend - He is crazy about you!
Send this to every "beautiful person" you wish to bless. God didn't promise days without pain, laughter without sorrow, sun without rain …but He did promise strength for the day, comfort for the tears, and light for the way.
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Dear Friend,
How are you? I just had to send a note to tell you how much I care about you. I saw you yesterday as you were talking with your friends. I waited all day hoping you would talk to me, too.
I gave you a sunset to chase your day and a cool breeze to rest you and I waited. You never came.
It hurt me but I still love you because I am your friend.
I saw you sleeping last night and longed to touch your brow so I spilled moonlight upon your face.
Again I waited, waiting to rush down so we could talk.
I have so many gifts for you! I try to tell you in blue skies
and in the quiet green grass.
I whisper it in leaves on the trees and breathe it in colors of flowers, shout it to you in mountain streams, give the birds love songs to sing.
I clothe you in warm sunshine and perfume the air with nature scents. My love for you is deeper than the ocean and bigger than the biggest need in your heart.
Ask me! Talk with me! Please don't forget me.
I have so much to share with you.
I have chosen you and I will wait for you.
Your friend,
I love you!
GOD
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8 GIFTS THAT DO NOT COST A CENT
1) THE GIFT OF LISTENING...
But you must REALLY listen.
No interrupting, no daydreaming,
no planning your response.
Just listening.
2) THE GIFT OF AFFECTION...
Be generous with appropriate hugs,
kisses, pats on the back and handholds.
Let these small actions demonstrate the
love you have for family and friends.
3) THE GIFT OF LAUGHTER...
Clip cartoons.
Share articles and funny stories.
Your gift will say, "I love to laugh with you."
4) THE GIFT OF A WRITTEN NOTE...
It can be a simple
"Thanks for the help" note or a full sonnet.
A brief, handwritten note may be remembered for
a lifetime, and may even change a life.
5) THE GIFT OF A COMPLIMENT...
A simple and sincere,
"You look great in red," "You did a super job"
or "That was a wonderful meal"
can make someone's day.
6) THE GIFT OF A FAVOR...
Every day, go out of your way
to do something kind.
7) THE GIFT OF SOLITUDE...
There are times when we want nothing better
than to be left alone.
Be sensitive to those times and give the gift of
solitude to others.
8) THE GIFT OF A CHEERFUL DISPOSITION...
The easiest way to feel good is
to extend a kind word to someone,
really it's not that hard to say,
Hello or Thank You.

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Don't be too good I will miss you.
Don't be too caring, I might like you.
Don't be too Sweet, I might fall for you.
It's hard for me to love you when you won't love me after all...

Bottom-line : A person who makes me love him is actually a person who loves me more than I love him.
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If someone comes into your life and becomes a part of you but for some reasons he couldn't stay, don't cry too much... Just be glad that your paths crossed and; somehow he made you happy even for a while.

Bottom-line :Time will tell. If he's yours he will surely come back.
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Don't throw your back to love when it's already in front of you.
Don't drive it away from you because if you do, someday you'll think again why you let love fly away when it was once residing next to you.

Bottom-line : Treasure the one who loves you! It's not easy to find a person who loves you. It's always more valuable to have a sincere heart.
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The greatest regrets in our lives are the risks we did not take.
If you think something will make you. happy, GO FOR IT.
Remember that we pass this way only once.

Bottom-line : Time doesn't wait. If you think you might have found the right one, treasure the person, don't let that person get away. Don't let fear hold You back. Give it a try else you might regret later... "No one other than ourselves know what can truly make us happy."
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"Two tear drops were floating down the river.
One teardrop said to the other, "I'm the teardrop of a girl who loved a man and lost him. Who are you?"
..."I'm the teardrop of the man who regrets letting a girl go..."

Bottom-line : Nobody will sympathize with a person who constantly lets chances pass by without making any efforts to salvage them. We normally don't realize how important our loved and close ones are until they leave us, and then we start regretting, which results in misery. Lost time is NEVER gained again
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***Even impossible says... I - M - POSSIBLE!!!
keep smiling
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If the sky above seems cloudy,
And you are left out in the rain,
If you are searching for a rainbow,
But the colors bring you pain,
If your world is not revolving,
And there is no end in sight,
If you are looking for the sunshine,
But all you see is night,
If all around are smiling,
But all you can do is frown,
If you are tired of all this living,
When life just brings you down,
Then look beyond your teardrops,
At the wonders of this land,
The beauty of a flower,
Like velvet in your hand.
Feel the air around you,
The smell of new mown hay,
Laughing children in the park,
The innocence there at play,
Imagine floating with a butterfly,
As she flutters between the trees,
Or the whispers of the ocean,
On warm hot summer's breeze,
Think of the taste of candy floss,
As it melts upon your tongue,
Or the melody of morning birds,
As they greet each day with song,
Remember words of beauty,
Told in your mother's embrace,
Feel the gentleness of her touch,
As she softly kissed your face,
Seek the good within you,
Cast the clouds from your sky,
Don't look toward the pavement,
But hold your head up high,
Think not what life owes you,
But of all you have to give,
Forget about tomorrow,
Then you can start to live.
So Bless this age your are living in,
With the gifts you can bestow,
Don't disregard the stream of life,
Go gently with the flow.
keep smiling
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I came across this wonderful story forwarded to me by one of my friends. Thought I would pass it on to all of you Cheers Amar
One day, when I was a freshman in high school, I saw
a kid from my class was walking home from school. His
name was Kyle. It looked like he was carrying all of his
books. I thought to myself, "Why would anyone bring
home all his books on a Friday? He must really be a
nerd."

I had quite a weekend planned (parties and a football
game with my friends tomorrow afternoon), so I
shrugged my shoulders and went on.

As I was walking, I saw a bunch of kids running toward
him. They ran at him, knocking all his books out of his
arms and tripping him so he landed in the dirt. His glasses
went flying, and I saw them land in the grass about ten
feet from him. He looked up and I saw this terrible
sadness in his eyes.

My heart went out to him. So, I jogged over to him and
as he crawled around looking for his glasses, and I saw
a tear in his eye. As I handed him his glasses, I said,
"Those guys are jerks. They really should get lives." He looked
at me and said, "Hey thanks!" There was a big smile on his face.
It was one of those smiles that showed real gratitude.

I helped him pick up his books, and asked him where
he lived. As it turned out, he lived near me, so I asked him
why I had never seen him before. He said he had gone to private
school before now.

I would have never hung out with a private school kid
before. We talked all the way home, and I carried some
of his books. He turned out to be a pretty cool kid. I
asked him if he wanted to play a little football with my
friends. He said yes. We hung out all weekend and the
more I got to know Kyle, the more I liked him, and my
friends thought the same of him.

Monday morning came, and there was Kyle with the
huge stack of books again. I stopped him and said,
"Boy, you are gonna really build some serious muscles
with this pile of books everyday!" He just laughed and
handed me half the books.

Over the next four years, Kyle and I became best
friends. When we were seniors, we began to think
about college. Kyle decided on Georgetown, and I
was going to Duke. I knew that we would always be
friends, that the miles would never be a problem. He
was going to be a doctor, and I was going for business
on a football scholarship.

Kyle was valedictorian of our class. I teased him all the
time about being a nerd. He had to prepare a speech for
graduation.

I was so glad it wasn't me having to get up there and
speak. Graduation day, I saw Kyle. He looked great. He
was one of those guys that really found himself during high
school. He filled out and actually looked good in glasses.
He had more dates than I had and all the girls loved him.
Boy, sometimes I was jealous.

Today was one of those days. I could see that he was
nervous about his speech. So, I smacked him on the back
and said, "Hey, big guy, you'll be great!" He looked at me
with one of those looks (the really grateful one) and smiled.
"Thanks," he said.

As he started his speech, he cleared his throat, and
began. "Graduation is a time to thank those who helped
you make it through those tough years. Your parents,
your teachers, your siblings, maybe a coach...but mostly
your friends. I am here to tell all of you that being a
friend to someone is the best gift you can give them. I
am going to tell you a story."

I just looked at my friend with disbelief as he told the
story of the first day we met. He had planned to kill
himself over the weekend. He talked of how he had
cleaned out his locker so his Mom wouldn't have to do
it later and was carrying his stuff home.

He looked hard at me and gave me a little smile.

"Thankfully, I was saved. My friend saved me from
doing the unspeakable."

I heard the gasp go through the crowd as this handsome, popular
boy told us all about his weakest moment.

I saw his Mom and dad looking at me and smiling that same
grateful smile. Not until that moment did I realize it's depth.

Never underestimate the power of your actions. With
one small gesture you can change a person's life. For
better or for worse.
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When you are tired and discouraged from fruitless efforts...
God knows how hard you have tried.
When you've cried so long and your heart is in anguish...
God has counted your tears.
If you feel that your life is on hold and time has passed you by...
God is waiting with you.
When you're lonely and your friends are too busy for a phone call...
God is by your side.
When you've tried everything and don't know where to turn...
God has a solution.
When nothing makes sense and you are confused or frustrated...
God has the answer.
If suddenly your outlook is brighter and you find rayes of hope...
God has whispered to you.
When things are going well and you have much to be
thankful for...
God has blessed you.
When something joyful happens and you are filled with awe...
God has smiled upon you.
When you have a purpose to fulfill and a dream to follow...
God has opened your eyes and called you by name.
Remember that wherever you are or whatever you are facing...
GOD KNOWS
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Fear less, hope more;
Whine less, breathe more;
Talk less, say more;
Hate less, love more;
And all good things are yours

Human beings long to be well thought of by others. Such an attitude forces them to be different from what they are; this can become the cause of great suffering

"Be more concerned with your character than your reputation,because your character is what you really are, while your reputation is merely what others think you are"

"God allows life to be rocky. His challenge is not to let the rocks grind you into dust, but to polist you to become a brilliant gem. Stay Precious!"

"The achievement of your goal is assured the moment you commit yourself to it"

"If you really want to do something you will find a way, if you don't you will find an excuse."

If At First You Don't Succeed... Blame Someone Else And Seek Counseling.

The Worst Thing Of Being Successful Is That You Dont Have The Rights To Fail ...!!

-Shah Rukh Kahn

Lucky Is The Man Who Is The First Love Of A Woman.....
But,
Luckier Is The Woman Who Is The Last Love Of Man

When Two Friends Fall In Love They Learn, They Are Meant For Each Other.
When They Fall Out Of Love They Realise They Want To Keep Each Other Forever....

There Are So Many Stars In The Sky Only Some Get Noticed.
Among Those You Choose To Ignore The One Which Is Willing To Shine For You, Forever; Even If Your Glance Remained Elsewhere.

Why me?

Arthur Ashe, the legendary Wimbledon player was dying of AIDS. From
world over, he received letters from his fans, one of which conveyed :
"Why does GOD have to select you for such a bad disease"? To this
Arthur Ashe replied: The world over -- 5 crore children start playing
tennis, 50 lakh learn to play tennis, 5 lakh learn professional
tennis, 50,000 come to the circuit, 5000 reach the grand slam, 50
reach Wimbeldon, 4 to semi final, 2 to the finals, When I was holding
a cup I never asked GOD "Why me?".And today in pain I should not be
asking GOD "Why me?"

Happiness keeps u Sweet,

Trials keep u Strong,

Sorrow keeps u Human ,

Failure Keeps u Humble,

Success keeps u Glowing,

But only God Keeps u Going.

God isn't going to ask you to meet any challenge he hasn't prepared you for. Whatever is His plan for u your faith and His strength will see you through.

When others make MISTAKES, do not keep counting their MISTAKES. ALLOW them to count on you for CO-OPERATION to erase and overcome their WEAKNESS.

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CAN MEN EVER WIN

If you put a woman on a pedestal and try to protect her from the rat race, you're a male chauvinist.
If you stay home and do the housework, you're a pansy.
If you work too hard, there is never any time for her.
If you don't work enough, you're a good-for-nothing bum.
If she has a boring repetitive job with low pay, this is exploitation.
If you have a boring repetitive job with low pay, you should get off your butt and find something better.
If you get a promotion ahead of her, that is favoritism.
If she gets a job ahead of you, it's equal opportunity.
If you mention how nice she looks, it's sexual harassment.
If you keep quiet, it's male indifference.
If you cry, you're a wimp.
If you don't, you're an insensitive @#$%.
If you thump her, it's wife bashing.
If she thumps you, it's self defense.
If you make a decision without consulting her, you're a chauvinist.
If she makes a decision without consulting you, she's a liberated woman.
If you ask her to do something she doesn't enjoy, that's domination.
If she asks you, it's a favor.
If you like a woman to shave her legs and keep in shape,you're sexist.
If you don't, you're unromantic.
If you try to keep yourself in shape, you're vain.
If you don't, you're a slob.
If you buy her flowers, you're after something.
If you don't, you're not thoughtful.
If you're proud of your achievements, you're up on yourself.
If not, you're not ambitious.
If she has a headache, she's tired.
If you have a headache, you don't love her anymore

The hidden meanings

Smile :- A curve that can set a lot of things straight.

Rumor :- News that travels at the speed of sound.

Dictionary:- The only place where divorce comes before marriage.

College :- A place where some pursue learning and others learn pursuing.

Ecstasy :- A feeling when you feel you are going to feel a feeling you have never felt before.

Office :- A place where you can relax after your strenuous homelife.

Yawn :- The only time some married men ever get to open their mouth.

Etc. :- A sign to make others believe that you know more than you actually do.

Committee :- Individuals who can do nothing individually and sit to decide that nothing can be done together.

Classic :- A book which people praise, but do not read.

Marriage :- It's an agreement in which a man loses his bachelor degree and woman gains her master's.

Worry :- Interest paid on trouble before it falls due.

Experience:- The name men give to their mistakes.

Tears :- The hydraulic force by which masculine power is defeated by feminine power.

Atom Bomb :- An invention to end all inventions.

Philosopher:-A fool who torments himself during life, to be spoken of when dead.

Diplomat :- A person who tells you to go to hell in such a way that you actually look forward to the trip.

Optimist :- A person who starts taking bath if he accidentally falls into a river.

Pessimist :- A person who says that O is the last letter in ZERO, instead of the first letter in word OPPORTUNITY .

Miser :- A person who lives poor so that he can die rich.

Father :- A banker provided by nature.

Criminal :- A guy no different from the rest...except that he got caught.

Boss :- Someone who is early when you are late and late when you are early.

Politician:- One who shakes your hand before elections and your confidence after.

Doctor :- A person who kills your ills by pills, and kills you with his bills.

SoftWare Engineer:- Who is paid for reading this mail.

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~ Always Be Happy, Always Wear A SMILE, Not Becoz Life Is Full Of Reasons To SMILE, But Ur SMILE Itself Could Be A Reason For Many Others To SMILE ~

Love is like a computer

By William D. Hicks

Garbage in, garbage out: If you keep telling yourself romantic myths about a prince on a white horse saving you, and that love conquers all… living on clichés, you'll never find love. No one's perfect. No relationship is a fairy tale. While gay relationships may contain two fairy tails — neither one of them is perfect! Well, maybe some.

WYSIWYG: If your date is almost Mr. Right – almost the perfect guy for you, if he would just floss and upgrade his hairstyle, then get a new boyfriend – get over it! Some times it's easier to buy a new system than upgrade it. It just won't happen. After all, “What You See Is What You Get.”

Too much input: Dating six people at once. It isn't fair to anyone! How can you integrate all the data and process all the information (about your feelings) if you're running six programs at once? In this case, you're bound to have system errors and hard-drive crashes. No one likes it when their hard drive crashes!

56.6 Baud vs. 14.4 Baud: If your date moves too fast (falls in love overnight) while you're still trying to make a connection, you're operating on different bandwidths. Be careful: He may be connecting with multiple service providers!

Pentium 5 vs. Pentium 1: If a date is stuck with an outdated operating system (lives in the past, dresses in clothes that were current pre-Vietnam), you two may be incompatible. Your date may be stuck in a Pentium 1 lifestyle while you're in a Pentium 5 world. Be leery — slower operating systems are outdated. Two men with different bandwidths will only connect sporadically.

Power Switch: Make sure a boyfriend knows which button turns you on. If he can't locate it, love may never boot up. Since neither of you comes with instruction manuals, don't mute your feelings. Of course, if he knows how to turn you on, he'll also be able to turn you off!

Program compatibility: Sometimes, later editions of the same program can operate earlier versions, but the transverse in not true. Hopefully you'll have enough commonalities to make love work.

Outdated Processor: If you want love – but he sees sex as fun and games – you're wired differently. That's like trying to get a Pentium processor to run a Mac program. Not going to happen!

Mac vs. PC: Macs are more artistic. PCs are more business-oriented. These systems are not compatible; word processing works on both, but other applications do not!

Intranet vs. Internet: If you're a man with a limited, selective friendship base while he has a World Wide Web of friends, you may be speaking different languages.

Secure Servers vs. Public Domains: Some men have a discretionary network of friends. They may put firewalls up or keep their binary info secure. Others send out cookies to newsgroups. Can these two types really find connectivity? Dubious!

Browsers: Some men are just browsers in the World Wide Web of love. They sign on, search, and visit many URLs. But they forget the passwords that open the ports of a man's heart. Be aware of these browsers.

Pop-ups and Spammers: Some men lurk in popular places hoping to be noticed, while others send out indiscriminate emails and IMs to every man alive. They're spammers. Watch out for deceitful men like this. They're liable to be infected with a Trojan horse and could cause your system to crash!

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A TRIBUTE TO JRDTATA

An angry letter from a young lady made JRD Tata change his rule
Sudha was livid when a job advertisement posted by a Tata company at the
institution where she was completing her post graduation stated that "Lady
candidates need not apply". She dashed off a post card to JRD Tata,
protesting against the discrimination.

Following this, Sudha was called for an interview and she became the first
female engineer to work on the shop floor at Telco (now Tata Motors). It
was the beginning of an association that would change her life in more ways
than one."

There are two photographs that hang on my office wall. Everyday when I
entered my office I look at them before starting my day.
They are pictures of two old people. One is of a gentleman in a blue suit
and the other is a black and white image of a man with dreamy eyes and a
white beard.

People have often asked me if the people in the photographs are related to
me. Some have even asked me, "Is this black and white photo that of a Sufi
saint or a religious Guru?"

I smile and reply "No, nor are they related to me. These people made an
impact on my life. I am grateful to them." "Who are they?" "The man in the
blue suit is Bharat Ratna JRD Tata and the black and white photo is of
Jamsetji Tata."

"But why do you have them in your office?"" You can call it gratitude."
Then, invariably, I have to tell the person the following story. It was a
long time ago. I was young and bright, bold and idealistic. I was in the
final year of my Master's course in Computer Science at the Indian
Institute of Science (IISc) in Bangalore, then known as the Tata Institute.

Life was full of fun and joy. I did not know what helplessness or injustice
meant.

It was probably the April of 1974. Bangalore was getting warm and gulmohars
were blooming at the IISc campus. I was the only girl in my postgraduate
department and was staying at the ladies' hostel. Other girls were pursuing
research in different departments of Science.

I was looking forward to going abroad to complete a doctorate in computer
science. I had been offered scholarships from Universities in the US. I had
not thought of taking up a job in India.

One day, while on the way to my hostel from our lecture-hall complex, I saw
an advertisement on the notice board. It was a standard job-requirement
notice from the famous automobile company Telco (now Tata Motors). It
stated that the company required young, bright engineers, hardworking and
with an excellent academic background, etc.

At the bottom was a small line: "Lady candidates need not apply."
I read it and was very upset. For the first time in my life I was up
against gender discrimination.

Though I was not keen on taking up the job, I saw it as a challenge. I had
done extremely well in academics, better than most of my male peers. Little
did I know then that in real life academic excellence is not enough to be
successful.

After reading the notice I went fuming to my room. I decided to inform the
topmost person in Telco's management about the injustice the company was
perpetrating. I got a postcard and started to write, but there was a
problem: I did not know who headed Telco.

I thought it must be one of the Tatas. I knew JRD Tata was the head of the
Tata Group; I had seen his pictures in newspapers (actually, Sumant
Moolgaokar was the company's chairman then). I took the card, addressed it
to JRD and started writing. To this day I remember clearly what I wrote.
"The great Tatas have always been pioneers. They are the people who started
the basic infrastructure industries in India, such as iron and steel,
chemicals, textiles and locomotives. They have cared for higher education
in India since 1900 and they were responsible for the establishment of the
Indian Institute of Science. Fortunately, I study there. But I am surprised
how a company such as Telco is discriminating on the basis of gender."
I posted the letter and forgot about it. Less than 10 days later, I
received a telegram stating that I had to appear for an interview at
Telco's Pune facility at the company's expense. I was taken aback by the
telegram. My hostel mate told me I should use the opportunity to go to Pune
free of cost and buy them the famous Pune saris for cheap! I collected Rs
30 each from everyone who wanted a sari. When I look back, I feel like
laughing at the reasons for my going, but back then they seemed good enough
to make the trip.

It was my first visit to Pune and I immediately fell in love with the city.
To this day it remains dear to me. I feel as much at home in Pune as I do
in Hubli, my hometown. The place changed my life in so many ways. As
directed, I went to Telco's Pimpri office for the interview. There were six
people on the panel and I realised then that this was serious business.
"This is the girl who wrote to JRD," I heard somebody whisper as soon as I
entered the room. By then I knew for sure that I would not get the job. The
realisation abolished all fear from my mind, so I was rather cool while the
interview was being conducted.

Even before the interview started, I reckoned the panel was biased, so I
told them, rather impolitely, "I hope this is only a technical interview."
They were taken aback by my rudeness, and even today I am ashamed about my
attitude. The panel asked me technical questions and I answered all of
them.

Then an elderly gentleman with an affectionate voice told me, "Do you know
why we said lady candidates need not apply? The reason is that we have
never employed any ladies on the shop floor. This is not a co-ed college;
this is a factory. When it comes to academics, you are a first ranker
throughout. We appreciate that, but people like you should work in research
laboratories."

I was a young girl from small-town Hubli. My world had been a limited
place. I did not know the ways of large corporate houses and their
difficulties, so I answered, "But you must start somewhere, otherwise no
woman will ever be able to work in your factories."
Finally, after a long interview, I was told I had been successful. So this
was what the future had in store for me. Never had I thought I would take
up a job in Pune. I met a shy young man from Karnataka there, we became
good friends and we got married.

It was only after joining Telco that I realised who JRD was: the uncrowned
king of Indian industry. Now I was scared, but I did not get to meet him
till I was transferred to Bombay. One day I had to show some reports to Mr
Moolgaokar, our chairman, who we all knew as SM. I was in his office on the
first floor of Bombay House (the Tata headquarters) when, suddenly JRD
walked in. That was the first time I saw "appro JRD". Appro means "our" in
Gujarati. This was the affectionate term by which people at Bombay House
called him.

I was feeling very nervous, remembering my postcard episode. SM introduced
me nicely, "Jeh (that's what his close associates called him), this young
woman is an engineer and that too a postgraduate. She is the first woman to
work on the Telco shop floor." JRD looked at me. I was praying he would not
ask me any questions about my interview (or the postcard that preceded it).
Thankfully, he didn't. Instead, he remarked. "It is nice that girls are
getting into engineering in our country. By the way, what is your name?"
"When I joined Telco I was Sudha Kulkarni, Sir," I replied. "Now I am Sudha
Murthy." He smiled and kindly smile and started a discussion with SM. As
for me, I almost ran out of the room.

After that I used to see JRD on and off. He was the Tata Group chairman and
I was merely an engineer. There was nothing that we had in common. I was in
awe of him.

One day I was waiting for Murthy, my husband, to pick me up after office
hours. To my surprise I saw JRD standing next to me. I did not know how to
react. Yet again I started worrying about that postcard. Looking back, I
realise JRD had forgotten about it. It must have been a small incident for
him, but not so for me.

"Young lady, why are you here?" he asked. "Office time is over." I said,
"Sir, I'm waiting for my husband to come and pick me up." JRD said, "It is
getting dark and there's no one in the corridor. I'll wait with you till
your husband comes."

I was quite used to waiting for Murthy, but having JRD waiting alongside
made me extremely uncomfortable.

I was nervous. Out of the corner of my eye I looked at him. He wore a
simple white pant and shirt. He was old, yet his face was glowing. There
wasn't any air of superiority about him. I was thinking, "Look at this
person. He is a chairman, a well-respected man in our country and he is
waiting for the sake of an ordinary employee."

Then I saw Murthy and I rushed out. JRD called and said, "Young lady, tell
your husband never to make his wife wait again."

In 1982 I had to resign from my job at Telco. I was reluctant to go, but I
really did not have a choice. I was coming down the steps of Bombay House
after wrapping up my final settlement when I saw JRD coming up. He was
absorbed in thought. I wanted to say goodbye to him, so I stopped. He saw
me and paused.

Gently, he said, "So what are you doing, Mrs Kulkarni?" (That was the way
he always addressed me.) "Sir, I am leaving Telco." "Where are you going?"
he asked. "Pune, Sir. My husband is starting a company called Infosys and
I'm shifting to Pune."

"Oh! And what will you do when you are successful." "Sir, I don't know
whether we will be successful." "Never start with diffidence," he advised
me. "Always start with confidence. When you are successful you must give
back to society. Society gives us so much; we must reciprocate. I wish you
all the best."

Then JRD continued walking up the stairs. I stood there for what seemed
like a millennium. That was the last time I saw him alive. Many years later
I met Ratan Tata in the same Bombay House, occupying the chair JRD once
did. I told him of my many sweet memories of working with Telco. Later, he
wrote to me, "It was nice hearing about Jeh from you. The sad part is that
he's not alive to see you today."

I consider JRD a great man because, despite being an extremely busy person,
he valued one postcard written by a young girl seeking justice. He must
have received thousands of letters everyday. He could have thrown mine
away, but he didn't do that. He respected the intentions of that unknown
girl, who had neither influence nor money, and gave her an opportunity in
his company. He did not merely give her a job; he changed her life and
mindset forever.

Close to 50 per cent of the students in today's engineering colleges are
girls. And there are women on the shop floor in many industry segments. I
see these changes and I think of JRD. If at all time stops and asks me what
I want from life, I would say I wish JRD were alive today to see how the
company we started has grown. He would have enjoyed it wholeheartedly.
My love and respect for the House of Tata remains undiminished by the
passage of time. I always looked up to JRD. I saw him as a role model for
his simplicity, his generosity, his kindness and the care he took of his
employees. Those blue eyes always reminded me of the sky; they had the same
vastness and magnificence.

(Sudha Murthy is a widely published writer and chairperson of the Infosys
Foundation involved in a number of social development initiatives. Infosys
chairman Narayan Murthy is her husband.)

Article sourced from: Lasting Legacies (Tata Review- Special Commemorative
Issue 2004), brought out by the house of Tatas to commemorate the 100th
birth anniversary of JRD Tata on July 29, 2004

Why do You Share..?

A reporter once asked a farmer to divulge the secret behind his corn,
which
won the state fair contest year after year. The farmer confessed it was
all
because he shared his seed with his neighbors.

"Why do you share your best seed corn with your neighbors when you're
entering the same contest each year as well?" asked the reporter.

"Why sir," said the farmer, "didn't you know? The wind picks up pollen
from
the ripening corn and swirls it from field to field. If my neighbors grew
inferior corn, cross-pollination would steadily degrade the quality of my
corn. If I am to grow good corn, I must help my neighbor do the same."

And so it is with other situations in our lives. Those who want to be
successful must help their neighbors, friends, relatives to be
successful.

Those who choose to live well must help others live well, for the value of
a
life is measured by the lives it touches. And those who choose to be happy
must help others find happiness, for the welfare of each is bound up with
the welfare of all.

This story exemplifies "altruism."

Altruism: Action that benefits another person, including comforting,
helping, sharing, rescuing and cooperating. Acts of concern for other
people
- without any hope of reward.

Cherish ur soul

Once upon a time...

There was a rich King who had 4 wives.

He loved the 4th wife the most and adorned her with rich robes and
treated her to the finest of delicacies. He gave her nothing but the
best.

He also loved the 3rd wife very much and was always showing her off to
neighboring kingdoms. However, he feared that one day she would leave
him for another.

He also loved his 2nd wife. She was his confidante and was always kind,
considerate and patient with him. Whenever the King faced a problem, he
could confide in her to help him get through the difficult times.

The King's 1st wife was a very loyal partner and had made great
contributions in maintaining his wealth and kingdom. However, he did not

love the first wife and although she loved him deeply, he hardly took
notice of her.

One day, the King fell ill and he knew his time was short.

He thought of his luxurious life and pondered, "I now have 4 wives with
me, but when I die, I'll be all alone.

Thus, he asked the 4th wife, "I have loved you the most, endowed you
with the finest clothing and showered great care over you. Now that I'm
dying, will you follow me and keep me company?"

"No way!" replied the 4th wife and she walked away without another word.

Her answer cut like a sharp knife right into his heart.

The sad King then asked the 3rd wife, "I have loved you all my life. Now

that I'm dying, will you follow me and keep me company?"

"No!" replied the 3rd wife. "Life is too good!
When you die, I'm going to remarry!"

His heart sank and turned cold.

He then asked the 2nd wife, "I have always turned to you for help and
you've always been there for me. When I die, will you follow me and
keep me company?"

"I'm sorry, I can't help you out this time!" replied the 2nd wife. "At
the very most, I can only send you to your grave."

Her answer came like a bolt of thunder and the King was devastated.

Then a voice called out:

"I'll leave with you and follow you no matter where you go." The King
looked up and there was his first wife. She was so skinny, she suffered
from malnutrition.

Greatly grieved, the King said, "I should have taken much better care of

you when I had the chance!"

In Truth, we all have 4 wives in our lives ...

Our 4th wife is our body. No matter how much time and effort we lavish
in making it look good, it'll leave us when we die.

Our 3rd wife is our possessions, status and wealth.
When we die, it will all go to others.

Our 2nd wife is our family and friends. No matter how much they have
been there for us, the furthest they can stay by us is up to the grave.

And our 1st wife is our Soul,

often neglected in pursuit of wealth, power and pleasures of the ego.
However, our Soul is the only thing that will follow us wherever we go.

So cultivate, strengthen and cherish it now!
It is your greatest gift to offer the world.

Let it Shine!

Tips of life

Tips on Life

1. Throw out nonessential numbers. This includes age, weight and height. Let the doctors worry about them. That is why you pay "them!"

2. Keep only cheerful friends. The grouches pull you down.

3. Keep learning. Learn more about the computer, crafts, gardening, whatever. Never let the brain idle.

4. Enjoy the simple things.

5. Laugh often ... long and loud. Laugh until you gasp for breath.

6. The tears happen. Endure, grieve, and move on. The only person who is with us our entire life, is ourselves so Be ALIVE while you are alive.

7. Surround yourself with what you love whether it's ... family, pets, keepsakes, music, plants, hobbies, whatever. Your home is your sacred refuge.

8. Cherish your health. If it is good, preserve it. If it is unstable, improve it. If it is beyond what you can improve, get help.

9. Don't take guilt trips. Take a trip to the mall... even to the next county ...to a foreign country, but NOT to where the guilt is.

10. Tell the people you love that you love them. ..at every opportunity.

REMEMBER that life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away.
May you all make it to a healthy 100 and a half!

Unwritten rules for friends

1) Don't date your friends ex's.

2) If you are thinking about dating your friend's ex, talk to her first. You don't want to lose her over something stupid, like a boy

3 Don't talk about her behind her back. It always gets back to her somehow.

4) Don't lie DON'T EVER LIE TO YOUR BEST FRIEND She will find out and she won't forgive you Trust me on this one No matter what the topic is, don't lie
5) Keep your mouth shut If your friend tells you something, keep it to your self. She trusts you and probably doesn't want you telling other people. Let her tell people if she wants to. Be trustworthy

6) Don't become best friends with the guy that your best friend has a crush on. This is a biggie, it is often overlooked but honestly, it isn't that hard. Just keep your distance

7) Be supportive but not too nosy. It is great to know that someone cares but don't poke too much, wait til she is ready to talk to you.

8) THINK BEFORE YOU ACT. You know what it is like to be betrayed. It sucks, don't ever do this to your best friend I warn you right now, she won't be your best friend if you don't think before you act. Getting stoned with someone that your best friend really cares about is a BAD IDEA THINK... if you wouldn't want something to happen to you, don't do it to someone else It isn't that hard

9) Be aware of your friends feelings Know what will hurt her and what doesn't matter. If you are really best friends, you should know what will upset her. Just don't go there otherwise you are about to lose one the greatest people you have ever met.

This is only a few of the many rules. Trust me, they are real. If you don't believe me, just ask, I have plenty of examples of how I got burned (real bad). Lastly, be a good friend, nothing in the world hurts more than getting stabbed in the back by your best friend .

Guys perspective

One guy's perspective---

What Is Romance?

Romance is a nebulous thing with the curious property of being describable but not definable. We won't muck with your head and try to suggest there's an ultimate definitive definition out there. Some people will try to do just that and come up with some tidy little definition, like, "Romance is showing you care." Sure, it sounds good at first, but although draping your coat over a puddle and asking if she remembered to brush her teeth that morning may be actions triggered by this same motivation, they rate distinctly differently on the romance scale.

Although it's not so much a definition, as it is no more precise than the word "romance" itself, one way to describe romance succinctly is "what women want out of a relationship." In other words, men aren't romantic, and if you're a man, that's why you need this guide. If you're a woman, of course, you were born with an innate knowledge of this stuff and need not read further.

But though romance may not be definable, there are still some hard fast rules. Below, we have documented many of the atomic elements of romance.
Mix these ingredients up, and you've got it.

Intrinsic Romance

Some things are inherently romantic, like hearts. This is very useful, because you can pile things upon the object of your affections and win romance points without expending any additional effort or thought. The trick is to figure out what is romantic and what is not. There is a basic rule of thumb to follow: if it's cool, it's not romantic. For example, high powered rifles are not romantic. Science fiction is not romantic. DVD players are not romantic unless they're playing Sleepless In Seattle. But a whole ton of things are intrinsically romantic, and you should use them to your advantage.

Cute Things
Teddy bears are romantic. Puppies are romantic. Cherubic baby archers are romantic. Those photographs where two little kids exhibit an unnatural affection for each other and only the roses are in color are romantic.

Taking advantage of the intrinsic romance in cute things obviously depends upon recognizing which things are cute. The rule is simple. Small things are cute. If you see a food product in a grocery store that comes in a smaller package than usual, get it, because there's a very good chance it's cute. The same goes for travel size shampoo, toothpaste, and so on. Find a store that sells doll house stuff, and your supply of cute things can be limitless.

Low Light
Candles are romantic. Sunrises and sunsets are romantic. Any kind of low light, you see, is romantic, hence why dinner dates after dark are more romantic than lunch dates at noon. Combine low light sources, and it stands to reason that the air of romance will be so thick, your beloved will be blind to anything else but the radiance of her shimmering knight in armor.
Open the curtains on a sunset and light some candles, and you might even be able to get away with watching a football game during dinner.

Red
Red is romantic, because red is the color of love and passion. Consider roses. Red roses mean, "I love you." Yellow roses mean, "Let's just be friends," which is synonymous with, "You are irritating, and I hate you."
So you do not want to be wrong. Get her red roses, red ribbons, red balloons, red teddy bears, red puppies, and red tickets to the World Series, and she'll fall hopelessly under your spell.

Background Music
Background music is romantic, and note the word "background," because not just any music is romantic. For music to be romantic, it must be too soft to hear. Also, it may not be lively or funny or good. Elevator music is the most romantic genre of music out there.

Chocolates
Chocolates are not only romantic, they're complimentary. When you give a box of chocolates to your beloved, it says, "You could pig out on this tub of lard and bloat out to three tons, but you'd still be the apple of my eye." It doesn't matter if it's true -- it's the message that counts. But the real reason to give your loved one chocolates is because any loved one worth her salt will turn right around and offer you some. It's a win-win no matter how you look at it. Buy her a red one shaped like a heart, and you're in like Flynn.

Fancy Curly Things
Flair and flourishes are romantic. Whenever you get her a greeting card, get one of the ones with all the curly pink scribbles on it. When you write her letters, make the tails of the 'g's and 'y's really long and the loops in the 'd's and 'b's and 'p's really big. That's way romantic.

The Most Intrinsically Romantic Thing Ever Based on the data above, the single most romantic thing in the universe can be calculated scientifically. It is, simply, a small red candle made out of chocolate and shaped like a teddy bear holding a heart with scribbles all over it that plays a tune when you wind it up.

By Samuel Stoddard

Embarrassing Moments

The Board Meeting had come to an end. Bob started to stand up and jostled the table, spilling his coffee over his notes. "How embarrassing. I am
getting so clumsy in my old age." Everyone had a good laugh, and soon we
were all telling stories of our most embarrassing moments. It came around to Frank who sat quietly listening to the others.

Someone said, "Come on, Frank. Tell us your most embarrassing moment."

Frank laughed and began to tell us of his childhood. "I grew up in San Pedro. My Dad was a fisherman, and he loved the sea. He had his own boat, but it was hard making a living on the sea. He worked hard and would stay out until he caught enough to feed the family. Not just enough for our family, but also for his Mom and Dad and the other kids that were still at home."

He looked at us and said, "I wish you could have met my Dad. He was a big man, and he was strong from pulling the nets and fighting the seas for his catch. When you got close to him, he smelled like the ocean. He would wear his old canvas, foul-weather coat and his bibbed overalls. His rain hat would be pulled down over his brow. No matter how much my Mother washed them, they would still smell of the sea and of fish."

Frank's voice dropped a bit. "When the weather was bad he would drive me to school. He had this old truck that he used in his fishing business.
That truck was older than he was. It would wheeze and rattle down the road. You could hear it coming for blocks. As he would drive toward the school, I would shrink down into the seat hoping to disappear. Half the time, he would slam to a stop and the old truck would belch a cloud of smoke. He would pull right up in front, and it seemed like everybody would be standing around and watching. Then he would lean over and give me a big kiss on the cheek and tell me to be a good boy. It was so embarrassing for me. Here, I was twelve years old, and my Dad would lean over and kiss me goodbye!"

He paused and then went on, "I remember the day I decided I was too old for a goodbye kiss. When we got to the school and came to a stop,he had his usual big smile. He started to lean toward me, but I put my hand up and said, ''No, Dad.'' It was the first time I had ever talked to him that way, and he had this surprised look on his face." I said, "Dad, I'm too old for a goodbye kiss. I'm too old for any kind of kiss."

"My Dad looked at me for the longest time, and his eyes started to tear up.
I had never seen him cry. He turned and looked out the windshield."

"You're right," he said. "You are a big boy....a man. I won't kiss you anymore."

Frank got a funny look on his face, and the tears began to well up in his eyes, as he spoke. "It wasn't long after that when my Dad went to sea and never came back. It was a day when most of the fleet stayed in, but not Dad. He had a big family to feed. They found his boat adrift with its nets half in and half out. He must have gotten into a gale and was trying to save the nets and the floats."

I looked at Frank and saw that tears were running down his cheeks. Frank spoke again. "Guys, you don't know what I would give to have my Dad give me just one more kiss on the cheek....to feel his rough old face....to smell the ocean on him....to feel his arm around my neck. I wish I had been a man then. If I had been a man, I would never have told my Dad I was too old for a goodbye kiss."

I don't know about the rest of the guys, but I wanted more than anything to put my arms around my Dad let him know just how special he was to me.

It is so easy to forget to tell people how important they are to us, especially our parents. if you are lucky enough to still have your dad around, then go and see him. Tell him how much you love and appreciate him. And if you can, put your arms around him, give him kiss on the cheek, and let him know that he is the most important man in your life.
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Life is short and we have never too much time for gladdening the hearts of those who are traveling the dark journey with us. Oh be swift to love, make haste to be kind.

Henri Frederick Amiel

A psychological view on -

What exactly 1 means by frenship?

- Pure frenship is based on da spirit of experiencin each others comany n knowin each other n sharin information selflessly. Frenship involves equal commitment n mutual give n take relationship. A fren is sum 1 an individual feels affection for, is comfortable wid, likes 2 do things wid n can share feelins n secrets with n support each other in difficult times. Frens know each other well, trust each other , feel a sense of commitment 2 one another ; n treat each other as equals.
The strongest frenships involves equal commitment n mutual give- n -take.

Did you know ???
Did you know that when you envy someone, it's because you really like that person?
Did you know that those who appear to be very strong in heart, are real weaklings and most susceptible?
Did you know that those who spend their time protecting others are the ones that really need some one to protect them?
Did you know that the three most difficult things to say are:
I love you,
Im Sorry and
Help me
The people who say these are that actually need them or really feel them, and are the ones you really need to treasure, because they have said them.
Did you know that people who occupy themselves by keeping others company or helping others are the ones that actually need your company and help?

Did you know that those who dress in red are more confidence in themselves?
Did you know that those who dress in yellow are those that enjoy their beauty?

Did you know that those who dress in black, are those who want to be unnoticed and need your help and understanding?

Did you know that when you help someone, the help is returned in two folds?
Did you know that those who need more of you are those that does not mention it to you?
Did you know that it's easier to say what you feel in writing than saying it to someone in the face? But did you know that it has more value when you say it in the face?

Did you know that what is most difficult for you to say or do is much more valuable than anything that is valuable that you can buy with money?

Did you know that if you ask for something in faith, your wishes are granted?

Did you know that you can make your dreams come true, like falling in love, becoming rich, staying healthy, if you ask for it by faith, and if you really knew, you'd be surprised by what you could do.

But don't believe everything I tell you, until you try it for yourself , if you know someone that is in need of something that I mentioned of, and you know that you can help, you'll see that it will be returned in two folds.

DID YOU KNOW THAT YOU COULD ALWAYS COUNT ON ME???... AT THE MOMENT, TIME AND PLACE THAT YOU NEED ME, CALL ME, I WILL BE THERE WITH YOU !!!!!

INTERESTING CONVERSATION
An atheist professor of philosophy speaks to his class on the problem science has with God, The Almighty. He asks one of his new Muslim students to stand and.....
Professor: You are a Muslim, aren't you, son?
Student : Yes, sir.
Professor: So you believe in God?
Student : Absolutely, sir.
Professor: Is God good?
Student : Sure.
Prof: Is God all-powerful?
Student : Yes.
Prof: My brother died of cancer even though he prayed to God to heal him.
Most of us would attempt to help others who are ill. But God didn't. How is this God good then? Hmm?
(Student is silent.)
Prof: You can't answer, can you? Let's start again, young fella. Is God good?
Student :Yes.
Prof: Is Satan good?
Student : No.
Prof: Where does Satan come from?
Student : From...God...
Prof: That's right. Tell me son, is there evil in this world?
Student : Yes.
Prof: Evil is everywhere, isn't it? And God did make everything. Correct?
Student : Yes.
Prof: So who created evil?
(Student does not answer.)
Prof: Is there sickness? Immorality? Hatred? Ugliness? All these terrible things exist in the world, don't they?
Student :Yes, sir.
Prof: So, who created them?
(Student has no answer.)
Prof: Science says you have 5 senses you use to identify and observe the world around you. Tell me, son...Have you ever seen God?
Student : No, sir.
Prof: Tell us if you have ever heard your God?
Student : No , sir.
Prof: Have you ever felt your God, tasted your God, smelt your God? Have you ever had any sensory perception of God for that matter?
Student : No, sir. I'm afraid I haven't.
Prof: Yet you still believe in Him?
Student : Yes.
Prof: According to empirical, testable, demonstrable protocol, science says your GOD doesn't exist. What do you say to that, son?
Student : Nothing. I only have my faith.
Prof: Yes. Faith. And that is the problem science has.
Student : Professor, is there such a thing as heat?
Prof: Yes.
Student : And is there such a thing as cold?
Prof: Yes.
Student : No sir. There isn't.
(The lecture theatre becomes very quiet with this turn of events.)
Student : Sir, you can have lots of heat, even more heat, superheat, mega heat, white heat, a little heat or no heat. But we don't have anything called cold. We can hit 458 degrees below zero which is no heat, but we can't go any further after that. There is no such thing as cold. Cold is only a word we use to describe the absence of heat. We cannot measure cold. Heat is energy. Cold is not the opposite of heat, sir, just the absence of it.
(There is pin-drop silence in the lecture theatre.)
Student : What about darkness, Professor? Is there such a thing as darkness?
Prof: Yes. What is night if there isn't darkness?
Student : You're wrong again, sir. Darkness is the absence of something. You can have low light, normal light, bright light, flashing light....But if >you have no light constantly, you have nothing and it's called darkness, isn't it? In reality, darkness isn't. If it were you would be able to make darkness darker, wouldn't you?
Prof: So what is the point you are making, young man?
Student : Sir, my point is your philosophical premise is flawed.
Prof: Flawed? Can you explain how?
Student : Sir, you are working on the premise of duality. You argue there is life and then there is death, a good God and a bad God. You are viewing the concept of God as something finite, something we can measure. Sir, science can't even explain a thought. It uses electricity and magnetism, but has never seen, much less fully understood either one. To view death as the opposite of life is to be ignorant of the fact that death cannot exist as a substantive thing. Death is not the opposite of life: just the absence of it. Now tell me, Professor. Do you teach your students that they evolved from a monkey?
Prof: If you are referring to the natural evolutionary process, yes, of course, I do.
Student : Have you ever observed evolution with your own eyes, sir?
(The Professor shakes his head with a smile, beginning to realize where the argument is going.)
Student : Since no one has ever observed the process of evolution at work and cannot even prove that this process is an on-going endeavour, are you not teaching your opinion, sir? Are you not a scientist but a preacher?
(The class is in uproar.)
Student : Is there anyone in the class who has ever seen the Professor's brain?
(The class breaks out into laughter.)
Student : Is there anyone here who has ever heard the Professor's brain, felt it, touched or smelt it?.....No one appears to have done so. So, according to the established rules of empirical, stable, demonstrable protocol, science says that you have no brain, sir. With all due respect, sir, how do we then trust your lectures, sir?
(The room is silent. The professor stares at the student, his face unfathomable.)
Prof: I guess you'll have to take them on faith, son.
Student : That is it sir.. The link between man & god is FAITH. That is all that keeps things moving & alive.
Amazingly true isnt it??????

Trust

A little girl and her father were crossing a flimsy bridge. The father was
kind of scared so he asked his little daughter, "Sweetheart, please hold my
hand so that you don't fall into the river."

The little girl said, "No, Dad. You hold my hand."

"What's the difference?" asked the puzzled father.

"There's a big difference," replied the little girl. "If I hold your hand
and something happens to me, chances are that I may let your hand go. But if
you hold my hand, I know for sure that no matter what happens, you will
never let my hand go."

In any relationship, the essence of trust is not in its bind , age, caste or
creed but in its bond. So hold the hand of the person whom you love rather
than expecting them to hold urs..

This is happening in our life.
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1. When in college !!
Hum honge kaamiyaab,
Hum honge kaamiyaab ek din.....

2. when giving interview to Multi National Company
Tu hi re.. Too hi ree.
tere binaaa main kaise jiyunn....

3. waiting for interview result!!
Intehaa ho gai Intzaarki..
aayinaaa kuch khabar mere yaarki...

4. just joined
Too cheez bhadi hai mast mast.....

5. after some time...
Ye kahaan aagaye hum??

6. After some more time...
Naa koyi umang hai, naa koyi tarang hai, meri jindagi kya ek kati
Pathang hai (booohoooo)

7. floating the resume
kabootar ja ja ja...
kabootar ja ja ja...

8. finally when you don't get a better offer any longer
Jeena yehaan, marna yehaan
Iske siwa jaana kahan...

Break through the toughest barrier

There once was a farmer who owned a cow, a rooster, a dog and a pig. The animals were free to roam the farm the whole day, but come twilight and the farmer would usher the rooster to its coop, the pig would be driven inside its pen, the cow would be tied to its tether while the dog would be confined to the courtyard to 'keep an eye' on these.

As the days passed by the animals became familiar with their routine and as day melted into night would proceed to their respective resting and guarding places.

One evening the farmer accidentally let the rope hang around the cow without fastening it, he left the courtyard gate open as also the doors to the pen and coop. However to his pleasant surprise (the next morning) none of the animals had stirred from their place. Years of bonding had made them so accustomed to their resting place that they remained 'fastened' their without any exterior confinements.

We too are like the cow, rooster, dog and pig. Years of conditioning mould us into succumbing to servitude and confinement. So used are we to this subjugated status that even when the external force is removed, our mind cannot break the imaginary shackles and we continue with our state of bonded labor.

Remember, the power of the mind is the greatest pleasure, once you have mastered this weapon you can break through the biggest shackles and strongest chains.
The power is within you, you must set yourself free from the make-believe world of routine!

Men and Women
A WOMEN'S PERSPECTIVE

Why do men like love at first sight?
It saves them a lot of time.

A woman of 35 thinks of having children. What does a man of 35 think of?
Dating children.

How can you tell soap operas are fictional?
In real life, men aren't affectionate out of bed.

What should you give a man who has everything?
A woman to show him how to work it.

Why do black widow spiders kill their males after mating?
To stop the snoring before it starts.

Why don't men have mid-life crises?
They stay stuck in adolescence.

How does a man show he's planning for the future?
He buys two cases of beer instead of one.

How was Colonel Sanders a typical male?
All he cared about were legs, breasts, and thighs.

How is being at a singles bar different from going to the circus?
At the circus the clowns don't talk.

What makes men chase women they have no intention of marrying?
The same urge that makes dogs chase cars they have no intention of driving.

What do you do with a bachelor who thinks he's God's gift?
Exchange him.

Why do bachelors like smart women?
Opposites attract.

Why are husbands like lawn mowers?
They're hard to get started, emit foul odors, and don't work half the time.

What's the difference between a new husband and a new dog?
After a year, the dog is still excited to see you.

Why is sleeping with a man like a soap opera?
Just when it's getting interesting, they're finished until next time.

Why do men find it difficult to make eye contact?
Breasts don't have eyes.

What is the thinnest book in the world?
What Men Know About Women

What's the difference between men and government bonds?
Bonds mature.

What do men and beer bottles have in common?
They're both empty from the neck up.

A MAN'S PERSPECTIVE

Why do men like love at first sight?
Because he knows it's all over as soon as she opens her mouth.

A woman of5 thinks of having children. What does a man of5 think of?
How much his wife has begun to resemble Morly Safer.

How can you tell soap operas are fictional?
Their target audience is women.

What should you give a man who has everything?
A mute nymphomanic 8 year old girlfriend.

Why do black widow spiders kill their males after mating?
Penis envy.

Why do women have mid-life crises?
Because Phil and Oprah say they're supposed to.

How does a woman show she's planning for the future?
Plastic Surgury.

What makes men chase women they have no intention of marrying?
Sex, stupid.

What do you do with a 40 year old woman who thinks she's God's gift?
Trade her in for two 20 year olds.

Why do bachelors like smart women?
Because they're so rare.

What's the difference between a wife and a job.
After 5 years, the job still sucks.

Why is sleeping with a woman like a soap opera?
Cause it's the same tired old plot, year in and year out.

Why do men find it difficult to make eye contact?
They're trying not to attract any more undue blame then they already have.

What is the thinnest book in the world?
Biographies of Happy women

What's the difference between men and government bonds?
None, they're both the same, steadily increasing in value, predictable and vastly undervalued by people who don't understand them.

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Live a happier life

1. Throw out non-essential numbers. This includes age, weight and height. Let the doctor worry about them. That is why you pay him/her.
2. Keep only cheerful friends. The grouches pull you down. If you really need a grouch, there are probably a few dozen of your relatives to do the job.
3. Keep learning. Learn more about the computer, crafts, gardening, whatever. Just never let the brain idle.
4. Laugh often, long and loud. Laugh until you gasp for breath.Laugh so much that you can be tracked in the store by your distinctive laughter.
5. The tears happen. Endure, grieve, and move on. The only person who is with us our entire life, is ourselves.
6. Surround yourself with what you love, whether it is family, pets, keepsakes, music, plants, hobbies, whatever. Your home is your refuge.
7. Cherish your health. If it is good,preserve it. If it is unstable,improve it. If it is beyond what you can improve, get help.
8. Don't take guilt trips. Go to the mall, the next county, a foreign country , but not guilt.
9. Tell the people you love, that you love them, at every opportunity . Remember, Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away.
10. Just be yourself and enjoy it.

an article complimenting my prev. post

2006-05-29T06:38:00.000+05:30

DEVOID OF IDEAS AND HOPE

Malvika Singh

India has taken on the avatar of a dictatorial regime that sanctifies state power and gives it supremacy within the framework of a ‘democracy’. On critical national issues, particularly those that concern the future of our polity, all politicians, regardless of hue, caste or creed, make exploitative populism their mantra as they ruthlessly dismantle all discussion, all warnings about the repercussions of their short-term acts and endless re-enactments of national acts. They have reduced all intellectual debate to rubble as they override dissenting points of view, arbitrarily decide on what is ‘right’ or ‘wrong’, ranging from which film we should be allowed to see to quotas and the handing over of national forests to individuals who happen to have been born ‘tribals’, all to garner their personal vote banks. Selfish beyond imagination. The utter misuse of democratic freedom by professional politicians has made a mockery of the tenets on which liberal and civilized societies rest. Stalin, Mao and their ilk must be in the seventh heaven.

None of the measures this government is propagating has shown merit thus far. Most of India continues to wallow in poverty, remains patient and dignified despite rampant political exploitation and the leadership continues to flog failed ideas and supposed solutions. That is the scary vacuum that has invaded the political space. It can be described as being a void, a black hole where nothing grows except destructive weeds. When Pratap Bhanu Mehta resigns from the knowledge commission, one realizes that hope for an enlightened and dynamic future is bleak. He is so right when he divides the two-positions-on-most-issues business into two categories, one that has faith in the people and the other that has faith in the state. Alas, in India the track record of the state leaves virtually nothing to be desired, having reduced this great land into a cesspool of corruption, corruption of all caste, colour and type.

Lessening respect

The state has usurped much in this country, has corroded and corrupted institutions, has broken laws without remorse, has defied and punished ‘right’, has endorsed and protected ‘wrong’, has crossed the line over and over again, denying dignity to rich and poor alike. The rhetoric of both, the political masters and their loyal ‘servants’, has entangled this diverse country in a sticky, unpleasant and complicated web of contradictions and lies. People have begun to revolt against this flowering indignity, this horrible reality. They are starting to show that they too have a voice, an attitude, a concern for the less privileged amongst them, a belief in egalitarianism.

A parasitic state eventually crumbles, and nothing can save it except a revolution. That ‘revolution’ has begun. The political class is not respected as it was in the early Fifties. People have learned well to give the impression of being subservient as they bribe their way through mad regulations. Indians have mastered the art of quietly finding ways of dealing with insane policies, as their ‘leaders’ work only for their own financial betterment. It is sad that leaders do not see the disrespect. That is how insular the class has become. That is their supreme failure.

The tribal rights bill is being pushed through parliament in an unacceptable form, but who cares? Let it all go down the tubes. Let the tribal owner make some good money from the land mafias that are waiting to buy the allocated pattas. Let the water run out or be poisoned. Let the animals be killed, sold or eaten. Allow the growth, much like fungus, of new areas of corruption as more quotas are offered. Encourage, silently, young Brahmins and Kshatriyas to bribe the authority as they change their names to OBC ones in an attempt to get into college. Let’s go for it and destruct.

India divided

2006-05-25T20:14:00.000+05:30

A decision taken by the government just leaves my country didvided on the basis of caste . In this country from time unknown there has existed the system of castes , thus a certain section of people in the rural India still are considered to be inferior to others right from the time of birth , they dont have the liberty to do what they want to , and seldom they dont get to go to school as they are not supposed to sit with others of a higher caste . then there are children from tribes who dont have a school to access to . thus it is very well understood that under what circumstances they come up to reach their graduation levels and thus for all this trouble they took at a tender they are awarded with an easy entry to professional courses in good colleges , but how much beneficial is it to them . during their grooming period when they recieve their primary , secondary and higher secondary education they are not well looked after thus they are not as smart as their urban counterparts , so even if they are getting into colleges and universities they can not grasp things as well as others . thus where are they gonna get placements and how efficient can they be at the jobsa at hand . courtsey the quota provided to them by the government , even after dcoring 50% they are given preference over students who have worked harder to score 80% . hey what is their fault that they have to see less learned people being preffered above them . then these mediocre students have to cope up with the studies for which they are not well prepared and somehow are able to clear the graduation level and end up as low efficiency professionals. moreover they get preferences in the urban side where the extent of orthodox thinking is just a small fraction of what it is in rural side . thus by bringing in this quota they are just bringing in the differences of caste into the young students of urban india . instead it must be brought about in rural india where the so called upper castes must realise that even these people have right to education and steps must be taken to build more number of schools so that students from such places dont stand at a disadvantsge to their urban counterparts. thus instead of just sutting the fruit bearing branches to save them from infection , the govt must uproot the plant that is spreading the pests .

no developing country in the world would officially accept that people are divided in terms of caste and creed (not even the orthodox islamic countries would do so) , but here we have the indian government that has acknowledged the system and instead of removing it from the mentality , is spreading to the people who have till now nvr considered these differences had any importance. (unbdoubtedly students who are not able to get admissions even after getting good marks are going to be wary of the OBCs through out their life) . well who better than britishers at politics and indian politicians still follow their same old policy of divide and rule which the britishers had used during their colonial rule .
but i as an Indian am heart-broken to see my countryt being divided like this...

is there a bhagat today?

2006-05-13T21:36:00.000+05:30

well i really feel irritated at times when i see people saying that India today needs a Bhagat Singh . the truth is that there have been loads of Bhagat singh who have been born in independent India too but seldom has anybody recognised them .bhagat singh was born from the supression from the british government and was recognised by all because they shared the goal that he had and that was freedom for India . but today we dont know about him because we dont share the same feeling with him . today the government of india has neglected many a parts of the country , where they live a life of misery , something not suitable for a country which calls itself an emerging economic power . villagers in many parts have opted for suicide instead of living at the mercy of the inhumane government . in this darkness the only light seems to be a revolt but in the process they just find themselves being termed as a naxalites or dacoits or terrorists and we all sitting in our urban rooms just are ready to accept what is told to us by the government and the media. there are many a bhagat singh who sacrifice their lives for a cause , viz. a more respectable life for their future generations. they have realised a truth which we havent that the situation today that this government isnt going to bother to listen unless someone goes violent . and the pityful thing is that we who condemn the government in general are with them when it come to call these people as enemies of the nation. if only we all cud understand them and their condition and their motives behind their actions then may be we could give some weightage to the sacrifices of the bhagat singhs of the independent india ....

yo people

2006-04-24T23:26:00.000+05:30

dunno if there is anyone out there who does read this blog anyways the reason for me being out of this place for quite some while was because i was busy creating a new forum and now it is ready to use and it is masti ki paathshala
it is like an online community for the Indian college students . who else knows how to have fun!!!!!

hum the woh thi aur samaa rangeen samajh gaye na

2006-03-08T01:32:00.000+05:30

well a couple of days back , i was travelling in the metro and as usual the same journey is always so boring . as it goes underground so there is nothing of the outside world to see. just keep looking at the crowd rushing in and out of the train , at every station. well somtimes i am lucky enough to have a book with me , to read for those 20 minutes of the journey. a couple days back as i was just trying to get comfortable at my seat , i saw this lady sitting in front of me . she was not the most beautiful that i had seen , nor did she do something as such. she was just sitting relaxed , maybe thinking about something, unarguably she is elder to me. i was staring at her and at times she was staring at me . ofcourse not many faces were ther in the compartmen tto look at. maybe we cud have had a long chat but there was somthing that was not allowing us to talk . but we didnt have one. now why is there a "but" here ? what is the rational behinfd it ?
all of a sudden a thought struck my mind , that i dunno y i just wanted to talk to her. and then started a big argument in my mind that , why cant we just go on to talk ith strangers , specially of opposite sex and generally why does the term opposite sex come between two people. it just kept coming to me everytime i had nothing to do in the past 2 days. i thought that well may be the opp. sex thing comes from the fact that the way guys and gals grow up is quite different and thus one always considers that the other sex is not gonna talk take thing the same way as i do . well pondering over it again i think that this a bigger problem in Indian society. as a child in india a small kid is always reminded about their gender and thus the fact that they should act accordingly in public.
a boy is said that there are certain things that are girlie and thus shud not be done by him. and then ther is this usual talking between his mother and her friends, neighbourhood housewives, and they too are talking about the customes and taboos that are lumped on the Indian women in the society. and thus this is the picture that sets in a boys mind . he is always made tro be felt superior to girls and thus gradually starts to have an inferriority feeling towards females. they are taught that they are the main member of the family as they have to bear the burden of running the household in the future . they are never allowed to do household work while their female siblings do so.
as for girls well they do live a life subdued by their male siblings . I needn't hesitate even a little to say how much India hates their girl child . i suppose that the number of female foeticide case must be the largest in India . (way to go India , i just hope that the generation of today gets out of this sick practice.) . they are taught to do household work and , are seldom to excel in studies or rather in anything that generally men do(atleast are traditionally done by males in India) . so this is how it all starts and that too dosent seem to have a rartional behind them.

now quite often do i hear my mother and my elder sister talking about people they meet and observing them and trying to interpret evry small action or words sais. their funda is that girls have to be more observant in all the places. i usually give a damn to all this talks and generally keep myself busy with something else , but what i read in quite a few blogs associated with the The Blank Noise Project blogathon -- issue on eveteasing has given me a new light into this matter. like there are quite a few female bloggers that have written a about there experiences in public and thus it really comes as a surprise to me that how can some men be so shameless , or how dumb do they expect women to be that they would not understand what is going around. or else how confidant they are that they will get away with it coz the lady wudnt dare to make a noise. during the course i also realised that how a lady wud feel when guys stare at her for no reason , like when i am with my groups of friends , well most of them i seeare staring at girls passing by. i always thought that what a wierd timepass they have , but now i realise that maybe it is not just wierd , but it cud be something more disgusting that might be going through their minds.
eve teasing is an issue and not just an issue but a big question mark over what men want. like common let me tell you something . i joined this yahoo group a few days back and they were discussing the possibility that prostitution be legalised in India on the basis that this wud help people satisfy their sexual need and wud reduce extra-maritial affairs and also rape cases in India . well my reaction to it is simple that if a noation with the second highest population in the world is feeling sexually deprived then there is certainly some soul searching to be done.

case study:

The actions of a few...

This incident happened a couple of months ago to a young German friend of mine.

Nat, as I call her, was pursuing a course in Management in Europe and as part of her course stipulations was required to work on a Live project with some corporate. Thats what bought to her India and my company and that was how we met.

Now during her stay in Mumbai, she was put up at the company guesthouse - a flat in South Mumbai - and that was where this ridiculous incident happened.

One morning someone rang her doorbell and left a note behind.

Scrawled on the note was the following proposition -

"Would you like to have sex with me?"

The note was thrown was promptly crumpled and thrown away...but only to replaced the next morning by another.

"Would you like to have Oral sex?"

The second note found itself consigned to the same fate as the first but the pervert was not one to be easily dissuaded and the next morning...

"Just write YES or NO and leave the note outside"

The culprit turned out to be a young 18 or 19 year old guy living next door and was caught red handed as he rang the bell the next morning to deliver yet another note.

White skin must be easy...perhaps thats what the guy thought.

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This is not a collection of X-rated stories and nor will any portion of it titillate you.

Why am I writing this...even I have no clue......these are just things that happened to me.

Perhaps the title is a gimmick or maybe it is not......read this entry and you could decide for yourself.

The City of Angels

It was a boring Monday morning and I was making my way to office.

There was a light drizzle and since I did not particularly relish the thought of getting to office soaking wet, I was forced to take the sheltered route of the shaded promenade that abutted the road.

The whole path was lined with vendors and hawkers peddling everything from postcards to high-end electronics. In fact I had even heard rumors that if you knew the right place you could even find such exotic products as a "libido enhancing chewing gum" or even the Spanish Fly. Now since I did not feel a particularly pressing need for any of these I continued to dodge my way through the crowds.

As I walked on, I noticed these young men standing at the sidelines, eyes keenly watching each and every person passing by. One of them caught my glance and for a moment our eyes locked. A twinkle appeared in his eyes.

"Shit!", I told myself, "Big mistake!"

The guy sidled up to me, even as I walked on ignoring his presence, and began to throw a flurry of words at me

"Sir.....CDs....Sex.....Blue film.....triple X...."

I turned around and looked at him with an expression of disgust that said "Hey you just desecrated my carefully preserved piety", and walked away.

A little distance away I found another peddler with a customer. A nervous middle-aged man nervously inspecting the stack of cds presented to him, his eyes constantly shifting to see if someone was watching his shady transaction.

I remembered something I had seen on a news channel recently. The issue being discussed was the free availability of porn and the police's attempts at controlling it. The presenter raved and ranted about how porn was destroying the Indian culture and corrupting the youth.

“It was strange”, I thought to myself as I watched the peddler and his customer...... “if people did not want to see this kind of stuff how come there were so many people selling them in the first place.”

Maybe before we look at issues of “immorality” and “corruption of society” we need to accept the fact that we are a sex-starved nation, repressed by the taboo associated with the word "sex".

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The Man inside the cage

I was perhaps in my 6th or seventh grade when this incident happened.

My skills in math had always been a matter of concern to my parents and perhaps the reason, why each afternoon I would find myself grumpily trudging for extra tuitions.

On one such afternoon as I was walking down the road, I heard someone beckoning to me. It was hot and the street was empty. I looked around and saw a man waving to me from the balcony of ground floor apartment.

I thought the man needed some help....perhaps something that he needed to fetch. So like the helpful young boy I went up to him. I could not see the man clearly as the room seemed dark from outside and besides he stood behind iron grills. I came close and asked him how I could help him.

But the next thing I knew, my hand was being pulled inside the grill and stroked against something (yuck!). And as he did so he asked me to come inside his place. His dirty disgusting voice still rings clear in my head.

I was terrified.....and pulled my hand free and ran out of his disgusting presence….

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What they did not know

He was quite a known figure at school and also I guess in the local community.

Frequently he was found outside the school doing some odd job or the other. Most mornings he would place himself on the school road regulating traffic and ensuring that the kids got themselves around safely.

But few knew that the man had a penchant for young boys.

And one of his faves was a good friend of mine.

He tried every trick in the book to lure him...

"I got a stack of porn magazines at home.....why don’t you come home and I could show them to you"

"....there is this spot on my terrace from where you can see a woman bathing...."

Fortunately for my friend....better sense prevailed.

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The Boy upstairs

The flat above my house was an empty one and the owners would perpetually give the flat out for rent to some family or the other.

And every time a new family would arrive I would watch with great interest to see if there was some cute girl around.

But alas most of the times this exercise ended in disappointment.

Anyways so once the flat came to be occupied by a family of three including their son who was about a year or two younger to me.

The boy and me kind of became friends.

His family belonged to a religious community that was known for its rigorous practices and code of conduct. The killing of any living being even an insect was considered a sin. So much so that the boy would never step into my kitchen because we cooked meat. In fact this was his first time hanging out with someone who was outside his religion. And his parents encouraged him to spend time with me because they felt it would help improve his broken English.

Anyways one morning while he was hanging around my place he came across a pic of a rather skimpily dressed model in a magazine. Immediately he began to complain about how disgusted he was about what he just saw.

I found his attitude rather strange and a little too prudish for his age, but I shrugged it off.

But in the days that came I would actually find him almost searching out pics and telling me how skimpily dressed the models or females were.

At first the tone was lamenting but soon enough there was a tinge of unabashed appreciation. And then before I knew it.....it seemed his only purpose in life was to very gleefully find sexy pics to show me and talk about them.

In fact once I remember him calling out to me from the window of his house. I went to my balcony and looked up with disbelief as he flashed some pic he had been "lucky" enough to find in one of the newspapers that came to his place.

Was he a pervert......I guess not.....perhaps it was just the craze of the fact that he could actually express himself on something that was completely taboo in his community.

The boy and his family moved on as did most of the tenants who came by.

The last I heard of him.....his parents were planning to change his name by adding an extra "e" or an "i" to better his fortunes in life.

Who knows…..

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the above are all extracts from the blog of alex . alas he is not blogging for a monthe now or else i wud have liked to read his take on this subject.

clearly as a guy when i write on this issue it boggles my mind that how so many men (ofcourse there are so many of them , which is why so many case can be seen written in the blog-o-sphere) thinkand behave in such a manner . eve-teasing is just a prelude to greiver crimes like rape and molestation. how can man be so inhumane to destroy a girls whole life(especially in India with si many social taboos) just for satisfying his lusty desires . what does he get , just a few momnets of fantasy and for that he is ready to completely ruin a life , someone who is more potent of delivering for the society(ofcousre with such sheap thoughts a guys can be called mentally stable).

now when i think of the fact that i was staring at that lady in the train it just makes me feel sick that how cud i do such a thing and how much uncomfortable i cud have made her feel...

now i would take the oppertunity to wish each and every women a proud international womens day , and would like to tell them how much i admire them for how they live with dignity even when such practices carry on around them. i really feel sorry for whatever happens around and pledge to take evasive action against whosoever I find misbehaving with women.(finally i find myself understanding enough to decide what should be done when).

blog-a-thon 2006

international womens day

2006-03-08T01:00:00.000+05:30

hey blog happy birthday to you

2006-02-22T19:11:00.000+05:30

hey blog its been a year since i've known you . a toast goes to our friendship of a year . thankyou for listening whatever i had to say. I didnt care if someone came along or not to see you , but i was happy you were always there and thanks for that.

Another interesting tag

2006-02-20T00:21:00.000+05:30

A. Total number of films I own on dvd/video:
well i have the spiderman movie both part , then i got all the harrypotter ones, then a movie called "city of joy" english movie based on kolkata , then i got Lamhe , then lion king , hazaron khwaishien aisi , padosan , herapheri , FOREST GUMP , Schiendliers list , french kiss, my best friends wedding. and also a few others....

B. The last film i bought
it would be "hazaron khwaishien aisi "yeah a long time back .

C. The last film I watched:
it was a movie called "catch the kid" i saw 2 days back on tv about a group of three kids who rob a bank to get money for an ailing father of one of them. man those kids had some brains.

D. THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
almost everyone calls me Tanuj , some paddy and also rubal(my petname)

E. THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
well it wud be ...... potter , pyare mohan & jugal .

F. THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
ummmm.... a decent build , eyes and hairs which are falling off( oh god help me)

G. THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
well i got hands , legs , every body part at right place so y not like myself . i am very happy the way i am .

H. THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
humm... nothing really.

I. THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
inhuman behaviour of humans , fear of disappointing anyone or hurting anyone and ofcourse spiders. i am really scared of them .

J. THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
pen , book and pc.

K. THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
pant , shirt and my glasses.

L. THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP:
Trust, Care and understanding.

M. THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
click the publish post
catch some sleep
make a plan to prepare for my exams..

N. THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING
some part of finance martket
musician
and if i can make my fortune then a philanthropist

O. THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO FOR A VACATION:
i would really just wanna roam about the whole of India. then maybe Brazil and a trip to Egypt.

thank you

music tag

2006-02-19T23:25:00.000+05:30

Total music files on my computer????

I have my music as a collection of big b in one folder with some 80 songs . then an english and western folder with around 1750 songs including 60+ full album and includes mostly everything from country to pop to rock n roll to blues to mordern rock . then there is folder of kishore da with around 500 songs of the genius . after that i have a hindi and indian folder with bhajans , pop, classical , oldoes , films and ghazals( 200+from jagjit and chitra including the full albums of mirza ghalib ) . after that there is this folder on world music having basically trance and lounge and a few folk from different european countries(about 50 albums in all) . and finally a collection i am very proud of THE KING . yeah i got 20 full albums of the king of rock n roll , non other than ELVIS . so as an answer to the question would be around 6000+ and surely it takes a lots of space on the hard disk but i keep them at low frequency as i only listen on pc. so it takes about 5 gb.

The last CD that I bought ?

Hmm... do I still need to buy a cd??? i generally listen on pc so i generally download or listen online. well the last thing i downloaded was Rang De Basanti .( i am a hugh fan of a.r. rehman . i need to have his songs . i am looking for someone who could guide me to his music in south after all we are deprieved of what he scores down south . maybe i wudnt understand what the singers are singing but still i wud love to hear to them.)

Songs playing right now?

humm ... right now it is banwaraa mann from "hazaron khwaishien aisi"
then kissin cousins = elvis
yeha_noha_(wishes_of_happiness__and__prosperity) = sacred spirit
hum apne dil ka afsana = moview"actress" released in 1948
aanewalaa pal jaanewalaa hai ..... kishore da.
mora saiyan ...fuzon
etc... wagarah wagarah

Five songs which I listen a lot or which mean a lot to me...

well just telling 5 is impossible if i include songs by kishoreji and the ever so great pancham da or even songs older than them say of old hindi movies. so please let me exclude those.

I swear by the moon and the stars in the sky ( well that was the first english song which i actually understood the lyrics of when i heard at a very young age).
summer of '69 by bryan adams . this guy is great and i dunno y when i heard it i just wanted to keep listen ing to it and that is what i do.
american pie - don mclean .. this song was a tribute of the singer to his music partner who died in a plane crash and he refers that day in the song as "the day the music had died " and this is by far the best tribute ever given according to me.
Dil se by a.r.rehman rates as one of the most amazing songs of the mordern Indian cinema. it really makes my mind wander.

this is where i belong by boyzone also comes as a best because this is the first band i really adored . actually i love each and every song of the album of the same name , i used to spend hours just listening to their songs as a kid.

i am so sorry to have not been able to include blowing in the wind or jamaican farewell or last christmas or or or well the list has to be endless...

Five People to whom I'm passing the baton?

again as i am only doing memes this week so i aint tagging anyone just anyone who reads this may do it if he/she has not done it already.

meme of 7

2006-02-17T22:10:00.000+05:30

well this is the quite frequently seen meme of 7

7 Things I Can Do:
1. I can sit on the net for hours at a stretch. ( dont be in awe i have had some terrible backaches at times)
2. I can walk and walk long distances , and that too without anyone to accompany me.
3. i can pull the nuckles of my toes without using my hands.
4. I can make various kind of noices .( like i cud sing we will rock you in a kinda techno voice.)
5. I can sit silently in midst of a crowd and still feel solitary and land up in my sweet own world , not bothered what others are doing.
6. I can go on soing maths problems for 18hrs at a stretch. ( nb: dont even think to talk to me after that.)
7. well i can make faces just like jim carrey , well almost all of them . though cant entertain people because i lack the sense of humour he has.

7 Things I Can't Do:
this wud be easy.
1. I cant swim .
2. I cant ride a bicycle if someone is sitting on the carrier at the back.
3. i cant wake up ealry in the morning for more than a week .
4. I cant keep my clothes up to date , by ironing them regularly . the day i iron is when i realise i have no ironed clothes i could wear.
5. I cant whistle like the really loud ones , that you generally listen in an excited crowd. i can whistle the one that is used in songs .
6. I cant watch anyone fighting , like really fighting.
7. I cant watch the K serials. ( the popular name given to the indian melodrama soaps).

7 Things I Have In My Life Now That I Am So Incredibly Grateful For:

1. my parents . they are just great,and my sister . elder to me and my great pal.
2. The fact that I am an INDIAN.
3. my ability to think logically.
4. a sense of music (which i believe i have , coz i can understand the miniteas of it more than others.)
5. I dont have ego problem . i can be content with the fact that the other guy dosent want to think that what i say is correct.
6. a good temperament with a great ability to hit back. well i can tolerate a person to the max. limit and then when i take the action then i leave him stumped.
7. an image of an honest and disciplined guy wherever i go . i can make mistakes and yet no one thinks that i cud do anything wrong.

7 Things I Hope To Do Before I Die:

1. travel throughout India.
2. travel throughout the world too.
3. learn a form of dance , say slasa or flamengo , or whatever.
4. run across the country for no reason (like forest gump.)
5. contribute significantlyto the development of my country.
6. be able to play in front of poeple( i can play guitar and keyboards but havent yet perfected in it.)
7. make my existance felt in this world.

archieve tag

2006-02-17T21:58:00.000+05:30

ok as i said i found some good tags around in the past 12 months so now i wud be filling out a few myself

here it goes

1. Go into your archives.
2. Find your 23rd post.
3. Post the fifth sentence.
4. Post the text of the sentence in your blog along with these instructions.
5. Tag five other people to do the same thing.

ah ha the 23rd post was a hugh collection of quotes

ok i write the fifth quote in this post for you all....

Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you... Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you!?!- Liz Phair

so there you go ...

well the last instruction of tagging others , well i wud leave it out as i wud be posting only memes all this week...

be roman when in rome

2006-02-16T21:28:00.000+05:30

well for all who might have thought that i belive in v-day looking my previuos posts , well i dont quite believe in this feeling shared by people of my age group itself . it was jusrt that i saw people posting about it at all the blogs so even i did.
i not really am into the idea of having a special day to celebrate , but then i dont think so it shud be opposed too . if someone feels right about celebrating it one mustnt be stopped. but alas for the romeo and juliets of mumbai they have the shivsens guys behind them every year . i think people shud lodge complain against them for violating the freedom of the people.

anyways this month my blog completes 1 year and thus i will be having a tag week . well i never wrote those tag things till now but the coming week you will find a new tag post every day . so watch out.

when love is in the air

2006-02-14T15:47:00.000+05:30

I Love The Way You Love Me

2006-02-14T15:33:00.000+05:30

I Love The Way You Love Me

I like the feel of your name on my lips
And I like the sound of your sweet gentle kiss
The way that your fingers run through my hair
And how your scent lingers even when you're not there
And I like the way your eyes dance when you laugh
And how you enjoy your two-hour bath
And how you've convinced me to dance in the rain
With everyone watching like we were insane

I love the way you love me
Strong and wild, slow and easy
Heart and soul so completely
I love the way you love me

And I like to imitate ol' Jerry Lee
And you roll your eyes when I'm slightly off key
And I like the innocent way that you cry
At sappy old movies you've seen hundreds of times

I love the way you love me
Strong and wild, slow and easy
Heart and soul so completely
I love the way you love me

And I could list a million things
I love to like about you
But they could all come down to one reason
I could never live without you..

I love the way you love me
Strong and wild, slow and easy
Heart and soul so completely
I love the way you love me

happy rose day

2006-02-07T09:05:00.000+05:30

well folks if you wanna pataofy(flirt) someone then here is a dose for the whole week till the 14th.

it hurts me to see people get hurt when they love
thats coz they dont really see wat their eyes see
they live in their own sweet world
that what is meant by being romantic
and not wat is assumed defination of it for most of
the people

well my effort to figure out this strange feeling and
wat i cud collect from others is laid down below
i know ur time is precious but have faith in me i'm
not wasting ur time

infact after reading this i wud like to have ur
feedbacks so that this feeling may be explored in a
more explicit manner.
so go on........

exploring love
-------------------------------------------------
No man is worth your tears, and the one who is, won’t
make you cry.

Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want
them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all
they have.

The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right
beside them knowing you can't have them.

Never frown, even when you are sad, because you never
know who is falling in love with your smile.

To the world you may be one person, but to one person
you may be the world.

Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before
meeting the right one, so that when we finally meet
the person, we will know how to be grateful.

Don't cry because it is over, smile because it
happened.

Make yourself a better person and know who you are
before you try and know someone else and expect them
to know you.

Don't try so hard, the best things come when you
least expect them to

It is better to be hated for what you are than to be
loved for something you are not.

Never be ashamed to show love when you feel it cause
one day you might realize that love is now ashamed to
show itself to you.

it is better to love someone you cannot have, than to
have someone you cannot love.

The eyes whisper I love you dear, the lips move, no
words appear. When your love is true, sincere and
real, what the lips hide, the eyes reveal.

We come to love not by finding a perfect person but by
learning to see an imperfect person perfectly.

It is easy to fall in love but it is hard to find
someone to catch you.

It breaks my heart to see the person I love happy with
someone else, but it breaks my heart even more to see
the person I love unhappy with me.

If you are not ready to cry, if you are not ready to
take a risk, if you are not ready to feel the pain,
then you are not ready to fall in love.

You know it's love when you can't fall asleep cause
reality is better than your dreams.

Why does a rose represent love when a rose always
dies?

You can say you love me... but until you prove it, the
words mean nothing to me.

he broke my heart... so I broke his jaw.

It's amazing how someone can break your heart but you
can still love them with every broken bit of it.

Somewhere, someone dreams of your smile & finds your
presence in life so worthwhile. So when your lonely,
remember its true that someone, somewhere, is thinking
of u.

Falling in love is when she falls asleep in your arms
and wakes up in your dreams!

The day that I'll die, when death replaces birth, I'll
recognize angels' faces, because I live with one on
earth.

I miss you ... I need you ... More and more.... Each
day ... I love you ... more than words ... can ever
say.

The hardest thing in life is watching someone you love
, loving someone else.

Don't love one, don't love two, but love the one who
loves you.

The words are easy when the language is LOVE!

Sometimes words are hard to find, to form that perfect
line to let you know you're always on my mind!

You can fall from a bridge, you can fall from above,
but the best way of falling, is falling in love!

If I could rearrange the alphabet, Id put U and I
together.

Love is like a bird, if you hold it tightly it dies,
if you hold it slightly it flies, better take good
care of it

Every moment we share together is even better than
the moment before. If every days was as good as today
was, then i can't wait until tomorrow comes.

It hurts to love someone and not be loved in return,
but what is
more painful is to love someone and never
find the courage to let that
person know how you feel.

Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before
meeting the
right one so that when we finally meet the
right person, we will know how to
be grateful for that gift.

Love is when you take away the feeling, the passion,
and the
romance in a relationship- and find out you
still care for that person.

A sad thing in life is when you meet someone who
means a lot to
you, only to find out in the end that it was
never meant to be and you just have
to let go.

When the door of happiness closes, another opens but
often times we
look so long at the closed door that we
don't see the one which has been
opened for us.

The best kind of friend is the kind you can sit on a
porch and
swing with, never say a word, and then walk
way feeling like it was the best
conversation you've ever had.

It's true that we don't know what we've got until we
lose it, but
it's also true that we don't know what we've
been missing until it arrives.

Giving someone all your love is never an assurance
that they'll
love you back! don't expect love in return;
just wait for it to grow in their
heart but if it doesn't, be content it grew in
yours.

There are things you'd love to hear that you would
never hear from
the person whom you would like to hear them
from, but don't be so deaf as
not to hear it from the one who says it from
his heart.

Never say goodbye if you still want to work on it -
never give up
if you say you don't love a person anymore
if.....

Love comes to those who still hope although they've
been
disappointed- to those who still believe
although they've been betrayed,
need to love those who still love although
they've been hurt.

It takes only a minute to get a crush on someone, an
hour to like
someone and a day to love someone -but it
takes a lifetime to forget
someone.

Don't go for looks; they can deceive. Don't go for
wealth; even that
fades away. Go for someone who makes you smile
because it takes only a smile
to make a dark day seem bright. Hope you find
the one that makes you smile.

There are moments in life when you miss someone so
much that you
just want to pick them from your dreams and
hug them for real! Hope you dream of
that special someone.

Dream what you want to dream; go where you want to
go; be what you
want to be, because you have only one life
and one chance to do the things
you want to do.

May you have enough happiness to make you sweet,
enough trials to
make you strong, enough sorrow to keep you
human, enough hope to you happy
and enough money to buy me gifts.

Always put yourself in others' shoes. If you feel
that it hurts
you, it probably hurts the person, too.

A careless word may kindle strife; a cruel word may
wreck a life; a
timely word may level stress; a loving word
may heal and bless.

The beginning of love is to let those we love be just
themselves,
and not twist them with our own image
-otherwise, we love only the reflection
of ourselves we find in them.

The happiest of people don't necessarily have the
best of
everything; they just make the most of
everything that comes along their
way.

Happiness lies for those who cry, those who hurt,
those who have
searched, and those who have tried, for only
they can appreciate the
importance of people who have touched their
lives.

Love begins with a smile, grows with a kiss and ends
with a tear.

The brightest future will always be based on a
forgotten past, you
can't go on well in life until you let go of
your past failures and
heartaches.

When you were born, you were crying and everyone
around you was
smiling. Live your life so that when you die,
you're the one who is smiling
and everyone around you is crying.

Love? It's kinda complicated but I'll tell you this...
the second you're willing to make someone else happy,
that's love right there!

Don't find love, let love find you. That's why it's
called falling in love coz you don't force yourself to
fall, you just fall.

Just when you think you've got it all figured out,
you do the dumbest thing you possibly could... you
fall in love.

It's so easy to think about love, to talk about love,
to wish for love. But it's not always easy to
recognize love, even when we already hold it in our
hands.

Would you go for someone who loves you but for you
he's only a friend or would you rather go for someone
you love but for him you're only a friend?

You have to give him a second chance because you love
him. And because whoever said that "plenty of fish in
the sea" thing was lying.

Sometimes, there is only one. Trust me. --- Ally
Mcbeal
I'm here to love you, to hold you in my arms and to
protect you. I'm here to learn from you and to receive
your love in return. I'm here coz there's no other
place to be. ---Message in a Bottle

Every step I took since the moment I could walk was a
step toward finding you.---Message in a Bottle

"I always thought that looking back at my tears would
make me laugh I never thought that looking back at my
laughters would made me cry."

Fate exists but it can only take you so far because
once you're there it's up to you to make it happen.

I know its probably impossible dat we will ever B
2geder but dat dsn't mean we cant have a few laughs
2geder. U know ill take whtevr U can give coz I'm jst
hapi 2 B w/ U!

No woman ever falls in love with a man unless she has
a better opinion of him than he deserves.

Is it possible to be just friends with someone I have
these sort of non-moderate feelings for, or am I
doomed forever to just be in love and ultimately
significantly hurt?

DECISION
"Indecision is like a stepchild: if he does not wash
his hands, he is called dirty, if he does, he is
wasting water."
"The whole world steps aside for the man who knows
where he is going."
"One's mind has a way of making itself up in the
background, and it suddenly becomes clear what one
means to do."
"We can try to avoid making choices by doing nothing,
but even that is a decision."
"Most of the things we decide are not what we know to
be the best. We say yes, merely because we are driven
into a corner and must say something."
"If one does not know to which port one is sailing,
no wind is favorable."

The hardest thing in life is to watch someone you
love, love somone else.

Love is a friendship set on fire

Love is a never ending feeling

Love is like the sun coming out of the clouds and
warming your soul.

you will know the real meaning of love when you fall
in love.

Love is like an eternal flame, once it is lit, it will
continue to burn for all time.

Guys are like stars- so many to pick from but only one
can make all your dreams come true! - Lindy Strahan-

Real love stories never have an ending.

As we grow older together , as we continue to change
with age, there is one thing that will never
change.... I will always keep loving you!!

Through all eternity to thee, a joyfull song I'll
raise, for oh! Eternity is too short to utter all thy
praise.

I love you not only for what you are, but what I am
when I am with you . - Elizabeth Barrett Browning-

Love is the the greatest feeling, Love is like a play,
Love is what I feel for you each and everyday, Love is
like a smile. Love is like a song, Love is a great
emotion. That keeps us going strong, I love you with
all my heart, my body and my soul, I love the way I
keep loving, Like a love I can't control, so remember
when your eyes meet mine, I love you with all my
heart, And I have poured my entire soul into you,
right from the very start.
MY LOVE
My love is like an ocean it goes down so deep, My love
is like a rose whose beauty you want to keep, My love
is like a dove with a beautiful message to send, My
love is like a song that goes on and on forever, My
love is like a prisoner, it's to you that I surrender.

LOVE
Love is like a clump of gold, Hard to get and hard to
hold. Of all the boys I've ever met, your the one I
can't forget, I do beleive that God above created you
for me to love, He chose you from all the rest,
because He knew I would love you the best!

I thought love was just a mirage of the mind, it's an
illusion, it's fake, impossible to find, But the day I
met you, I began to see that love is real, and exists
in me.

Marriges are made in heaven and consummated on earth.

Marrige is not a ritual or an end, it is a long,
intricate, intimate dance together and nothing matters
more than your own sense of balance and your choice of
partner.

Love is a sign from the heavens that you are here for
a reason.

Why is it that I can tell you everything I'm feeling,
except how I feel for you.

Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want
them too, doesn't mean they don't love you with all
they've got.

When you are in love, an hour apart feels like a
lifetime, but together, that same hour feels like a
second in Paradise , I want to be in Paradise forever.

If I was a flower in total darkness your love would be
the little beam of light that keeps me alive.

When you like someone put their name in a circle, not
in a heart, cause hearts can be broken, but circles
can go on forever.

When you love someone, all your saved-up wishes start
coming out.

When you're in love it inspires you and gives you
hope. You have faith that even if you can't be with
them on earth, that if God wills, you will be with
them one day in heaven.

No one realizes the beauty of love, until you're
caught in it. -

You know you truly love someone when everyday you meet
is like the first time you fall in love.-Siti Rafeah-

Love is not fifty fifty, it is not give and take. In
love each partner gives everything they got, and takes
nothing in return.

Falling in love is when he lays in your arms and wakes
up in your dreams.

If I never fall in love again,I'm ok with that because
I had the chance to be in love with you.

You know your in love when everytime you close your
eyes, you see that special someone.

When you are in love nothing matters except that the
other person is happy!

When you fall in love, everything else falls into
place.

Loving someone is like caring for a garden, love it
too much or to little and it dies, but love it just
right and it will live forever.

Forever is not a word... rather a place where two
lovers go when true love takes them there.

To love is to live forever, to be loved is to live a
never ending dream!

Dedicate your life to God, though chose carefully who
you dedicate your love to.

When you were born, you were crying and everyone
around you was smiling,Live your life so that when you
die, you're smiling and everyone around you is crying.

Take a look at what you have, think of all you did to
get it.Remember it only takes a second to lose.

The love we have is God's gift to us , what we do with
it is our gift to God.

Make it perfect , you never know when the last time
will be.

Saying I love you is a major decision in one's life.
Those words should be kept in your heart until you're
ready to commit,to fight for that feeling and to stand
by those words forever.

In fairy tales it begins with,"Once upon a time... and
they lived happily ever after",but in real life it
begins with "They lived happily ever after...once upon
a time"

Life is a song-sing it, Life is a game-play it, Life
is a challenge-meet it,Life is a dream-realize it,
Life is a sacrifice-offer it, Life is love-enjoy it!

You never lose by loving, you always lose by holding
back.

What lies behind us and what lies before us are tiny
matters compared to what lies within us.

Anyone can catch your eye,but it takes someone special
to catch your heart!

When love hits you dead in your face and knocks you
off your feet... get back up and return it with
everything you've got!

If you think my eyes are beautiful, its because they
are looking at you.

Writing a love poem is like writing your heart on
paper.

How can you tell the sun not to shine ,when clouds
exist. How can you ask the leaves not to fall, when
wind exist.How can you tell me not to fall in love
when you exist.

why Gandhiji is the father of our nation

2006-01-30T23:20:00.000+05:30

well it is a well known fact that Gandhiji is considered to be the father of our nation , but really i bet not many a lot about . i would like people to know more about him . click here to know about the man who gave taught us to walk...

nation is ours

2006-01-26T18:15:00.000+05:30

Do you have 10 minutes? Allow me to come back with a vengeance. Got 10 minutes for your country? If yes, then read; otherwise, choice is yours. YOU say that our government is inefficient. YOU say that our laws are too old. YOU say that the municipality does not pick up the garbage. YOU say that the phones don't work, the railways are a joke, The airline is the worst in the world, mails never reach their destination. YOU say that our country has been fed to the dogs and is the absolute pits. YOU say, say and say. What do YOU do about it? Take a person on his way to Singapore. Give him a name - YOURS. Give him a face - OURS. YOU walk out of the airport and you are at your International best. In Singapore you don't throw cigarette butts on the roads or eat in the stores. YOU are as proud of their Underground Links as they are. You pay $5 (approx. Rs.60) to drive through Orchard Road (equivalent of Mahim Causeway or Pedder Road) between 5 PM and 8 PM. YOU comeback to the Parking lot to punch your parking ticket if you have over stayed in a restaurant or a shopping mall irrespective of your status identity. In Singapore you don't say anything, DO YOU? YOU wouldn't dare to eat in public during Ramadan, in Dubai. YOU would not dare to go out without your head covered in Jeddah. YOU would not dare to buy an employee of the telephone exchange in London at 10 pounds (Rs.650) a month to, "see to it that my STD and ISD calls are billed to someone else." YOU would not dare to speed beyond 55 mph (88 km/h) in Washington and then tell the traffic cop, "Jaanta hai sala main kaun hoon (Do you know who I am?). I am so and so's son. Take your two bucks and get lost." YOU wouldn't chuck an empty coconut shell anywhere other than the garbage pail on the beaches in Australia and New Zealand. Why don't YOU spit Paan on the streets of Tokyo? Why don't YOU use examination jockeys or buy fake certificates in Boston? We are still talking of the same YOU. YOU who can respect and conform to a foreign system in other countries but cannot in your own. You who will throw papers and cigarettes on the road the moment you touch Indian ground. If you ca n be an involved and appreciative citizen in an alien country, why cannot you be the same here in India? Once in an interview, the famous Ex-municipal commissioner of Bombay, Mr.Tinaikar, had a point to make. "Rich people's dogs are walked on the streets to leave their affluent droppings all over the place," he said. "And then the same people turn around to criticize and blame the authorities for inefficiency and dirty pavements. What do they expect the officers to do? Go down with a broom every time their dog feels the pressure in his bowels? In America every dog owner has to clean up after his pet has done the job. Same in Japan. Will the Indian citizen do that here?" He's right. We go to the polls to choose a government and after that forfeit all responsibility. We sit back wanting to be pampered and expect the government to do everything for us whilst our contribution is totally negative. We expect the government to clean up but we are not going to stop chucking garbage all over the place nor are we going to stop to pick a up a stray piece of paper and throw it in the bin. We expect the railways to provide clean bathrooms but we are not going to learn the proper use of bathrooms. We want Indian Airlines and Air India to provide the best of food and toiletries but we are not going to stop pilfering at the least opportunity. This applies even to the staff who is known not to pass on the service to the public. When it comes to burning social issues like those related to women, dowry, girl child and others, we make loud drawing room Protestations and continue to do the reverse at home. Our excuse? "It's the whole system which has to change, how will it matter if I alone forego my sons' rights to a dowry." So who's going to change the system? What does a system consist of? Very conveniently for us it consists of our neighbors, other households, other cities, other communities and the government. But definitely not me and YOU. When it comes to us actually making a positive contribution to the system we lock ourselves along with our families into a safe cocoon and look into the distance at countries far away and wait for a Mr. Clean to come along & work miracles for us wi th a majestic sweep of his hand or we leave the country and run away. Like lazy cowards hounded by our fears we run to America to bask in their glory and praise their system. When New York becomes insecure we run to England. When England experiences unemployment, we take the next flight out to the Gulf. When the Gulf is war struck, we demand to be rescued and brought home by the Indian government. Everybody is out to abuse and rape the country. Nobody thinks of feeding the system. Our conscience is mortgaged to money. Dear Indians, The article is highly thought inductive, calls for a great deal of introspection and pricks one's conscience too....I am echoing J.F.Kennedy's words to his fellow Americans to relate to Indians..... "ASK WHAT WE CAN DO FOR INDIA AND DO WHAT HAS TO BE DONE TO MAKE INDIA WHAT AMERICA AND OTHER WESTERN COUNTRIES ARE

TODAY"

happy new year

2006-01-06T22:56:00.000+05:30

happy new year to all , ya a bit late to wish you all but i had my selection exams as soon as the year started , so big time crisis . my hons. papers ended today so i was kinda really pissed of coz we had 4 hons. papers in 4 days so no time to even breath , ofcourse the reason being i am the study the day before the exam kinda guy . so you understand how it was . well so finally i came online and nothing new really that interested me so finally the magical a.r.rehman came to my rescue with his songs from rang de basanti. i specially liked the one that i have also posted for you all . by the way may you all have a very good year ahead.

magic of a.r. rehman

2006-01-06T22:50:00.000+05:30

Rang De Basanti mp3 songs download

Movie Name : Rang De Basanti
Genre: Original Sound Track (Motion Picture)
Released: Dec. 2005
Director: Rakeysh Mehra
Producer: UTV Motion Pictures
Cast: Amir Khan, Soha Ali Khan, Alice Payton, Sharman Joshi, Madhavan, Atul Kulkarni, Om Puri, Waheeda Rehman
Music: A.R. Rahman

08 - Luka Chuppi

Luka Chuppi

Lata

Luka Chuppi bahut huyi saamne aa ja naa
Kahan kahan dhoondha tujhe
thak gayi hai ab teri maa

Aaja saanjh hui mujhe teri fikar
Dhundhla gayi dekh meri nazar aa ja na (2)

A. R. Rahman

Kya bataoon maa kahan hoon main
Yahan udney ko mere khula aasmaan hai
Tere kisson jaisa bhola salona
jahan hain yahan sapno vala
Meri patang ho befikar udd rahi hai maa
Dor koi loote nahin beech se kaate na

Lata

Aaja saanjh hui mujhe teri fikar
Dhundhla gayi dekh meri nazar aa ja na

Lata

Teri raah takey aankhiyaan
jaane kaisa kaisa hoye jiyaa (2)

Dhire dhire aangan utre andhera, mera deep kahan
Dhalke suraj kare ishara chanda tu hai kahan
Mere chanda tu hai kahan
Luka Chuppi bahut huyi saamne aa ja naa
Kahan kahan dhoondha tujhe thak gayi hai ab teri maa

Aaja saanjh hui mujhe teri fikar
Dhundhla gayi dekh meri nazar aa ja na (2)

A. R. Rahman

kaise tujhko dikhaun yahaan hai kya
Maine jharne se paani maa tod ke piya hai
Guchcha guchcha kai khwabon ka uchal ke chuwa hai
Chaaya liya bhali dhoop yahaan hai
Naya naya sa hai roop yahan
Yahaan sab kuch hai maa phir bhi
lage bin tere mujhko akela

Lata

Aaja saanjh hui mujhe teri fikar
Dhundhla gayi dekh meri nazar aa ja na (3)

merry christmas to you all

2005-12-25T00:48:00.000+05:30

It's Christmastime
There's no need to be afraid
At Christmastime, we let in light and we banish shade
And in our world of plenty we can spread a smile of joy
Throw your arms around the world at Christmastime

But say a prayer

Pray for the other ones
At Christmastime it's hard, but when you're having fun
There's a world outside your window
And it's a world of dread and fear
Where the only water flowing is the bitter sting of tears
And the Christmas bells that ring there are the clanging
chimes of doom
Well tonight thank God it's them instead of you

And there won't be snow in Africa this Christmastime
The greatest gift they'll get this year is life
(Oooh) Where nothing ever grows
No rain nor rivers flow
Do they know it's Christmastime at all?

(Here's to you) raise a glass for everyone
(Here's to them) underneath that burning sun
Do they know it's Christmastime at all?

Feed the world
Feed the world

Feed the world

Let them know it's Christmastime again

Feed the world
Let them know it's Christmastime again